Broken Promises

The morning after

“Come on” he took me by the hand and led me into the bathroom.

“Huh?” I looked at him confused.

“Trust me” he smiled. I followed behind him as he walked into the shower, letting the water run over me once again as Lucas’s hands held my waist tightly.

“f**k” he whispered maybe he didn’t think I could hear him so I stayed quite as I dipped my head out of the water.

“Everything okay?” I asked looking at his perfect body.

“Yeah” he said quickly.

He took the shampoo bottle and started to wash my hair. After that I rinsed and he washed my hair, after that he washed my body and as I rinsed myself off, he got out and pulled a towel out of the towel warmer as well as a robe.

I stepped out of the shower as he handed me a towel.

“Okay what's wrong?” I asked confused.

“What? I just like to treat girls right after I have s*x with them” Lucas scoffed.

“No, it’s something else, this is above and beyond. You could’ve just cuddled with me in bed or gotten me a drink if I asked for one.” I answered crossing my arms.

“Fine. Did you lie about not being a virgin?” He asked.

“No?” I answered honestly.

“Then why did it hurt so much?” He asked raising a brow.

“It’s just been a while since I've done anything with anyone” I laughed.

“Like how long?” He asked confused.

“s*x? A while, other things a couple months” I answered.

“So, I didn’t just take your virginity?” He asked.

“No” I rolled my eyes.

“Good” He laughed.

“You are an idiot.” I smirked walking towards the mirror.

“Hey!” He chuckled following me.

“I kinda don’t want this end” I sighed leaning into him.

“I know what you mean” He smiled as I watched him in the mirror, a look of sadness flashed across his face.

“So why did you break up with Jessica?” I asked.

“She was clingy” He scoffed walking out of the bathroom.

“So, what Luka said wasn’t true?” I asked watching a conflicting expression cross his face.

“Part of what he said was true, I don’t take kindly to people disrespecting you” He sighed.

“Why? You do” I laughed

“I don’t disrespect you Rylee” He answered. He looked angry that I thought of it like that.

“Then what would you call it Lucas?” I scoffed.

“I joke with you, but I would never disrespect you in any way” He answered taking my hand in his.

“Could’ve fooled me” I said annoyed, rolling my eyes.

“Rylee I would never think of disrespecting you” He replied, searching my gaze.

“Sometimes it seems like it Lucas, I get it. We are from different worlds now but not everything has to be about how horrible my life turned out, or how I’m stuck in some group home trying to find a glimmer of hope to hold onto so I don’t throw myself off a bridge.” I scoffed.

“Rylee, it doesn’t matter what worlds we are in now, I don’t think of you any differently now that you live in a group home. You are still Rylee Banks; terrible things have happened but they only shaped you to be the person you are supposed to be. And if you ever need someone to talk you off that ledge you’re standing on, I’m always a phone call away. I’ll be there whenever you need me.” He answered cupping his hands on my face.

I didn’t know what to say, I watched as his eyes studied my face trying to find an expression. If I didn’t know any better, I would think that was a love confession but if I say that he might just stick his nose up at me or get mad that Luka got into my head, he did but I couldn’t let Lucas know that.

“Thanks Lucas, I guess you’re a good friend” I smiled playful pushing him back.

“We should go to bed” He smiled lightly.

“Yeah” I smiled crawling into bed as I felt him crawl in beside me, his arm wrap around my torso pulling me close. I quickly fell asleep letting my body relax fully for one night.

LUCAS’S P.O.V.

The events from last night unfolded in my head as I watched Rylee sleep. She looked so peaceful, so quiet. I sat for a moment longer thinking about how good it felt to be with her, even if it was just for a night, dancing at the Gala, the movie night, the s*x, and best of all falling asleep beside her. Wrapping my arms around her and holding her knowing she was safe in my arms. The thoughts of the s*x came flooding in as I remembered the feeling of her warm c*m on my hand as I finished her off, or the way she tasted. How good she sounded as I was pounding into her, how hard she had to bite down to stifle her moans that were slowly turning into screams unknowingly I ran my hand over the indent her mouth had left and a small smirk crossed my face, how tight she was around me. f**k.

“Hey” She mumbled as she looked at me.

“Good morning darling” I smiled.

“Darling?” She chuckled.

“Sorry, I can’t stop thinking about last night” I chuckled.

“Oh yeah?” She smirked moving on top of me.

