Respawn

Chapter 88: Making Friends

You have no clue how much I give up for you or how much guilt I carry around with me every day because of you. Just for you, I keep lying to other people and to myself. You're probably aware of how good it feels to be treated the way you want to be treated. It's incredible to wake up every morning thinking about someone you want to be with, and even more incredible to know that you'll be seeing each other every day since you share a mansion "she stated. I'm not sure who she's referring to. I'm not sure if she's talking about me, Darius, or Bara, so I'll simply listen to what she says next. She seems to want to tell me things that she has been keeping hidden for a long time.

"Then one day, I awoke pleased and ready, and Bara appeared. She expressed her admiration for you. What am I supposed to do in the situation? I promise her that I will back her up on this. Bara holds a special place in my heart. I want her to be content, and seeing her smile makes me content as well. I'm not going to betray her. She is far too kind to betray me, and she has already been serving me for a long time. Do you know what it's like to be in pain? It's difficult to act as if you're fine with your cousin and the man you love being together. Takahashi, I love you too, but we can't be together for Bara's sake "she stated She loves me, too, and she's been suppressing her feelings all this time so that we don't hurt Bara.

"Then came Darius, who proposed to me. I accepted his proposal under pressure from the king and the throng. I begin to realize that he is not a stranger to me, but rather a childhood friend. Darius is a kind man, and knowing you'll be in the care of Bara isn't a bad thing. She is capable of looking after you, and I am confident that she will supply you with all you require in life. You'll have Bara, and I'll have Darius. I'll be marrying Darius soon, and I know how much you're suffering as a result of my actions. If you believe your decision is correct, I will not ask you to stay any longer. Perhaps you've already suffered enough. I'm letting you go because you deserve serenity and happiness, "she remarked.

"Yes, you are correct. I'd had enough of suffering. You've been through enough. We've both suffered enough, and it's time to call it quits. Love isn't supposed to be filled with pain. If the two of us are causing each other a lot of pain, then it is not the love that we deserve. I don't want to bind you to the idea that there is still hope between us while you suffer and are already committed to another man. We deserve love that will bring us happiness for the rest of our lives, and as someone who likes you, I hope you find that kind of love. I guess this is the end of the story now?" I stated. What a pity to meet the right person at the wrong time. It's heartbreaking to know you both love each other but can't be together.

"I suppose this is the end of the story. Thank you so much for everything. I apologize for not being able to provide you with the love you deserve. I'm hoping you'll find the kind of love you're looking for. You will undoubtedly find it! Simply believe in yourself and strive to be a better person, and you will find the right person "She stated. She had no idea who I was looking for as the right person. "I'm hoping to find her. I will make certain that she is well-treated and that she receives all of my love. I'm hoping that when I start looking for the right person, fate will lead me to you. Even though we are far apart, I hope that there is a chance that you are the right person for me "I stated.

"That is not going to happen. Maybe the day you return, I'll have my own family and will be married. Destiny is unpredictable, and things happen unexpectedly, so I suppose there is a chance it will happen "She stated. I'll look for myself and strive to be a better person. I will improve myself for the sake of myself and the girl who is destined for me. I give her a tight hug one last time before I leave. "Promise me that you'll be happy even if I'm not there. I hope you'll be pleased with Darius. I hope you and your partner will treat each other well. Remember to smile every day. Please be safe and live a prosperous life. Please put me out of your mind and begin a new life," I stated.

I hug her even tighter than before, and I can tell she's starting to cry. I don't want to look at her and feel compelled to leave. I don't want to see her cry, therefore I've made the decision to leave. This is for us, and I'm well aware that I must act. I let go of her grip and didn't dare to look her in the eyes one final time. I don't want her to see my face because that will be the moment I leave her. Please enjoy your life without me. I take a step away from her. I didn't even say my goodbyes to the residents of the mansion. I didn't even bid Bara farewell. It makes no difference because I won't be seeing them at all. Everyone who lives in this mansion, especially Katsumi, will be remembered.

