LOSTREGO SERIES #2: Twisted Fate

CHAPTER 9

A week without Lukas pestering me is boring as hell.

Paulit ulit lang palagi ang routine ng buhay ko sa isang linggong lumipas.

Gigising, maghahanda para pumasok, uuwi at matutulog.

I don't even have the urge to go clubbing anymore at hindi ko alam kung bakit. Maybe because Lukas always checking on me in eveything that I do kaya parang ayoko narin mag bar hoping after class.

I know it's annoying right? But I am used to it now.

He just always text me and call me whenever he have free time. But dude! Minsan ako nalang ang naaawa sa kanya kase imbes na ipagpahinga nya nalang iyong oras na iyon nagagawa nya pa akong kumustahin at bwisitin sa araw araw. Like geez! Alam ko ring may training yon tapos we have different timezone. Umaga dito habang doon gabi. See his effort? Kaya minsan hindi ko nalang sinasagot.

Pakiramdam ko rin wala na siyang pahinga dahil sa akin. Hindi ko naman siya pinipilit na tawagan ako araw araw but he is insisted it may magagawa ba ako doon?

And maybe I just like pissing him off tutal nasa malayo naman siya. Effective naman naaliw ako. But these days ako na yung naiinis nya at hindi na ako natutuwa. I need a revenge.

Kagaya ngayon Lunes na naman papasok na naman ako without seeing him. Pero tingnan nyo hindi pa man ako nakakapag breakfast magriring na yang phone ko maya maya.

I am just expecting that he will call me early in this morning kahit gabi na sa lugar nya, I know that.

Nagtungo na muna ako sa banyo para saglit na makapag hilamos. Maaga din naman akong nagising kaya marami pa akong libreng oras para mag asikaso bago pumasok sa campus.

Isa pa nagpa-practice lang naman kami ng graduation march tapos wala naman ng masyadong ginagawa.

I do my morning routine on my bathroom as usual. Half-bathing, brushing teeth, doing my skincare etc...

After I've done on my things naisipan ko naring lumabas. Nahagip pa nga ng mata ko ang bahagyang pag ilaw ng phone ko sa ibabaw ng kama pero namatay din ulit.

Is he calling me again?

As I walk by to my closet para sana kumuha ng ipangpapalit na damit narinig ko na naman ulit ang phone kong nag ingay.

I withdraw a heavy sighed before I went back to my bed to pick up my phone.

"Jesus, Lukas hindi ka ba natutulog." pag kausap ko sa sarili bago sagutin ang tawag.

"Morning..." bungad nya.

Napahilot nalang ako sa sentido ko matapos marinig ang pagod nyang boses. See!

Pinatagal ko pa ng ilang segundo na hindi ako sumagot mistulang pinapakinggan lang siya sa kabilang linya. I could hear dripping water on his line. Nasaan ba ito?

"Lukas, have some sleep okay. I am doing fine here stop checking me every hour. You need to rest. And please I don't have time to deal your teasing." sermon ko.

He chuckled on what I said hindi ako siniseryoso. Nakarinig na naman ako ng lagaslas ng tubig sa kabilang linya.

"Stop laughing I really mean it Lukas. And heck! Don't you dare reminding me about our kiss last week bwisit na bwisit na ako sayo. At tsaka teka nga nasaan ka ba? I heard water splashing on your background." I asked, while drying my wet skin using my towel.

Natahimik siya saglit at tanging lagaslas na lang ng tubig ang naririnig ko. Naupo muna ako sa kama at hinitay siyang sumagot.

"I'm on the shower baby, Wanna video call?" He chuckled.

"And as you mention about the kiss I am not teasing you about it okay? Relax I just miss you. " pang aasar nya pero tuloy parin ang pagtawa.

Gosh! Kelan nya ba ako titigilan sa mga ganito nyang biro?

Hindi ako kaagad nakasagot sa tanong nya dahil pinamulahan na ako ng mukha lalo pa ng naimagine ko siyang naliligo. Jusko naman! Sienna stop with your dirty thoughts. Oh my god!

"Come on Sienna, I'm not teasing you or so. I'll hang it up. I wanna see you. Let's video call." pagtatapos nya bago nya pinutol ang tawag.