“Yeah” I smirked running my hands up her body.

“Do you think we have time to do it again” A devilish smile appeared on her lips. I checked my phone, 6:30 am. She doesn’t have to be back until 8.

“Yeah” I smirked throwing my phone down on the bed, dragging my hands through a fist full of her hair, crashing my lips into hers.

“You sure you want to?” I asked breathlessly.

“Definitely” She bit her lip as she grinded her hips against my boxers.

I flipped her over, grabbing a condom from my drawer and slipping it on my already hard c**k. I dipped my hand between her legs slipping a finger inside her sweet p***y only to find that she was already wet and ready.

“Wet for me already Babygirl?” I whispered in her ear as she moaned into my neck.

“f**k” She moaned louder as I worked her a little longer.

“What do you want Babygirl” I groaned as she was grinding on my hand trying to find relief.

“f**k me Lucas” She moaned

“With pleasure” I smirked as I moved to slip my hard throbbing c**k into her.

“f**k” I groaned as I slowly entered her, a small moan escaped my mouth as her sweet p***y took my entire length of me. She moaned and clawed at my back as I pushed deep inside of her.

“f**k Lucas” She moaned; my name has never sounded better. I started going faster, a little harder. I felt her tighten around me I picked up the pace a little more, as I groaned and moaned at the sudden tightness of her. I knew she was climaxing, I slowed down just a little enough for her to ride it out comfortably.

“You okay babygirl?” I groaned into her ear as she bit into my neck.

“Mhm” She mumbled.

I thrusted in and out keeping a steady pace as she tried to contain her moans.

“Lucas” She moaned lowly into my ear as I coaxed her to her next climax. Forcing myself not to, I stopped for a moment and took her hard n****e in my mouth, sucking on it as she moaned lowly, I bit and pulled just a little to mix pain with pleasure.

“f**k” She moaned louder.

“So, you like pain to?” I asked contently.

“Mhm” she mumbled biting her lip, running her hands through my hair.

“Should’ve told me that” I groaned as I wrapped my hand around her throat tightening my grip just a little. Her stifled moans were bringing me closer to my climax. I thrusted faster and harder, until I could barely hold it in anymore.

“Oh, f**k Lucas” She moaned as she reached hers, I couldn’t hold it back anymore.

“f**k” I groaned as I released my grip and left myself c*m.

“f**k” she said breathlessly underneath me.

I looked down at her, brushing a piece of hair from her face; planting a kiss on her cheek before sliding out of her.

“That was” She mumbled.

“Yeah” I smiled.

“What time is it?” She asked rolling over towards her phone.

“Come back” I groaned forcing her towards me.

“Lucas” She giggled.

“Just a few minutes” I sighed pulling her closer.

“Fine” I felt her let out a small sigh as she relaxed into my arms.

A few moments went by before she moved slowly.

“Where are you going” I said tightening my grip.

“I have to pee” She laughed

“Fine” I groaned releasing her.

She grabbed her phone and headed to the bathroom; I searched the bed for mine that I had thrown down earlier.

‘20 new messages’ I sighed and rolled my eyes opening them.

Text: Marissa.

'Everything okay? You are usually up by now'

'I'm starting to worry about you'

'Max is to, please call me'

'Rylee'

I looked at the phone confused realizing she took mine by mistake.

“Rylee you have my phone!” I yelled to the bathroom.

“I know!” She yelled back, sounding angry.

“Take it!” She yelled as she threw the phone at me.

“Hey what's wrong?” I asked confused.

“How long Lucas” She yelled at me as she put her clothes on.

“How long what?” I asked confused.

“The f*****g bet Lucas!” she yelled tears forming in her eyes.

The f*****g bet, I forgot about the bet.

“Rylee, I forgot I even made a bet” I answer honestly.

“No f**k you Lucas!” She yelled grabbing her phone off the bed walking towards the door, I quickly threw on sweatpants and followed her.

“Ry wait!” I yelled as she ran down the steps.

“No Lucas, you made a f*****g bet. Who could get with me first? What the f**k!” She yelled drawing the attention from the kitchen.

“I wasn’t a part of it!” I defended.

“You weren't apart of it?” She laughs sarcastically.

“No, I mean I was I just didn’t care for it.” I said truthfully.

“What's going on?” Luka asked as he ran down the steps.

“Well good news Lucas you won bragging rights, hope that makes you feel better about your shitty ass social status!” She yelled as the tears streamed down her face.

