Mate by chao Planoy

Chapter 17

It had been a disaster. Great destroyed things in the restaurant and we endedup at a police station. Uncle Somkit was there to help solve the problem.Uncle Somkit came home in the same car as us. He quickly glanced at Aoeyand realized that this was the girl I asked him to investigate. But he didn'tsay anything. We sat in silence the whole way until I took Great and UncleSomkit home and then I left with Aoey back to the condo. I realized therewould be a storm soon. Aoey seemed to be seething with anger at me and Iwas prepared for what was to come. I was determined to respond.Suddenly when we were at home.

“I'm going to move.”

My heart dropped to my ankles. I prepared for a big fight but not to hearthat she wanted to move out

“Where will you go?”

“There will be somewhere I can go.”

"Are you trying to get back at me?"

“No, but two people who hate each other can't live together.”

Finally, she got straight to the point. I stood with my arms around me and

looked into the gentle eyes that now looked so angry. I wanted to see how

far she would go. Go ahead!

“When did I hate you?”

"Haven't you realized that you hate me?"

Her breathing was short and rapid. She clenched her fist tightly.

“You destroyed my relationship with all my friends. You boasted about your

money and belittled my friends. You treated them like s**t! Why did you do

that?!”

“Well, they really are a piece of shit.”

They didn't deserve to be her friends. They took advantage of it and judged

people from outside of it. I could tell by the way they looked at me.

“But they are my friends.”

“I'm your friend too.”

“Friends shouldn't do what you did. You called Great at the restaurant to

make things worse..You told Great that I had a date with Jade.”

"So you were on a date with Jade?"

I was interested in that topic. The jealousy inside me was boiling and now Iwanted to fight.

“You are a whore.”

"It's my own business. I can see whoever I want to see. I can do what youdo too.”

"I'm not surprised..."

I looked at her and thought of the most painful word that occurred to me. Idecided to throw a hand grenade directly at her face.

“I'm not surprised your mom thought you were flirting with your

stepfather.”

Aoey's hand hit right on my face. It was hard enough to make me lose mybalance. I was stunned with a pain in my cheek. The soft eyes squeezed herfist so hard. I was filled with rage now that I felt guilty for saying that.

“b***h! How could you say that? You know nothing!”

“What should I know then? Tell me.”

“One thing you should know is that you are the worst friend I have ever hadin my life. I hope you are happy alone and die alone.”

The girl chose the worst insult she could ever think of. She was

overwhelmed with feelings and guilt. She knew she shouldn't say that, but

now she was shocked by what she had just said.

“Okay, now I know.”

“Know what?”

She continued and pushed my chest. She wanted a fight.

“Now I know I'm a bad friend.”

“This is when you should deny it. If you say you're a bad friend, it means

it's true. You hate me!”

“Whatever you wanted to say.”

I was so weak now. My brain was numb and I was confused and I wanted toleave. I turned to leave the room.

“Why do you hate me so much? Is it because I love you?”

I clenched my fist and said nothing. The crying from behind shook me.

“Is it so bad that I love you? Is it so bad?”

“I do not hate you. Actually it's an opposite, a total opposite."

I turned around to look into her soft eyes.

“I hate myself for that. Please understand!”

“I do not hate you. I hate myself for being like this.”

We both looked into each other's eyes. My tears rolled down my cheeks but

I wiped them away with the back of my hand. I didn't want anyone to see

my weakness.

“I hate myself for being so confused. I hate feeling immense pain, but I still

can't accept myself. I envy you because you can express what you feel. But

I can not…”

"You're embarrassed to admit that. How are you going to express it?”

The soft eyes grabbed my wrist when I turned around about to leave.

"What do you mean you don't hate me? Does that mean you're…”

“Don't say it Aoey! Do not say it!.”

“What happened to your face? Did you fight with her?”

“She thought I called you to get her with another man. I wanted to tell youthat Jade is not her boyfriend. They are friends.”

Even though I fought with her, I tried to cover up for her and fix her

situation. Damn! I was Genlong. I was supposed to be a bad girl, not a saint

like this. Great hugged me as tight as a python. I tried to push him away

from me.

“Let go! What are you doing?”

“ I’m very sorry. I don't want you to get hurt like that. I'll explain it to

Aoey.”

