I voluntarily entered this dangerous world of Chris. I was never pressured to help him, I did it willingly. Although he sometimes used threats, I tend to believe that he did so in order not to be seen as a weak leader. He is not weak at all. The fact that he overcame everything and made the decision to inform me indirectly of what was going to happen, without taking into account the consequences if it was found that he informed me, makes him a strong leader. He could choose him and leave the rest to fate. But no...He put me first.
I also feel guilty for the fact that he somehow came to love me. I was shocked to hear this from his mouth because I did not expect such a thing. When did he reach such strong feelings? I am guilty that he loves me, because I cannot share his feelings.