“What the f**k did you do?” Luka stepped towards me.

“Nothing!” I yelled.

“f**k you Lucas, and your little f*****g bet!” Rylee spat at me as she walked out the door with tears staining her cheeks.

“A f*****g bet!” Luka yelled questioning me.

“Luka enough! Take Rylee home!” My father yelled.

Luka looked at me and if looks could kill I would be dead. He was shooting daggers at me as he walked past. f**k I mumbled to myself, turning and slamming my fist into the wall.

RYLEE’S P.O.V.

I storm out of the house as tears flood down my face. All of it was a f*****g lie? How f*****g stupid am I? I scoff to myself as I walk towards the gate shaking my head. He could never like someone like me, let alone love someone like me, I was a f*****g bet and he won it. In one week, I will be 16, and I couldn’t even realize I was being played.

“Rylee!” Luka called after me as his footsteps got closer.

“I’ll take you home” He smiled sweetly at me.

“I want to walk” I sighed and kept walking.

“It's like 20 miles away Rylee, it would take you at least 7 hours to get there” Luka sighed as he wrapped his arms around me.

“f**k!” I yelled as loud as I could.

“Come on” He led me to his car and opened the door for me.

We drove in silence for a few minutes before my thoughts were eating away at me.

“Am I really that f*****g stupid!” I raised my voice.

“No, Lucas is stupid.” Luka replied.

“f**k him!” I yelled.

“Yeah, f**k him!” Luka smiled.

“I’m so tired of all this f*****g bullshit anymore!” I yelled.

“What’s going on Rylee?” Luka asked. I broke. I’m f*****g broken, tears ran down my cheeks as I brushed them away.

“I’m just so tired Luka” I sniffled.

“Tired of what?” he asked.

“Living” I mumbled.

“Rylee no” Luka said sternly.

“You aren't allowed to give up just because things are hard.” Luka answered.

“It's not just that things are hard Luka, I’m slowly spiraling into a f*****g black hole.” I answered.

“I’m always here if you want to talk Ry” He smiled as we pulled up to the house.

“Do you want me to walk you in?” He asked, giving me a friendly smile.

“No, it’s okay. Thank you for everything Luka” I smiled getting out of the car. I don’t really care to be here but for whatever reason I force myself inside as everyone waits for me in the living room.

“Rylee!” Melissa yelled running up to me.

“Hey” I smile, putting on a show is my best bet right now.

“Cute Pjs” She smirks.

“Yeah” I scoff.

“Where are John and whatever her name is?” I ask uninterested.

“I tried calling you a bunch of times but you didn’t answer, he had to take her to the hospital early this morning, she was throwing up blood” Noah said.

“Nice” I rolled my eyes and left out a half chuckle.

“Rylee did something happen?” Max asked.

“Nope.” I scoff as I walk up the steps.

“Rylee stop!” Jason demands

“f**k you” I scoff walking back down the steps.

“What?” He asks confused, taken aback by my response.

“You f****d me over, you physically hurt me, you mentally f****d me up!” I yelled stepping closer to him.

“Watch it” Jason sneers.

“Or what asshole!” I yelled in his face.

“Rylee!” Max yelled as I pushed Jason back.

“You abused me for months, and I was quite about it. I handled it my own way, but you just came in and f****d everything up because I got a little too touchy with someone who wasn’t you?” I yelled in his face again.

“Well f**k you Jason, I f****d Lucas last night!” I yelled slamming my hands onto his chest as hard as I could before he looked at me confused, hurt, a conflicting feeling came across me.

“f**k you Rylee” Jason spat.

“Never” I laughed and turned to walk upstairs.

“That’s why everyone makes a bet to see who you’ll hook up with first right? Lucas won so he gets bragging rights, right?” He said as a smirk followed his words.

I turned around on the steps, I was done. I was so f*****g tired of everyone walking all over me. I ran at him with my fist balled begging to meet contact, I lunged at him before I was caught.

“You need to chill out!” Maxwell yelled as he carried me outside.

“f**k you!” I yelled.

“Rylee, I know you don’t mean that” Max smirked.

“I just want to go shower and go back to sleep for a little Max, you can walk me upstairs and to the bathroom if it'll make you feel better” I scoffed as I walked back towards the door.

“Rylee enough. Whatever happened it's not worth going through all of this bullshit” Maxwell grabbed my arms, I winced in pain.

