Chapter 20
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I blushed at what he just said. Compatible? Really?
He's averting the topic. Why can't he just answer it?! It's just as easy as chicken question!
"What is your relationship with Monica?" I asked directly.
His smirk didn't fade. It widen into a grin. "Nothing."
"Nothing? Enlighten me!" I snapped.
"Why do we need to talk about that b***h? I don't have any relationship with her!"
"Then why would she say that you two are getting married? Why? Just to toy me? And why would she tell to me that you two didn't broke up? You told me that there's no something about you and her! Right?"
"What I told is right! Why are we arguing about her? I don't want to talk about her! I'm not lying when I said that we don't have any f*****g relationship! There's no thing that connecting us!"
"So you're not getting married?" I asked.
"Yes. Of course. Not with her. She's just a past time before." He said as he shrugged his shoulders.
I looked into his eyes. "You're not lying this time, right? You're not going to lie to me again, right? Right?"
He held my face as he brushed it softly. There's a gentle smile that plastered on his handsome face.
"I'm telling the truth." he whispered. "I don't know her motive for telling you about that fake news, but I'm assuring you, we're not together."
I nodded. "Sure?"
"Very." he grin.
But, that's not enough! I want some clarification! "Enlighten me more. It's not enough."
"You really want to know?" he asked seriously. I didn't hesitate to nod my head. "I told you before that I just used her right? I don't really like her. Before, from the very past, I get to had a very intimate relationship with her." He looked down. "I'm ashamed, but I had that kind of past, and yeah, she's part of it. Well, not really, just physical. I didn't like her, and we ended that s**t soon enough. She became a jealous and nagger, she acted like a girlfriend, and that's I don't like, before."
So just to make it short, he still had a relationship with Monica, he said he don't have.
"You said... You lie. Liar..."
"No, no, no... That's before, okay? That's before. That's why I ended up that relationship with her because I don't really have a feelings for her. And I already told you, I just used her to make you jealous… yeah, make you jealous."
"You're so friendly with everyone! I don't like that... I want your attention for me. Just me. I don't want you to get close to that Carson dog. He's tailing on you! I don't like that!"
"He's just a friend! I told you so many times!" I said.
"I'm still pissed! I used Monica b***h just to make you jealous. So, did that explanation enlighten you? Or you need more?"
"T-that's enough." I stutter.
When I realized what he said. My eyes got widen. Just to make me jealous? Really, jealous? Does... He like me too?
"You just said jealous, right? Why?" I asked and I'm thankful that I didn't stutter.
He sighed, heavily. He let go of me too. I felt the little pang of pain in my chest.
"I don't know if I'll have the same answer if I told you the reason." he said quietly.
My brows knotted. "Then tell me..." I said bravely. I actually don't know if I'll have the same answer too, the answer that I want. I'm fighting a battle without a weapon.
"You'll not going to avoid me or hide from me, promise me." he looked at me. I nodded but my heart was thumping so fast like it was about to explode.
" I promise."
He sighed heavily again then looked seriously into my eyes. "I desire you, Milda. I want you, I... I like you, and god knows I'm falling for you, hard and fast…"He closed his eyes as he kissed the back of my hand. It became sweaty and shaky. "Please... Let me hear the answer that I want... Tell me that you want me too… Tell me that you desire me too... And tell me that you like me too... Please, have mercy on me..."
My mouth just left open and hanging. Okay…?
What the actual f**k?!
Am I hearing it right? He likes me too? Oh god! Please, don't wake me up if it's just a dream... Please...
"W-Well..." I squeezed his hands. "Did I hear it right? You… like me? Really? Like, like romantically? Not friends? Right? God. I don't know how to answer that, s**t… Oh my god, what should I answer? Do I need to answer it now? Or tomorrow? Or just let you feel it? ---"
"Snap out of it. I'm confessing my feelings, not proposing yet. Calm down... Inhale, exhale. That's good, continue to do it." he even do it too. He was touching my face softly. "That's my good girl... Are you calm now?"
I nodded. "But... You like me right? And falling for me, like, love?"
He smiled at me warmly. "Yes... I'm still nervous because I just confessed what I feel for you and you didn't answer it yet... Please let me hear what---"
"I like you too..." I said straight to his face. His face become blank then all of a sudden his ears turned in not red. Is he blushing? "I want you too. I desire you too... What else do you want to hear? I'm falling for you too, so please, don't disappoint me or lie to me again..." I smiled.
He softly caressed my face. "My sweet little goddess... You are mine now... Let make it official…"
I closed my eyes. "Yes. I want to have a right to you too... You're too handsome."
"f**k. We're now, together..." he sighed.
I nodded. Still eyes closed. "Don't disappoint me. Don't lie to me, and don't play with me."
"Likewise goddess, likewise. You're mine."
With that phrase, I smiled.
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