caged beneath a crown

chapter 6

Dinner was over and everyone retired to thier chambers.

The alliance was already finalized there was nothing i could do.

In two weeks i was getting married whether i liked it or not.

The next day, i requested my breakfast be brought to my room i didn't want to face anyone that would talk about a wedding.

A life of royalty was really a curse, everyone expects so much from you, your desires are after the needs of the kingdom.

The palace was beautiful prison many might wish to live in palace thinking it was endless fun lady in waiting at your deck and call, food and gold platter never having to do anything yourself but they didn't see the truth.

mistakes weren't allowed,

Every word spoken

Every step taken

Every move made

Must be perfect no excuse.

The life of a villager would be better freedom from burdens and responsibilities bestowed upon you since the day you born. i wish to leave the castle and see the world beyond. Everyone a equal no special treatment but i only got a view from a window.

i went to meet my dad again he seemed to be packing for a trip but told me nothing about it. i asked him what it will take for the alliance to be called he seemed shocked that i still had hope on breaking the alliance.

''what ever you do just don't embarrass your family'' he still seemed less concerned

''what will it take''

''i don't know what can you do''

'' if i attempt suicide'' he stopped as if caught off guard I was about to tear up but held it in why was it his choice who i would spend the rest of my life with its my life.

'' no one has ever done such act in this castle and as my daughter i forbid you but if you decide on this do it right and if you don't i will personally kill you''

He seemed serious and he left. i was trying to scare him but he threaten me.

Dad was acting weird where was he going, am sure mum knew nothing about where dad was going or maybe she did but what difference did it make.

i kept on avoiding Rahan it looks like Rahan had changed his way towards me from holding me and making us meet gazes to peeking of cheeks he was just trying to provoke me like he wanted me to slap him.

Rahan wouldn't dare lay his hands to hit me cause it was a sign of disrespect to the king and the wedding will be cancelled one slap regardless how hurtful it could be, was a risk for Rahan i was willing to take it.if it means my freedom later in the evening i heard Rahan and my uncle were having a party.

The day was exhausting i wish could just close my eyes and be told it was all a dream but it wasn’t a dream but my reality. It was almost dawn but dark i didn't feel like sleeping kept feeling uneasy. i was going to the get water to drink,plus the walk to the dinning might aid me to sleep.

There i saw Rahan he seemed drunk and was saying rubbish. He began acting clingy the least I could go for him was to take him to his room and throw him on the floor to sleep.

when the day started properly i went to the indoor garden it was being demolished to put a pool which would be for my uncle the garden was losing its beauty having dead leafs instead of blooming flowers am sure when he is done renovating the space he would throw parties there. i rather a indoor garden than a pool.

Then Rahan walked in he was curious to know how he got to the floor. i was more than glad to explained how dumb he behaved he seemed less interested in what i was saying so i stopped talking or he felt ashamed.

Rahan sat close to me "do you want the wedding" I asked I had nothing to lose I just needed to know. He inched towards me again and again with eyes fixed on the withering plants the didn't respond maybe I wasn't worth a reply i wasn't comfortable he was to close then he rested his weight on my shoulder i tried to use my hip to move him back to where he was seating but he was to heavy so i stood.

"Yes I want it" He looked at me as if begging

I turned to leave "I really do" he added then smiled,but I didn't trust he might still be drunk.

The Dad made sure laura was busy so i wouldnt talk to her to him talking to a commoner casually was degrading.He couldn't give me that one thing to keep me company worst she wasn't allowed to say my name causally,not fair.

Being a normal girl mean live with people who call you by your name that aren’t scared of you that is a normal life to live.

Like they say you don’t know what you got till you lose it, so i try my best to fit in, in a princess shoe.

i saw mom going to dads chamber maybe he was going to tell her where he was going to when she walked by her necklace fell down and she wasn't aware of it. i tried to call her attention to it but she was too far to hear, i couldn't follow so i decided to give her later, i picked up the necklace, it was the necklace she always called home.The day went by fast and it was break again

it has been three days since Rahan had asked for my hand in marriage so it would be a week and 4 days before i get married i walked in the dining hall and saw everyone on sit except Rahan’s father and my dad they all stared at me in a deadly way as if i was late to something important.

i quickly took my sit.what were they planning i thought my mum gaze were strong on me Rahan stood up made a toast and started a speech i was less concern about anything he was saying for he was talking about the wedding decoration till a statement got my attention

Rahan father and dad went for my aunt burial everyone gaze was on him mom seemed surprised dad didn't tell her and he didn't tell me when i asked him but he told Rahan at times i often wish to be a boy, if i were dad would have told me a aunt of mine was late.

. As he was speaking some of Rahan saliva hot in my food during his speech. After a bit more sermon from Rahan, he sat down next to me, then for no reason Rahan scooped up some of my mashed potatoes next to my face expecting me to eat.

I just glared at him, at that second i noticed my mom eyes on me was it compulsory i eat it.

mom eyes were deadly i almost ate it due to the deadliness in her eye .it was obvious Queen Elsa was enjoying the comedy curse her she must be enjoying life.if everyone was hell bent on making my life miserable I might as well give them a hard time

Bunch of hypocrite.