Me, Him, Us

12

“YOU LYING PIECE OF SHI-“ let’s just rewind a bit there..

Okay let’s just skip the rest of the night because after smiling and telling Farai everything was okay, which it wasn’t! The night continued normally, no one would’ve guessed that I was fuming on the inside. Okay and before anyone hops on my ass with the question ‘why do you care if he was cheating if you aren’t together anymore?’ Which is a valid question but I still have a right to be mad especially because we’ve been so amicable with each other post break up, I mean yeah our relationship tanked but I thought he would always be a reliable friend. Which is exactly why I invited him over to my place today because I’d love to know the truth, which brings me to this point 

“YOU LYING PIECE OF s**t HOWARD” I screamed at him 

“How could you? Was she the only one? Be honest with me?” I ask him, that son of a b***h has been apologizing for 30 minutes saying it wasn’t on purpose 

“I promise it was only her and technically it wasn’t cheating” he says 

“Nope no sir! Calling someone, flirting with them knowing you’re in a relationship is definitely cheating and I’m just mad because I had so much respect for you! Respect for our relationship and this is what you do?” I start laugh “You’re a f*****g joke Howard, I can’t believe you. Get out” 

“Woah babe slow down, this shouldn’t stop us from getting back together” he pleads..what did he just say? 

“Excuse me? Who’s getting back together?” I ask him 

“Us” 

“Howard I’m so sorry if at any point you thought we would get back together! When you dumped me, you gave me clarity I didn’t realize I needed but our relationship was holding me back in unimaginable ways, you were holding me back..” 

“Wow so now I was holding you back? f**k you” he stands up and storms out 

Well that certainly didn’t go how I expected it to go lol. I grab my iPad and call Jennifer to tell her what happened 

“He said what?”she screamed 

“I know and I’m so confused, how do you break up with someone then think we’re going to get back together? If he wanted me he wouldn’t have dumped me in the first place” 

“Obviously he broke up with you so he could go get some outside p***y and come running back! I mean you broke his virginity, no matter what you’ll always be linked to him and he knows that” 

“Sometimes I forget he was a virgin, I mean lol s*x with him was so bad in the beginning like when I say he was killing the p***y I don’t mean it in a good way” we both laugh 

“Listen, let’s leave this boy alone because he isn’t worth your time. Now what’s happening with you and Donnie?” I sigh 

“I don’t know, with this Farai girl in the picture my mind isn’t thinking right” 

“Babe aren’t you going to atleast fight for him? If you want him shouldn’t you?” She asks 

“No I, tired. I feel like it’s always the girls jumping through hoops and hurdles for guys! I mean I’m tired, I literally carried an entire 1 year relationship with Howard alone on my back and I’m never doing that again, I can’t” 

“I’m sorry baby girl, you deserve a rest and besides if he wants you he should make the effort as well” 

“Yeah anyways I’m going to go study, I need to exempt biochemistry because I want to go home so I can come visit Australia!” I smile at the end 

“Okay yeah me too, bye babe” 

“Bye” 

I hate biochemistry, honestly who cares about this s**t? Either way I need to pass it so I don’t write my final so let’s hit those books. 3 hours later I’m exhausted and my period started! I swear on my life, my period cramps feel like someone’s cutting my insides with a scissor and I know every girl says that but I’m being genuine. My cramps are so painful that I need to take medication otherwise I won’t be able to function, the first time I didn’t have my medication I missed an exam because I physically couldn’t move from my bed, I remember telling Howard about how painful it was and he gave me some bullshit about ‘women shouldn’t complain about their periods if they want feminism to be taken seriously’ Honestly I should’ve dumped him when he said that but hey we all make mistakes. 

The only good thing that comes from my cramps is the pain is so bad that I can’t feel if I’m hungry or not so I rarely eat which I know is bad but I eat a lot of food, so 6 days of not eating once a month won’t kill me, and yes I said 6 days! I’m not god’s favorite I know. I’m curled up in a ball watching Disney channel when I hear my phone ring 

“Hello” wow I sound like the grim reaper 

“Bell what’s wrong you don’t sound good?” I hear Donnies voice 

“Nothing I just have some bad period cramps right now, the medication hasn’t kicked in so yeah” 

“Oh I’m sorry is there anything I can do to make you feel better” wow is this what it feels like when a guy actually cares about how you’re feeling? 

“No it’s fine I’ll probably pass out soon” 

“Have you atleast eaten?” He asks 

“No, I can’t do anything right now besides groan in pain” I try laugh 

“Okay, well get better” he hangs up, well that was sudden 

As my eyes slowly start to close 30 minutes later, I hear my door open. Knowing that Jennifer is the only person with my house keys I scream out her name 

“Jen what are you doing here” 

“It’s not Jen” I look up “Donnie, wtf are you doing here?” 

“You sounded terrible on the phone and I couldn’t just sit around knowing I could help” he said while sitting down and placing my head on his lap. I turned around so I was looking up at him and smiled, could this possibly be my future husband? 

