The She-Alpha

Chapter One

Walking into my father's room always worried me of a new sadness. The great Marcus Faolan, the best Alpha, they would say. He ruled fair, friendly, but most of all, was the best parent anyone would ask for. He's already skinnier, paler, too weak to even hold meetings. Roman has been running the pack for a year now because of my father's deterring condition. He's only getting worse, and I kept fearing for the worst to come. I sat on the edge of his bed, he turned over to face me, smiling.

"Lupa... I'm so sorry.." He coughed.

"Father, why are you sorry? You've done nothing wrong."

"I'm leaving you... first your mother now me. I don't want you to be alone." Leaving me... I don't want to think like that, and I never do. At this point, Lupa is more than just a name to me. My father picked it out himself. "She-Wolf" He said. He saw me and knew I was exactly the child he needed to take over for him.

"L-let's not think like that father, there's-" He put his hand on mine. I froze.

"I wish I didn't need to, but my wolf is unable to heal me... He hasn't been able to for months. I've only lived this long because of a strong Alpha wolf." I wish my wolf could be strong like his, but she was a small little Luna wolf. Females can't be Alpha's. Well, it's just there has never been one.

"Who would take over, father..?" I knew he was going to say Roman, but deep down... I wish he would say.-

"You, of course, my sweet daughter." ..me. Wait.. He said me. H-he didn't say Roman, h-how-?

"I thought a male had to take over father. Females are just meant to be Luna's." He laughed, but the laughing turned to coughing.

"N-No Lupa... T-tell me what I always told you.."

"It isn't blood or gender that makes you a leader, it's your leadership and the power to care for others." I smiled down at him.

"And how did I treat everyone in our pack?"

"Like everyone was your friend... Because you always had everyone's back."

"And I know,, you, my little girl, will do the same. I did not set up your marriage to Roman to punish you but to protect you. I didn't do my part as a father to train you... I thought I had more time." He lifted his hand to my cheek, caressing it. "My little Amber Lupa Faolan, you will be the next Alpha of the Snow Pack."

"I'll do everything in my power to make you proud."

"Oh Lupa, you already do. Giving that title is up to you.. Whether you take it or give it to Roman. I will always have faith in you. Making mistakes is apart from being a leader." He pulled me onto his chest, his arms wrapped around me. I don't want to lose him, I can't lose him... How can I do anything without him there to guide me? "Remember, how much I will always love you... and the love never dies with me..." He placed his final kiss on my cheek, before his IV beeped loudly. His arms fell to his side, his face fell... and his heart stopped beating. I felt the undeniable pain in my chest, my wolf let out a mourning howl for the fallen Alpha. I rested my head on his chest, crying as more howls broke out. Everyone knew their Alpha was gone, they all felt it as I had. I felt a hand on my back. I turned my head to see Roman.

"My wolf felt his death, Amber... I'm so sorry... I can't imagine how hard it is on you." He helped me off my father's body, holding me to his chest. I kept crying into his chest.

"It's not fair..." I screamed.

"I know, it's never fair to steal someone we all cared for." Last thing I remember that day was passing out in Roman's arms from crying and crying...

Pain never truly leaves you, you just need to push it aside to continue on. Even after a year, I can't ever push the pain away. I cry myself to sleep almost every night. I don't wish for any nineteen-year-old to watch their only parent die. I hear snapping, and I get pulled out of my train of thought.

"Luna Amber, did you hear me?" Derek asks. He has his notepad, and he's standing in front of me.

"I-I'm sorry Derek, I didn't. I was lost in thought." Although the pack addresses me as Luna, with the passing of my father, Roman isn't Alpha. He's still a Beta, as I still never got married. I'm not rushing to marriage, I need to work on myself and my inner healing. I got my wolf at eighteen and she's very weak. I don't know why, I can't feel her or shift.

"It's alright Luna, this is the one-year date. I knew today was going to be difficult for you. Now, please tell me the last time you shifted and the last time you've talked or had any activity with your wolf." I've been coming to Derek since I was born, he's basically my uncle. The best pack doctor that I've met, and I've been to a lot.

"The last time I shifted was the only time when I first turned eighteen. The last time I had any activity was when my father died. She let out the first mourning howl. I've never actually spoken to her, she's never reached out." I fee like a failure. How can I expect to lead a pack when I can't speak to my wolf? I can't shift, she won't talk to me. What am I doing wrong?

"I don't really understand, I am still reaching out to other packs to see if anyone else knows anything. Keep taking your vitamins. Beta Roman has been giving you. Your strength should return." I nod, and he helps me stand, my hands shaking. "I believe you might be under a lot of stress. Perhaps move up the wedding date and when you give Alpha to him-"

"Why would I give Alpha to Roman?!"

"Well, because he would lead you as his Luna..? Like every pack with daughters." I will not lead as Luna, I will be Alpha. I don't care what anyone says. Sexist. That's what they all are.

"Derek, is it because I am a woman?" He pauses, clearly trying to choose the correct way to reply.

"That's part of it, but the other part is your wolf will not surface. If she can't come, you won't be strong enough to lead and the enemies could easily kill you and weaken us more." f**k. He's got me there. He's right, I need to shift to get an edge in battle. I hung my head before walking out of his house.

I make my way to the pack house and two large arms grab me. They pulled me to the side of the packhouse, I couldn't see anyone else. One hand is holding my body, one hand over my mouth. Their faces came into the light to see...