Jail within my own self

Hunk turn to devil

His face blazed with anger and his eyes shouted rage , I've never seen him in such a state before . I tried looking at him but guilt and remorse chewed me up I had no courage.

At last he spoke "Paul of all the people why you to betray me?" he asked tears welling up in his eyes. I had no answer I just looked at him ashamed of my actions.

Gilbert was the best human I've ever met in my life because we met when my life was at a total shutdown and I had given up all about the world . That very day when we met I had gone to the hospital because I had body complications that had taken a long time to heal so my friends advised me to go to the hospital . I went to the hospital that day and the doctor told me that my condition was not normal so I have to take a HIV test.!. I was shocked and surprised at first but after the doctor sweet talked me I accepted and my heart stopped racing, I gave my self courage " it's just a test"

I waited for the test patiently not knowing the test I was despising would change my life completely . The doctor came in with the results ready I looked at him expectantly praying for the best results . But the doctors face said it all , the results were written on his face.

He produced the sheets he had in his envelope and sighed "Mr Paul it was brave of you taking this test and as you know being HIV positive is not the end of living..... "My heart was pounding hard in my heart like it was finding it's way out of my body , my stomach wasn't mine anymore it ached from all corners ......

I just looked at the doctor who continued with his lecture and couldn't take it anymore I erupted "...... okay, okay doctor what are the results enough with the lectures" He looked at me with his eyes as if to ask " are sure you are ready"

He sighed and went on "paul am sorry to tell you that you are HIV positive? the words exploded and kept ringing in my ears like a bad dream I couldn't believe what I heard .....

The doctor tried to console me but I needed no sympathy at that time, I stormed out of the doctor's office and headed towards the highway with one decision in my mind. My mind was made it's now or I'll live a life of sorrow and regrets.....