“So do you want me to make you tea while we wait for the food to arrive?” He says while stroking my hair 

“Food?” 

“Yeah I ordered us food on the way here because I knew you’d say no” I laugh because he’s right 

“Okay fine but I pay for it since you came all the way to nurse me!” 

“If you actually think I’ll let you pay then you don’t know me at all” 

Donnie is really nothing like Howard because he would’ve never come to help me and used to tell me I was being a big baby and that my cramps probably weren’t that bad! What a misogynist asshole! 

I should really stop comparing Howard and Donnie but to be fair at one point in my life I really though that I was lucky to have Howard and that he was the best! So if anything it shocks me to realize that not all guys are like him 

I grab Donnies hand to grab his attention from the TV “Donnie thank you really for this, I appreciate it” 

“I would do this for you every day if you needed me to. Okay let me go make us some tea and turn on the heat it’s freezing in here” 

“Your sweatpants and shirts are in the cupboard next to the room, just so you can get comfortable and look like a hobo like me” he laughs loudly 

“You look like a cute hobo though” “oh shut up, just go already” he grabs my head and gives me a quick peck before standing and leaving…well that was unexpected but also appreciated, if only I wasn’t on my damn perioddddddd, okay I’m lying even if I wasn’t I wouldn’t have s*x with Donnie because I don’t have s*x with guys I’m not dating and no it’s not because I think s*x is some sacred act that should be between two souls, no I’m just very insecure about my body and the less people that see it the better. 

I continue watching Rick & Morty on the tv, connecting my Netflix to the tv was the best thing I could ever done! Makes my life so easy. 20 minutes later Donnie steps into the room holding 2 cups of tea

“Thank you so much, did you put th-“ “milk first, sugar then the hot water yes I know your special order you weirdo” I laugh as I sit up to grab my cup “Hey it’s scientifically proven that the tea cools fast if you add the milk first!” 

“Whatever helps you sleep at night baby girl” he says while covering himself with the blanket once he sat next to me “now what are we watching, the food should be arriving soon so pick a movie” 

“What did you order anyways?” Please say Mcds 

“Obviously Mcds! I know you like the fries” I scream “thank goodness because I’ve been craving fries” 

“You always crave fries” “…that is also true” I roll my eyes. 

“I know you like action so let’s watch that new Chris Hemsworth movie, I think it’s called Extraction” I say while scrolling through the options 

“That’s cool, how about we talk while we wait for the movie” well this got interesting, I turn to face him 

“Okay talk about what?” 

“Well I know something was wrong last night and you lied about it. Like seriously Bell I know when you’re fake smiling, what’s going on?” Damn I really thought I got away with it. 

I sigh before starting “well when you and Jen were getting drinks, Farai told me something a little shocking” 

“Well what did she say? Surely it wasn’t that bad” he says while stroking my hand gently 

“Apparently Howard cheated on me with Farai when we were dating..” 

“Oh” “yeah oh” we sat silently 

“I mean she says she didn’t know we were dating and so I’m not blaming her and I know me and Howard aren’t together anymore but it hurts to know he would do such a thing. I knew he wasn’t the best boyfriend but I was always so glad that he never cheated and especially cause Farai is so different from me, in every sense so was I not his type? I don’t know I just didn’t like having to find out like that and especially from someone I just met” 

“I swear Bell if I knew about what happened I would have never introduced you two and I definitely would’ve told you as soon as I found out, I’m sorry you had to find out like that! Damn you’re stronger than me because I would’ve left as soon as she told me” I shake my head “I didn’t want to ruin the night for everyone” he puts his tea down and grabs my face in his hands 

“You wouldn’t have ruined the night for anyone and I promise you we all would’ve understood okay! We don’t lie to each other so next time you don’t feel comfortable just talk to me okay?” I nod my head as a tear slips out, damn these period hormones “I don’t even know why I’m crying right now” I laugh while trying to wipe my face, he laughs as he helps me 

“We’ll just blame it on hormones, feeling better?” “Much better, thank you” we sat there for what felt like forever but was probably just a couple of seconds staring at each other when the doorbell rang 

“That’s probably the food, let me go open” he stands and heads towards the door. I stand up to stretch and begin to do my food dance 

“Clearly you were very hungry if you’re doing the food dance” I stop and glare at him “shut up and get my food” 

I take the mugs of cold tea to the kitchen and bring the coke bottle and glasses to the bedroom to set up for the movie. Donnie walks in with his arms full of Mcd bags and I start to salivate 

“Come to me my babies” “since when was I your baby” “oh this is awkward, I meant the food” he blushes “yes of course the food, here you go” he gives me the bags while getting into bed “can I start the movie?” When I see he’s comfortable “yeah let’s go” 

And that’s how we spent the weekend, cuddled up in my bed watching movies, laughing our hearts out and not a single period cramp in sight! I guess my serotonin levels were high, I wonder why