Chapter 29
Back To Hell
I feel nervous.
I feel sick.
I feel like I'm going to faint in any second.
My eyes frantically go left and right, trying to catch, or sense his presence. I'm not prepared to see him again, to see how he has moved on already from me, to see him with someone else. Of course that's just my brain processing negative thoughts, or images, but I can't help but to think of those. What if he has found someone else worth fighting for more than me? What if he has found someone else where he's ready to tell the world that they are lovers? Just the thought of those make my heart clench in pain, and I feel the searing pain, and it hurts. So much.
Everything makes me dizzy – the passing students, the noise, the smell, everything. I just want to go home, curl up in my bed, an