"Lukas—"

Hindi pa ako nakakabawi sa mga pinagsasabi nya ng mag vibrate na agad ang phone ko at muli akong tinatawagan for a fuvking video call! Good heavens ano bang iniisip ng lalaking to.

Nanginginig akong tinapon ang phone ko sa malambot kong kama at hindi iyon sinagot. He tried to call me again but I ended up rejecting it. Kinakabahan ako syempre I don't know kung pag sinagot ko ba iyon anong bubungad sa akin. Like damn it Lukas! Hindi pa nga ako nakaka get over noong nakaraan heto ka na naman.

At isa pa I don't trust him with his statement 'I am not teasing' sinong niloko nya. Tss.

I bit my lips as my phone stop vibrating pero umilaw iyong muli dahil sa isang text message.

Dali dali ko naman iyong kinuha para basahin ang mensahe ni Lukas.

Lukas:

I won't show you my d-ck if that is your concern. I'm on my bathtub now. Answer my call please. I wanna see you.

Natakpan ko bigla ang mukha at nahiya ako bigla sa mga nabasa at parang gusto ko nalang magpalamon sa lupa ngayon. This man is just annoying! How could he conclude na kaya hindi ko sinasagot yung tawag nya is just because I am afraid to see his maleness! What the f**k Lukas? Kahit kailan hindi naman iyon pumasok sa utak ko. Not intentionally but...ano ba? What I am defending myself dimwit Sienna.

It just because...

I will be startled and nervous for sure if I answer his call. Kaya hindi ko masagot sagot iyon. Syempre bago lang iyong ganitong pangyayari sa akin. How dare him judge me.

At isa pa hindi padin ako nakakapag bihis, nakatapis lang ako ng tuwalya. It is definetely an awkward to see each other on the screen like this.

I bit my lips.

Wala pang isang minuto nag ingay na naman ang phone ko.

Sinimulan na naman tuloy akong gapangan ng kaba at napalunok pa ng ilang beses bago ko tuluyang sagutin ang tawag nya.

I closed my eyes immediately after I tap the answer button. Ilang segundo akong walang narinig kaya akala ko hindi ko iyon tuluyang nasagot.

But as I open my eyes biglang dinapuan ng hiya ang mukha ko when I see him handsomely mocking a devilish smile on the screen as he look at me flirtatious.

He is on his bathub, truth as what he said. At mistulang hanggang dibdib nya lang ang kita ko sa kanya. His hair is dripping wet probably because he is done showering earlier. Nakagat ko tuloy ng madiin ang pang ibaba kong labi dahil he look so damn fine on his angle.

While me looking pale in the morning.

"Hi." he tease me, arching his right eye brow leaving a smirk smile on his face.

Naiparap ako sa ginawa nyang pagbati dahil halata namang nang aasar lang siya sa akin.

He barked a laughter as he see my face startes to feel annoyed on him. Ano ba kase Lukas! Ang aga aga nambubwisit ka na naman.

"You plan this aren't you? Your so annoying I hate you."

Mas humagalpak pa siya ng tawa sa mga pinagsasabi ko at tuloy parin sa pang aasar.

"I wasn't it was coincidence, maybe a wrong timing I guess? damn!" He said, but still laughing like an idiot.

Uh huh? What he think of me a fool?

Akala ko tatayo sya dahil bigla nyang ginalaw ang camera pataas kaya napatili ako at biglang binagsak sa kama ang cellphone ko. I heard him curse while loudly laughing dahil sa biglaan kong paghagis non.

"I'm kidding baby, sorry." He said but still chuckling on the back ground.

What the actual f**k Lukas! I almost got an heart attack.

"Pick up your phone please, I'm sorry."

Napalabi ako sa pakikiusap nya at agad din namang kinuha yung phone ko sa kama.

Inirapan ko pa siya ulit ng isang beses para makita nyang sobrang inis na inis na ako sa pang aasar nya sa akin.

"It's not funny Lukas. If you that horny then that's not my problem. Bedded another women if you want—"

"Hey! hey! Stop right here. A what? Did you hear what you says? Bedded a woman? Jesus christ! A f**k no! What the hell are you thinking Sienna."

I don't know kung bakit kami biglang napunta dito. Did I overthink too much? Did I missed something?

"B-but...we still not engaged nor married you can still explore women as you want. H..hindi naman kita pipigilan. Ofcourse you are a man you have needs—" He cut me off while madly looking at me.

