The first and last love

10

I got home and dad was sitting in the kitchen waiting for me and I could see that he was furious. I hold my head down as I walked in and sat down at the table. Non of us said anything and I grabbed and apple to fidget on before I looked up.

- I know you never did go the school today, and I want to know where you been.

I was quiet and just looking at him.

- Haley for the f**k sake don’t you even care about how worried I am for you every single day? And your future?

I wanted to say something but I couldn’t.

- You will ruin your future and life if you won’t start taking things seriously! Soon you will be 18! And that means some responsibility!

- I have my future all planed out! I just can’t deal with some stuff like school everyday.

- I won’t pay for your entertainment if your grades doesn’t get better by starting tomorrow.

- Yea yea whatever!, as I said that I stood up and did leave to get inside my room.

As soon I closed the door I could feel how a panic attack was coming. I needed something to calm down, knowing I won’t be able to smoke I took some meds and vodka. I did get on the bed and started to scroll the phone meanwhile my panic started to vanish. I hated all those feelings and peoples nagging.

With music in my ears and some courage from the vodka I did reply to his “hi”. I still didn’t know if it was him or a fake account, but she has nothing to lose at this point.

“Hi, what’s up?”

I waited some seconds before I closed the app and started to watch i********:, I did follow a lot of different accounts of skinny girls. Wishing I would be sexy as they were.

I was tired of being a chubby person.

Unknown: I need to see you tomorrow morning!

Me: I can’t have a meeting!

Unknown: rescheduled no other choice.

Me: I did that today so really need this if you still want your deal.

Unknown: Meet me at our normal location by 3pm then.

I looked at the screen and did let out a sight. Sometimes everything was exhausting to please everyone around me, but I’ll guess that’s what I got for being involved with stuff that a normal teenager would stay away from.