OOPs of a Poet

99 Problems, but Lonliness is Not One

I have mental illnesses such as bipolar disorder,

I admit fully I have been receiving such care since I was about 18 or not much older,

This might be some of the reason I find peace alone,

you see as rude or vulgar some TV episode gets or TV host gets pales in comparison to real life vulgerness so you see for someone like me who is not anonymous and safer from afar you could see how this is sufficient enough to no feel alone,

This is why I said if the other two men have mates they are happy with and they can satisfy their needs, I say go for it,

I don't want to commit to anyone who tried to kill me, and I have no idea who's guilty or innocent,

You leave someone in comfortable isolation long enough with less economic harm and drama its hard to motivate them to see dating as something worth participating in at the present.

I have a million problems. I'm broke with no job or prospects,

I am at the bottom of every social hierarchy in every way but in away free to not care about others' comments.

I know I'm most not wanted, and in that way, I'm not limited by social expectations.

You can not fail anyone if no one has anything to expect from me now anyway and now in all future situations.

I won't commit after Able because someone I loved, I thought, was happier with me gone if I see a double date matching that exact expectation,

then goodbye make over,

hello in bed late alone. Stay overs.