"Stop with your ridiculous offer Sienna you making me mad. And I am not okay with it. I know I am an asshole but that was before. I can change. I am not checking you everyday to play some games on you. This is serious. We getting married. I will working this relationship. Kaya kong magsarili Sienna trash out your idea that I will bed a woman to satisfy my needs. That's f**k off." galit nyang sabi sakin. Nagkasalubong narin ang mga kilay nya habang nakatingin sa akin ng diretso.

Ako nalang tuloy ang nahiya at mistulang napayuko. He sighed a heavy breath before calling my name again.

"Anyway, did you invite Sean? How's your preparation for your birrthday?" pag iiba nya ng topic.

Inayos ko ang anggulo ng pagkakahawak ko ng phone at inilagay iyon sa study table ko bago ako umupo doon. I just feel more comfortable on this area than to my bed dahil nababasa ko lang yung bed sheet ko ng tubig na dumadaloy sa katawan ko.

As I see him on the screen bigla siyang naestatwa doon ng makita ang kabuuan ko. Napaayos tuloy akong muli sa tuwalyang tumatabon sa katawan ko at muli iyong hinigpitan.

He cleared his throat first before I tried to answer his question. Hindi narin siya nakatingin sa akin.

"I am not seeing Sean on the campus. But when I see him guaranteed me that I tried to invite him as you said. And about my birthday preparation bukas na bukas din mamimili na ako ng gown for my debut."

Tumango siya sakin pero iwas parin ang mata sa screen. He didn't have the guts to look at me at parang hindi narin siya kumportable sa kabilang linya.

"Are you okay Lukas?"

Tinitigan nya ako ng isang beses at tumango doon. Pero iniiwas muli ang tingin sa akin.

"T-that's good. Uhm...I need to hang it up for now. I have very important things to do. I call you later." He said before he ended up the video call.

Nanliit ang mata ko sa biglaang pagpatay nya ng tawag ng hindi man lang ako nakakapag paalam sa kanya ng matino. Is he that angry?

He is become so diffucult.

***

Kanina pa ako naihatid ng driver ko sa campus. Sinadya ko talagang maging maaga ngayon para sana hanapin si Sean.

I don't know why Lukas urging me to invite him. Okay naman kase ako kahit wala akong last dance or kahit kulang pa yung 18 guy na magsasayaw sa akin. Magagawan naman iyon ng paraan nila mom. Kaya hindi ko maintindihan bakit pinipilit ako ni Lukas.

Nagtungo muna akong cafeteria para sana bumili muna ng tubig dahil kanina pa ako nauuhaw. Hindi ko lang inaasahan na sa pagpunta ko doon makikita ko sila Grace at Krystal kasama ng bago nilang mauutong kaibigan. It was our nerd classmate na tahimik lang all along the school year. I think her name is Pauline. A math genius in our section.

They saw me lalo pa ng malagpasan ko sila sa table nila. I also heard Krystal talking s**t about me before I passed them but I don't care. They are not worth my time.

"One bottle of water po ate." I said.

Kaagad namang ibinigay sakin yung binili kong tubig at medyo natagalan lang siya sa pagsukli sa akin dahil buo ang perang binayad ko.

As my standing here on the counter I heard them bullying Pauline on their sit.

"Come on Pau, it is easy. All you have to do is give my number to him. Tropa naman siya ng kuya mo right? At balita ko pupunta siya mamaya sa inyo. It is just a piece of a cake. Pag di mo sinunod alam mo na ang mangyayari sayo sa graduation." Krystal said.

What a b***h.

"K-krystal...ano kase, parang hindi ko kaya yung pinapagawa mo...baka may iba pang paraan. Hindi kase ako komportable sa mga tropa ni kuya kaya hindi ako lumalapit sa kanila kapag nasa bahay sila—"

"Ano ka ba! Kaya mo yan. Unless you want to be fun off sa graduation day natin pag di mo yan ginawa." dagdag pa niya habang nakikipag tawanan kay Grace.

Napangisi ako habang naiirita sa ginagawa nyang pang ba-blackmail sa wala naming laban na kaklase.

Agad narin namang iniabot sa akin ng tindera ang sukli ko kaya dali dali narin akong naglakad papalapit sa pwesto nia ngayon.