“Rylee I’m sorry I didn’t mean to” He pulled away quickly.

“Don’t worry about it.” I forced a smile on my face and braved my way in the house.

“Hey Jay, I'm sorry. I was out of line. Just not having the best day, okay?” I smiled as I felt the tears start to well.

“I shouldn’t have said anything about the bet, and I’m sorry for hurting you. I was not in the right mind set.” he smiled.

“Don’t worry about it” I turned and walked upstairs as Max followed behind me.

“I’m fine, okay?” I scoffed as I slammed the bathroom door shut.

I sat in the shower running over every conceivable way the rest of the day could go. I was prepared too just let everything go all at once but my body had a pent-up need for release. I looked around the room for anything that could help me when I remembered something I had hidden in the bathroom months before. I left the shower running and stepped out, lifting a small part of a broken tile. I smiled as I saw the flash of the silver blade. I pulled it out pouring rubbing alcohol on it so it was clean before stepping back into the shower holding it tightly as I fought with myself to drag it across my skin.

“f**k” I mumbled as I pressed the blade and slid it across my wrist lightly. I smiled as I watched the blood bubble out of my skin, one more. And another. And another. Okay last one. I thought to myself as I continued over and over again, going a little deeper than the first.

I sat at the bottom of the shower as the blood mixed with the water and ran off my skin.

“Rylee you okay in there?” Max asked as he opened the door.

“Yeah, I'm fine” I said happily as I stood up.

“Okay, just checking” he said and closed the door.

I finished showering and put peroxide on the fresh cuts as well as gauze and an ace bandage to keep the pressure before heading over to my room. Melissa moved out last night so now it was just mine.

“Need help?” Melissa asked as she walked in the door.

“I’m fine” I smiled pulling out long sleeve shirts and leggings.

“You feeling a little down today?” She asked.

“I love you Melissa but I just don’t want to talk about the last 24 hour okay?” I smiled opening my bed room door.

“Come to me if you do?” She smiles as she walks out the door

“Of course” I smile closing the door behind her.

I get dressed and sit on my bed, looking at the walls I’ve grown to hate so much. I check my phone on instinct I open a message from Max.

‘I had to head home for a bit but I’ll be by later. Stay out of trouble darling’

I sigh to myself. I’m to hard on everyone else, sometimes.

‘Rylee please answer me. I completely forgot about the bet, last night was about anything but winning that stupid f*****g bet to me’

I read Lucas’s texts and tears formed in my eyes.

‘Why does he suck so f*****g much?’ I texted Luka a screenshot of the message.

‘I’m not sure Ry. How he got so f****d up I’ll never know.’

‘I’m so tired Luka’

‘I know. But you have to keep going. It will get easier.’

‘Jake told me what happened after I dropped you off. Total outbreak huh? ’

‘Total meltdown’

‘Feel better?’

‘Sure’

‘Smile for me’

‘Only for you’

I sighed as I put my phone away, ignoring everyone was simple. Hiding the new scars on my body was going to be a little harder I guess.

I walked downstairs, starting on my chores as I was sweeping and moping the floors John walked in.

“Rylee your back!” He smiled.

“Yep!” I smiled back at him.

“Thanks for keeping up with the cleaning Rylee” He smirked

“No problem” I smiled focusing on the chores at hand as he walked upstairs.

“Oh sorry I didn’t know you were down here” Jason said as he walked into the kitchen.

“It’s fine. What do you need?” I smiled.

“Just a drink” He answered

“kind?” I asked

“Coke” He smirks, I reach in the fridge pulling out a bottle of coke and tossing it to him.

“Thanks” He smiled.

“Yep” I say lowly diverting my attention to the floors.

“You okay?” He asks.

“Yep” I let my face force a smile.

“Rylee” He looks at me. Pleading with me.

“I can’t just go back to normal Jay. You hurt me for no reason” I answer meeting his gaze.

“Okay. Let’s unpack that together” He says lowly. Sitting on the floor outside of the kitchen.

“Huh?” I raised a brow.

“Let’s talk Rylee. Have a serious conversation.” He answered.

“Okay?” I said confused.

“I’m really sorry for hurting you. I took something else that night and I didn’t realize I hurt you as bad as I did, I couldn’t control my anger or how I was acting until I was coming down from it. I’ve felt like s**t ever since Rylee” He answered, seemingly honest.

