The first and last love

3

Mr. Petersson entered the classroom and I watched directly at him but there was no sign from our dispute earlier. He started to walk through today’s lesson and I started to drift away in my own thoughts. I tried to plan the day, what Emma and I would do later. I had two more stops to do but they were quick and Emma is used to it.

I were looking outside the window but not really knowing what I was looking at, my mind was somewhere else when I heard Mr.Petersson calling my name. Joel poked me so I snapped out from my daydreaming, and once again Mr.Petersson said my name. I looked up and saw how everyone in the class were looking at me.

- What? I said

- I would prefer if you actually tried to pretend that you is listening at me when you are here for once.

- And I would prefer that you had something interesting to teach us instead of picking on me.

- I’m not picking on you, but if you feels that I’m not treating you right you are always welcome to go and talk with the principal.

- Maybe I should do that, who knows what I would bring up…

It was like the whole class where holding the breath while they waited for what Mr.Petersson would say, but he did remain calm and just shakes his head.

- Haley, you know that this is only waiting time and I don’t think that your classmates likes your behavior.

- Well don’t let me interrupt then. I said and did stand up and grabbed my bag ready to leave the room.

- Sit down again!

- Try to force me! I need to use the restroom, that time of the month you know.

I know he can’t stop me if I say I’m on my period, even if I’m on that every week. When the door did close behind my back I started to walk the opposite way from the restroom. My goal was to go one floor up and meet someone who was waiting for me.

Mattias one of my friends were waiting in front of his locker, looking a bit tired this morning. I walked slow up next to him gave him a hug.

- Did you have a rough night? I asked him.

- No but my plan of sleep in this morning was ruined lol.

- Well I’m sorry that I need the deal now and not later.

- Everything for you my babe.

Mattias took up his bag and started to search in it. When he finally after what did feel like several minutes I saw my plastic bag with the green content. Footsteps was closing in and before I saw the person I reached out pulled Mattias closer to me and started to make out with him. The person stopped and cleared the throat to interrupt us. s**t it was the principal!

- Don’t you two have lessons to be in? She asked us.

- I have but I haven’t seen my boyfriend for so long that I couldn’t bee away from him one more second. I lied to her.

- You have 5 seconds to get back before I’ll give you detention.

- Yes ma’m!

I reached out to pretend that I was going to give Mattias one more kiss and told him that I’ve put some lunch money in his pocket for him. And with that I did turn around and hurried away but not this time I did go the way I was supposed to. This time I did head outside, I needed a smoke!

I know, I know smoking is bad for the health but it calms me and that’s just what I need at moment. I fixed a small joint, and did squat down were none would notice me, after the first long inhale I could feel how the restless feeling started to disappear from my body. After the second inhale my head started to feel slow just how I liked it I hate the stressful brain I have. I guess that’s why I don’t fit in school. When I was done I did head inside again and I also did head back to the lesson. Back in the classroom I did go back to my place and pretend to ask Joel what we were working with. I did avoid Mr.Peterson’s eyes, there was no need to give him reasons to call me in again.