“Just explain your issue.”

I went back to my room and closed the door. I didn't want anyone in my

space. No one could see me weak, especially when I was sad. Tears were asign of weakness. I had determined that no one would ever see my tears

except myself. But Aoey did it that day. She made me feel guilty by sayingthat. I felt bad because she thought I hated her and she wanted to destroyher. The worst thing was that I said what I felt. That was wrong? Was itsinful?... When I was tense, I liked to relax by soaking in a warm bathtub. Ithought the tension would come out of my pores and go down the drain. Butthe tension continued to boil in my heart. It was sadness, but not annoyance.This is how sadness felt..

I felt so much pain when the person I love looked at me disgustingly. The

worst of the worst was that she was my best friend and I fell in love with

her. Could I fall in love with my best friend? My phone rang as my thoughtsdrifted. I saw the name of the caller and answered the phone by turning onthe speaker. I was still in the bathtub.

“What do you want? I'm in the bathtub.”

[You must be stressed to get in the bathtub.]

No one really knew that this was the way I released my stress. Only people

within the family knew.

[Aoey is here to see you. She can't get in. Open the door.]

I sat down immediately. My heart was beating fast.

“What? Where? Here at home? How can she know where my house is?”

[I brought her here. Now it's in front of the room.]

I hesitated before answering.

“No. I want to be alone today. Tell her to go away. Please take her back to

the condo and don't touch her.”

I didn't try to play hard to get it or anything, but my eyes got really swollen.I didn't want anyone to see me when I was weak. After a warm bath for an hour, I felt lighter and a little dizzy..

“Gen....Gen.”

I frowned when I heard a scream somewhere. I saw Aoey standing outsidelooking at me. I thought she was gone. I didn't open the window or realizeshe was there. I closed the curtain to tell her to leave. But she was still thereby the window, she stayed where she was. Why was she pressuring me? I

wasn't ready to talk.

“Great!”

I knocked on Great's door. He smiled because he knew why I was there.

“Why didn't you take your girlfriend home? I said I don't want to see her.”

“She's so stubborn. She insisted on talking to you today. She chose to waitthere.”

“She wants to pressure me.”

“You should talk to her.”

"I'm not ready to talk."

“Well, she'll stay there all night. Do you know how many people die from

dengue?”

I growled at him and wrapped my arms around my chest. I wasn't that easy.If it were easy, I would have too many husbands by now. Many men

pressured me in many different ways. But no one had achieved it until then.I couldn't let a girl succeed today.

“Give her some mosquito repellent spray!”

I turned to go back, but Great grabbed my arm and looked at me like a

puppy.

“Please, sister. I don't want her to get sick.”

“No!”

But actually..... I went down to see her in silence. I stood there silently

watching her as she tried to get the mosquitoes off of her. I looked at her

with a mixture of feelings of adoration and frustration before coughinglightly just to get her attention.

“Why are you organizing a party for mosquitoes?”

The girl turned around and jumped away immediately. When she jumpedout of her seat, my face was so close to her. Her face almost collided withmine. I took a step back and spoke to her with my arms crossed over her

chest.

“Oh, it's good that you're finally here to talk to me.”

“Your tone is totally different from last night. Don't you hate me anymore?”

I said sarcastically but I also expected her to respond but she didn't say

anything in return. Aoey stood there with a sad face. I wasn't sure what

Great told her, but she changed completely.

“I was crazy.”

“Do you know when people are most sincere?”

I crossed my arms and looked directly into her eyes.

“When they are drunk and angry.”

“I'm sorry.”

She gave up so quickly. What was I supposed to do now? Had she finishedanswering me? She had to stop with those puppy dog eyes. Damn!

“You didn't do anything wrong today. It was me. I despise your friends and

called Great to fight you. Oh! I'm a bad friend and I'll die alone like you

said.”

I emphasized what she said. I could not avoid it. Aoey looked like a sad

puppy now with tears in her eyes.

"Hit me,"

She said sadly. That made me feel so weak.

“What?”

“I know what I said made you very sad. Please hit me back."

She put her face closer to my face. She looked like she was prepared for a

kiss instead of a hit. I took a step back. She was flirting...again. I turned my

face away nervously. She seemed to know that I was nervous.