“You shouldn’t take things without knowing how it will affect you around me. You can barley control yourself as is” I replied.

“I know. Some other people were doing it and I decided to try it when I was offered it. I’m seriously sorry Rylee” He replied wholeheartedly.

“Thank you” I smiled.

“So, you hooked up with Lucas?” Jason gritted his teeth.

“I don’t feel like this is a conversation we should be having so soon” I answer lowly putting my head down.

“Trust me. If I feel like I’m going to do anything I’ll tell you to stop okay?” He pushes.

“Okay” I sigh pausing for a moment trying to put it into better words then good s*x but shitty the morning after.

“So yeah, I hooked up with Lucas, and he didn’t pressure me in to it or anything” I shrugged while moving my attention to clean the skin.

“So, was it good?” Jason asked, I looked at him and stifled a brow.

“Just trying to be helpful” He gave me a confusing look.

“I mean it was s*x Jay.” I snickered.

“Good point, did you know about the bet?” He asked.

“Not until this morning” I replied in a cold tone choking back the tears.

“What happened this morning?” He asked in a curious tone.

“I got up to use the bathroom and grab his phone by accident. I started reading the messages before I realized it was his and I saw my name in a group chat, it piqued my interest so I opened it.” I explained.

“What happened after that?” He asked.

“I threw his phone at him and grabbed mine off the bed before leaving, Luka brought me home.” I answered as a feeling of regret started to form in my chest.

“So that’s it?” He asked.

“Pretty much yeah” I smiled trying to push down the feeling of vomit.

“You didn’t freak out on him?” Jason asked prying a little farther than I would like to talk about.

“Not really, no worse than any other girl would have. Anyways I just really want to finish these chores, okay?” I said tiredly.

“Yeah sure, thanks for talking to me about stuff” he said with a tender voice before walking away.

I sighed to myself as the feeling of shame and regret washed over me in waves. I was so angry I didn’t even think about how he used me and I just left him. I left him use my body for a stupid bet, he probably didn’t even mean what he said last night; about always being there for me to ‘talk me off that ledge’. Ugh I really am stupid, aren’t I?

I finished my chores and headed downstairs to the basement; everyone was doing their own thing so no one was here really. I sat on the couch and turned on the TV and Xbox hopeful to release my frustration without having to relapse again.

I looked down at my phone as it buzzed expecting it to be someone I don’t care to answer.

Killan texted me.

‘Everything okay at home?’

‘Yeah buddy, why wouldn’t it be?’

‘Some of my friends were walking past when they heard yelling’

‘Oh, Jay and I got into a bit of a spat but everything is okay’

‘Okay, I’ll see you Monday after school then!’

‘Okay, text me if you need anything!’

‘I will’

None of them are even here and yet somehow whatever happens here still affects them. I rolled my eyes slamming my phone down on the table diverting my attention to the tv once more.

“You okay?” Luka asked as he walked downstairs.

“Yeah, what are you doing here” I said annoyed.

“Just wanted to check up on you and see if Lucas texted you anymore” He answered sitting down beside me.

“No, he didn’t” I answer formally.

“Do you want me to leave?” Luka said grabbing my attention.

“No, I’m sorry. Killian just texted me about the fight between Jay and I, and I just hate that even though they aren’t here no matter what happens in this house it still affects them in some way. Whether it be changing rooms or listening to it, or having their friends hear it when they walk by. It's just frustrating.” I let out an exaggerated sigh running my hands through my hair.

“It's okay Rylee, things get harder for everyone when one of you are going through something. I've been here enough to know that and they live here so I'm sure they have noticed a few things as well” Luka said kindly offering a helpful insight on the situation.

“I know, I’m just tired of fighting with everyone and feeling so f****d up all of the time” I explained.

“I know, but soon you won’t have to, a couple more years and you’ll be out of here” Luka smiled as he tried to be helpful.

“Yeah” I faked a smile, faking it is my best option right now.

Luka hung out for a few hours playing Xbox with me and trying to keep my mind off of things for a while, it worked for a little but the more everyone pilled downstairs the events unraveled in my head over and over again. As everyone talked and laughed their voices became muffled like I had earmuffs on, I sat there watching everyone barley hearing what they were saying as my mind continued to replay everything that happened with Lucas. Every little detail ran through my head, he is a d**k so why do I still crave his touch hours after we have been apart?