Ayoko sanang mangielam pero sukang suka na ako sa pag uugali nilang ganito.

"Give my number okay."

Inilapag ko ng malakas yung binili kong tubig sa lamesa nila hudyat ng paggawa nito ng malakas na ingay. Kinatigil nila iyon at mistulang iritang tumingin sa akin.

"What are you doing?" mataray na tanong ni Krystal sa akin.

I give her a fake smile before I hold Pauline hand para mailayo na sa kanilang dalawa.

"Let's go." I said.

Nanginginig pang kinuha ni Pauline ang kamay ko pero kalaunan sumama din sa akin.

"Hey! Stop meddling our business Sienna. Labas ka na dito, you are no longer our friends."

Sinubukan nya pang agawin sa likod ko si Pauline pero humarang ako.

"And I'm glad on that news. You two are trash anyway. But you know what Krystal...stop bribing her for your own benefit. Tumatanda kang paurong girl. Madali lang pala pinapagawa mo bakit hindi ikaw ang gumawa tanga lang?" I said before pulling Pauline out of their sight.

I heard them scream bad about me regarding on what I said pero wala na akong pake. Kahit doon man lang makabawi ako sa ginawa nilang panggagamit sa akin.

Binitawan ko na si Pauline ng makalabas kami ng cafeteria at naupo sa isa mga bench dito sa labas. I tapped my hand on the right side of the bench inaayayahan siyang umupo sa tabi ko bago ako uminom ng tubig.

Medyo naningkit pa ang mata ko dahil sa tama ng sinag ng araw sa mukha ko. I forgot to apply my sunscreen earlier mainit pa naman ngayon.

"Uhm...s-salamat nga pala. Kung wala ka kanina hindi ko na alam ang gagawin ko." sabi nya, tumabi na sa akin ng upo.

I closed my bottled water before I give her an assurance smile.

"Your welcome. Next time kapag binablack mail ka pa nila you need to tell me or lumapit ka sa akin. Magkaklase naman tayo so no room to be shy at me Pauline."

Tumango siya don at parang batang tuwang tuwa sa sinabi ko.

"It is okay kung magtanong ako sayo Sienna?" dugtong nya.

"Yeah, go ahead."

This time sa kanya na napunta ang atensyon ko at hinihintay siya sa pagtatanong.

"Uhm...diba magkakaibigan kayo nila Krystal? Bakit ka umiwas? I mean bakit galit na kayo sa isa't isa?"

Napangisi ako sa tanong nya at nandiri din bigla sa sarili dahil oo nga? Bakit ko nga ba naging kaibigan yung mga yon?

"Honestly I don't know." I chuckled. "Tanga lang siguro ako noon, but I am glad natauhan na ako. Basta they are just not worth it, to be your friend in general maliligaw ka lang ng landas. I could say." mapait kong turan.

We both chuckled on what I said cute naman itong babaeng to eh. Medyo old fashion lang sa pananamit. She wears our uniform with not her size. Masyadong maluwag para sa kanya. Above the knee din yung haba ng palda nya. She is literally a nerdy type. Isabay mo pa na ang kapal kapal ng suot nyang salamin sa mata. But overall she is beautiful. Medyo may hawig nga sila ng mata ni Sean. Are they related?

"Anyway, what did Krystal said to you? Anong inuutos? Binubully ka? What's with the thing she said in graduation?"

Napaiwas siya ng tingin sakin at tila biglang natakot. Nagsimula ding manginig ang kamay nya sa klase ng tanong ko.

Fuck you Krystal. You gave her trauma.

"It's okay Pauline, no need to answer my question—"

"T-they want me to give her...uhm number sa kaibigan ng kuya ko. You know Liam Sandoval yung swimmer athlete sa batch natin? Krystal suggest kase na mas madali daw pag sa ganoong paraan ko gagawin iyon. Hindi daw kase siya pinapansin ni Liam. Then si kuya Sean kase along with his friends pupunta sa bahay mamaya..so, Krystal blackmailed me na kapag hindi ko daw iyon ginawa may gagawin syang ikakapahiya ko sa graduation day."

I literally drop my jaw after solving the puzzled I created on my mind. She said Sean? Right? It is what I think? Are they perhaps a relative?

"I know Liam yeah crush yan ni Krystal dati palang kahit na may boyfriend sya but...I heard you mention Sean? You mean Sean Klement right?"

