Respawn

Chapter 69: When I Lost Everything

"Please, Takahashi, stop talking! I have given you my command!" Katsumi yelled. The king stood up with an angry expression on his face. "You are fortunate that Katsumi is present and attempting to exert control over you. If she isn't there, you're probably going to say something that will end your life. Don't brag just because you escaped my clutches the last time you were about to die. I'm not sure why she made you her subordinate, but don't be arrogant just because you became a gold knight and she delegated authority to you. I am watching you, and if you say even one thing that I despise, you will be sentenced to death once more. Do you get what I'm saying?" said the king. Katsumi is simply shielding me the entire time.

"Please, king, don't punish my subordinate he was simply taken away by his emotions, and he will remain silent for the time being, but please allow me to explain it to him," Katsumi replied. She gently touched my back, as if she were soothing me. "I understand how difficult it is for you. The mystical scroll can't be altered by anyone else's power. I don't want to be blunt with you since it could be too difficult for you, but I believe you need to know this. You must face the fact that your wife and friend are already dead. You must move on and carry on with your life. It is difficult to begin a new life, but you must, because there is no option for you to be with them because you will live on in this world where we will just keep respawning."

They're dead, and no amount of convincing myself that they're still alive will erase the fact that they're already dead. I'm just playing with my head and using my beliefs as an excuse to avoid the fact that they're already dead and can't be found anywhere in this world. I don't know how I'm going to start my life without them. I'm not sure what the point of living is anymore. "In a week, we will mourn their loss and officially declare their deaths. I urge everyone to wear black and pray for these innocent souls. Their contributions to our community will not be forgotten, and they will live on in people's hearts. We wish them well in obtaining the peace that only they can enjoy."

Saki was always by my side, protecting me. When I was in danger, Yuu was there to save me. Tori was always there to look after me and make sure I had plenty to eat. They were always there for me when I needed them, but I couldn't do anything to help them. With the power I have, I can't even defend them. I'm such a loser that I've lost touch with all of the significant individuals in my life as a result. I'm not going to be able to forgive myself for being such a jerk all this time. Bara puts her hand on my back and tries to console me. I don't need warmth right now because all I want to do is cry and let out all the tears, I am holding in. We bow to the king one more time before leaving.

"I'm sorry, Takahashi," Katsumi murmured. She didn't have to apologize because it wasn't her fault in the first place. She simply wants to be honest with me, and I believe that is exactly what she should do. I suppose this is preferable to giving me false hope. "Takahashi If I have offended you, please accept my sincere apologies. I simply need to be honest with you, and I apologize if I came across as disrespectful. I'm thinking of you as well because I don't want you to continue speaking in front of the king because we already know about your disagreement with him. Please consider my viewpoint "Katsumi remarked. Just so I can try to comprehend her, she doesn't have to say please. "Katsumi, I understand you and you don't have to be that way. I'm fine and I'm sure," I said.

"After all this time, how can you claim that you are fine? You were on the verge of losing everything, and now all you have is yourself. You'll tell me you're fine after losing your brother, your wife, and a loyal friend? What a liar you are "Katsumi remarked. Because I believe I am a liar, I am accustomed to being labelled one. It is preferable to become a liar than to appear pitiful. "I'm leaving at this time. I must return to my residence "As I previously stated, "Takahashi, don't leave without bidding me farewell! I haven't given you permission to leave yet, and as my subordinate and gold knight, you are expected to obey me! "She expressed her emotions.

I turned to face her and bid her farewell with a polite salute. "Please allow me to return to my own home at this time, as your knight," I begged. Katsumi still doesn't want me to leave, and I don't think she'll let me return home. Katsumi's shoulder is held by Bara. "Allow him to take his time. He needs peace and time to think about and digest things "Bara remarked. Katsumi is most likely concerned about me right now. We aren't even friends or close friends. We're just strangers who happen to converse and collaborate with one another. How can she be concerned about someone she hasn't met in a long time like me? "Fine," Katsumi responded, "I'll let you go back to your house."

"Please promise to return to us and work with us again tomorrow. We'll be waiting for you, and there are some tasks that you'll have to complete tomorrow. Right now, I'll give you permission to rest "Katsumi remarked. "Thank you," I say with a bow. I move away, but I have the impression that they are still staring at me. They're undoubtedly thinking I'm a really unfortunate person for losing everything I hold valuable. "Takahashi!" Katsumi let forth one last scream. I pause for a moment to listen to what she has to say. "I am always there if you require any assistance. We can be your family if you lose yours. Please open your heart for us because you are still not alone "she remarked

I arrived at my house, and as soon as I opened the door, everything felt different. The lights are turned off and the room is completely black. My wife isn't here to cook and prepare the meals at our dining table, therefore the house is really quiet. When my friends come to visit, I remember how we all appear together. We are a boisterous bunch who are always having a good time. Everything in and around this house is now a distant memory, and those events will never occur again. When I look at the picture frames in my house, I think of the last person who is probably still alive. Lyka, my daughter, comes to mind. I have to speak with Lyka. We need to discuss, and I need to tell her about her mother and Auntie's deaths. She'll be unhappy.

When I opened the hologram, her name appeared alongside Saki's. I click her name to speak with her, but just as I'm about to type the words I want to say to her, there's a message that says I can't chat with this person any longer. When I read her information and profile, I notice that there is a mark and indicator that she is already deceased. She, too, died as a result of this unexplained occurrence. I'm all alone right now. In this darkness, I burst into tears and cry alone. I'm not sure where to begin. The gods most likely despise me and allow me to endure so much. He wouldn't even let me have one person who I could keep. He robbed me of everything. He undoubtedly enjoys seeing me in a state of sorrow and pain. All I want to do right now is cry till I pass out.

My back and head are both in excruciating pain. A lady's voice said, "Young man." With her wooden stick, she began to lightly strike my arms. "Hello there, young man. Get up! "While poking my body with her stick, she said. When I opened my eyes, I was taken aback to discover that it was the land lady. "What happened to your wife? We've already discussed the rules in this apartment, and we've agreed that the room you rent cannot be this shamble. You didn't even do the dishes. Look at how filthy every area of this room is, and then ask yourself why your eyes are so red. Did you cry the night before? ", she enquired. I get to my feet and begin cleaning up the entire room.

I didn't realize it was already morning and the sun was already high in the sky. I'm sure I'm up late at night without realizing it. The land lady is still in my room, and I'm beginning to wonder why she's there. "Could you tell me why you've come to my room?" I inquired. She sat her hands on her waist and looked at me with a scowl on her face. "Of course, I'm here to collect your rent payment! Did you forget about your pledge to pay the whole amount this month? "she stated I check my virtual wallet and see that there isn't enough money to pay her. Right now, my life is a complete disaster. What am I supposed to do now? She had no intention of allowing me to stay for another month.

"To tell you the truth, I don't have enough money right now to pay you the full sum. Permit me to extend my stay for another month. Please enable me to stay because I spent so much money celebrating my daughter's remaining days. Please allow me and give me another chance because I have nowhere else to go. I swear I'll put in the effort to pay for everything "I begged at the land lady. She entered my room, opened my closet, and retrieved my belongings. "What are you up to?" I inquired. She continues to throw my belongings and clothes outside the apartment, and she continues to throw all of my belongings outside. "Enough is enough! We've already talked, and you've agreed to pay the rent! I'm not going to let you stay here any longer! Get out there and find a place to stay!" she said.