“Or we are both half to blame. Today I misunderstood you and I got upset

with you. And you also said something unpleasant to me. I think we're even.So let's get through this.”

I realized what I told her about her stepfather. That made me feel guilty. Inever felt guilty in my life before. Even when I killed a gecko when I

closed the door, I blamed the same gecko for being there and staining mybeautiful door. I kind of let it all go because I felt so guilty for her. Whatwas wrong with me?

“What did Great tell you? Why are you completely changed?”

“I know how good you are to me.”

“Oh?”

“You asked your mother to publish my book, right?”

You rascal! Finally she told her. I bit my lip hard in anger. I had to put himin his place today. Bastard!

“I read it and I think it's good. I think you will make money, so I posted it.

If it's not good, the publisher won't do it. It's bad for them too, you know."

I looked her in the eyes and crossed my arms.

"Go ahead and get mad at me. You can hate me more than you already do. I

did something you didn't like.”

“I'm not angry and I don't hate you.”

“Because?”

“Love blinds me and makes me forgive.”

I paused and pretended I hadn't heard her. I almost fainted. She waited for

this moment, didn't she?

“Let's just say I'm not a good person. I'm a bad friend like you said.”

“What kind of bad friend would go out of her way to help me? You also

bought all my books.”

“When did I do that?”

I was surprised because I was pretty sure she didn't see that and Singha hadput them in the car.

“Great, show me your trunk. He said you bought them all and kept them athome. You did it to help me, right?”

“Who would be so crazy? I bought them for my friends.”

"I didn't know you had so many friends."

Now I was nervous. The sweet eyes cornered me. I had no way to escape.

What was that? She was such a different person than the one had hit mewith. And those eyes...

“You helped with my homework by getting my report an A.”

“Oh really? An A?”

I said with surprise, but then I realized that I was supposed to be angry.

“I had some free time.”

“You went out with Nut because you asked Nut to watch me during

orientation.”

She looked at me with her flirtatious eyes. I assumed that was what Great

said too.

“I called Nut and talked to him. He told me everything you did that day.”

What else did she know? Did she even know that I was imagining seeing

Justin Bieber naked swimming with me on a date? I shifted nervously whenI saw her flirtatious look. I didn't feel comfortable with this feeling. I felt

shy.....

“We are friends. I was worried about you as a friend.”

“You are my close friend. I should know you better... but I didn't. I said

something stupid and it hurt your feelings. Please, I'm sorry.”

Please? Her eyes and her tone...where did she learn to do that? And that

sweet talk? As if she knew I would melt hearing that. It worked very well. Ilooked around nervously, but it seemed like her eyes were a strong magnetthat attracted me. I couldn't focus on anything but her. I was sweating... hot.

“Did you say you should get to know me better? What do you know about

me?”

“You're kidding yourself that you don't feel anything. But you feel them...so much.”

The smaller girl took a step forward. My legs got so weak when she came

closer. I stopped when I could no longer move back, my back was trappedwith a tree trunk. She looked at me and smiled triumphantly for havingcornered me.

“Do you like to have the control. You are a perfectionist who cared a lot

about what others think of you. But deep down I see that you are very

pretty.”

It didn't sound nice to me. I heard and thought those were not good traits fora good friend. But I felt very shy because of the way she looked at me.

“It doesn't sound nice.”

“You are pretty in my eyes.”

“Hey!”

I called her to make her stop. She expressed too much of her feelings.

“I told you before not to show…”

“I love you, Gen.”

“I know. You say it often.”

“I love you and I want you…”

The soft eyes looked at me. She hypnotized me and grabbed my hand andpressed it on her left breast. I felt her heartbeat.

“I want to swallow you whole. If I can…”

My throat went dry in surprise. I could collapse on the ground. She playedan offensive game this time. I was only chased by boys, but never by a girl.

“I don't understand.”

“It's not too difficult to understand. Or should I kiss you?

“Oh?”

The smallest girl said jokingly and stood on tiptoe, so her lips were right onmine.

"You have to understand that I'm crazy about you."

“Do you know what you're saying? I told you before that I was not a

lesbian.”

"Let's see how far you can go."

She smiled mockingly.

“When you're ready, I'll be here.”

The girl pulled my neck with both hands and put her lips next to my ear.

“See how far you can go. I'll make you admit how much you love me.”