It's interesting how I try to flee the only place that will let me stay, and now I'm not sure where I'll go. Sometimes I get the impression that this isn't the life I want. This is not the life I had envisioned for myself. I'm completely lost and don't feel like I belong anywhere. I began to recall how everything began to crumble when I lost my brother, friend, and wife. Maybe I won't be able to live without them. I've become accustomed to having them at my side, protecting and supporting me. Life was much happier before, and that type of enjoyment will never happen to a man like me again. It's all just memories now, and I'm pleased they happened.

I take a seat on the lobby bench. I recognize how ridiculous it is for me to fall in love with someone, even if it is my recently deceased wife. If she's watching me from above, I'm curious to see how she reacts when she finds that I'm falling in love with someone new. I'm not sure if she's upset because I'm already in love, having feelings for someone, and offering affection that is solely meant for her. I'm not sure if she's delighted that after my saddest day, when they abandoned me and died, I still find happiness and there's someone who offers me light and hope. Tori, are you content? I'm not sure what your responses will be, but I simply want to express my regret for everything. I'm sorry for you.

Tori, I hope your spirit is doing well wherever you are. Don't worry, even if I've already found someone else, I'll still want to meet you if the opportunity arises. Even if I fall in love with someone else, there is still a place in my heart for you, and it will always be there. I'm hoping she's reading my mind right now. I get up and take a look around. Is it time for me to play a game right now? It's been a long time since I've played games. I'm starting to feel extremely old when I realize that my friends are no longer here. People leave me all the time, and I'm always waiting for them, even if it's impossible for them to return. I'll continue because it's the right thing to do. I'm going to be brave.

I take a glance at the game list in front of the lobby. I'm not in the mood to play Arrow Void, so I'm going to attempt to find something else to play. I should make an effort to socialize with others and build friends with them. I don't think I can remain sad any longer, and I don't think anyone else would be there for me. Of course, no one would be there for me because I continue to wish for the presence of those who have passed on. I'm going to make some new friends. I need friends who will stand by my side and share their joys and sorrows with me. I'm confident in my abilities. I may be hesitant to seek out a friend in a game, but I will do my hardest to find one. I'm hoping I don't come across as strange or odd.

I noticed a simple game. It appears to be a simple game to play. Block Party is the name of the game. The battleground in this game are colorful blocks, creating the whole floor. The game's rules are simple: stand on the block with the same color as the blocks you're holding in your hand. You will fall and die if you do not step on the blocks of the same color as the ones in your hand. It appears to be simple and entertaining. I should give it a shot. I joined the game of Block Party, and we're still waiting for more players to join us in the lobby. There are already a lot of gamers in this game. Should I make an effort to talk to at least one person? Unless they do, I'm not sure how to start a conversation.

I notice a young woman who is by herself. This is incredibly awkward. Well, she appears to be pleasant and courteous, so I'll give it a shot. I take a step towards her, waving my hand. I said, "Hey." "I'm sorry if this is an inappropriate question, but I'm interested if... you know... Do you have a friend?" I inquired. She is simply staring at the ground. I'm guessing she didn't hear me. I tap her shoulder lightly to get her attention. "If you're going to do something obscene, don't do it here in public!" exclaimed the lady. I was terrified, thinking she was referring to me. I panicked and dashed over to her to explain what was happening. "No, this is a misunderstanding. I'm not trying to bother her; I'm simply trying to make friends with her! "I stated.

"Please believe me, I swear! You can inquire as to whether I truly harassed her "I went on to say. Her brows furrow as she glances at me. "What's your name? I'm not referring to you "she stated Isn't she referring to me? So, to whom is she referring? The people around me are staring and laughing at me because I am in denial and worry about a woman's yell. "Oh so... I'm sorry, but who are you talking about?" I inquired. She points her finger to a couple in the lobby on the other side of the hall. "I'm referring to the couples that are kissing in this area! Stop kissing or I'll call a knight to investigate the two of you! ", she stated