Tumango siya doon bago ngumiti.

"Yeah, he is my twin brother, unfortunately." She chuckled.

Oh gosh! That was cool. I didn't know Sean has a twin. And heck! They are literally look like.

"I know Sean, I met him once. He is a good guy." I paused," Anyway, it is okay if I invited you two on my debut? I am screwed kase when it comes to my invitees dahil wala naman akong kaibigan. Nagbabakasakali lang na baka gusto nyo?" I said.

I bitting my lips as I looking at her reaction.

"Uhm...next month na sana, after graduation? Are you free on that day?" dagdag ko pa.

Mas lalo akong kinabahan sa pinakita nyang reaksiyon dahil para siyang tatanggi na ewan.

"I'm free on that day, ewan ko lang kay kuya. But I will ask him. Besides it is your birthday. You say naman kilala mo naman si kuya so, baka iconsider nya rin mabait naman iyon." She smiled.

That's great..yeah...but, she still doesn't know na si Sean ang gagawin kong last dance. It is too much to asked right? Kaya baka ako nalang din ang kuma-usap sa kuya nya.

"Ahm...where should I find Sean btw?" I asked.

She look so confused on what I said...

"Pwede kita samahan kung nasan siya maaga pa naman 'di pa nagsisimula ang klase. Ano tara?"

Sumunod nalang ako ng bigla na siyang tumayo at nagsimula ng manguna sa paglalakad. It is a good idea or bad? Si Lukas naman kase parang baliw pinipilit pang si Sean ang gawin kong Last dance.

A few minutes later huminto kami sa lumang faculty room ng dating english teacher namin but now ginagamit din itong meeting place ng mga student council.

Are they having a meeting? Maybe sa after party na magaganap pagtapos ng graduation.

Oh shoot! An after party.

Great.

I think he will refuse my invite.

Kinatok na ni Pauline ang pintuan non at saktong ang nagbukas ay si Sean.

"Kuya, Sienna is looking for you." She said.

Awang ang labi kong pabalik balik ng tingin sa dalawa.

"Iwan ko muna kayo saglit, ahm...Sienna balik lang ako don sa bench. Hintayin kita." Pauline said.

Tumango nalang ako sa kanya bilang pag apruba. Iniwan nya narin kami kalaunan at tuluyan naman ng lumabas sa Sean sa pintuan para harapin ako.

"Hi." bungad nya.

"Hey..." I greeted back.

It was an awkward silence between us for about a couple of seconds.

"Uhm...you are looking for me? Is it your foot okay now?" tanong nya at napatingin sa paa ko.

Napatango ako don at bahagyang tiningnan ang paa ko at ginalaw galaw iyon. It is okay now wala naman ng problema.

"Yep, ahm...thanks for the help on that day." I said.

He smiled at me genuinely. "Your welcome...but, is there's anything wrong why you look for me? May sasabihin ka ba? Problema regarding sa school matters? Anything concerns?"

Why do I feel shy about this...iimbitahan ko lang naman siya and asking him to be my last dance...yeah that was hard.

"Ah, it is not about school matters but I wanna invite you sana sa debut ko? Okay lang? Kaso it is after the graduation day...and I understand if you can't make it—"

"I will be here. No worries. Advance happy birthday Sienna." He cut me off, while starting chuckling at my shyness.

Namula ako ng bahagya doon at parang ayoko ng ituloy ang sunod kong sasabihin. Damn it! How could I say I want him to be my last dance. It is too much to ask.

Nagkatitigan lang kami dahil hindi parin ako umaalis sa harapan nya.

"May sasabihin ka pa?" dagdag nya.

Oh gosh...I fidgetting my fingers and ready to burst out my concern.

"Can you be my last dance?" I said with my eyes closed.

Fuck! I said it.

But I look like a man asking him that kind of question. That was f*****g embarassing!

Wala akong narinig na sagot sa halos isang minutong lumipas kaya dinilat ko na ang mata ko para makita ang reaksiyon nya.

He look at me amusedly while smirking as he crossed his arms on his chest and looking at me teasingly.

"Okay...no problem see you after graduation then." He said before gesturing himself to leave.

Ngumiti ako don and mouthing him 'thanks' before he left.

Damn I made it!

I definetely tell Lukas about it.