Falling For My Boyfriend's Buddy

Back to Reality

(Lisanna)

I felt the sun rays touching my face as I slowly opened my eyes, it was already morning before I could even realize. I moved on the other side just to check if Luke was still beside me, but he was not. I see myself covered and wrapped with blanket so I get up holding it above my chest, where is he? Did he now ran away upon knowing that we might be awkward now? Or am I just the only one who is thinking that?

I slowly put down my feet at the edge of the bed and stood up, the floor was cold but it was all covered with fleece like carpet so it is soft and plushy at the same time.

I began strolling at the whole room, I did not get the chance to check it as it was already dark and too many things happened. An unbelievable laugh came out off my lips as I saw my reflection on the mirror with my messed up hair together with my naked body under this white cloth, I sure changed in many ways.

That was my first time but I admit that first times are usually unforgettable one, but I am having second thoughts about this one. I heard the door was slowly opening as I waited for it to flew open in some seconds. I saw Luke pushing a steel and golden trolley together with some breakfast over it.

He stood there for seconds as he saw me standing and intently staring right at him.

"Geez, can you not just enter the room and do what you want?" I said to him and he scoffs.

"Wow, you look like a greek goddess." he commented and this is now my time to scoffed on his words.

"You do not flirt with me in this early morning." I said as I walked towards him, waiting for me to arrive in front him.

"I am not joking." he firmly said as I smirked and nodded. I one at a time opened the covered food as I saw, it was a usual breakfast eaten by rich people, but maybe not me.

"Do you not have any foods bought from the convenience store?" I asked to him in the face.

"That is not a healthy one. You should eat enough and food with carbohydrates." he said to me as I chuckles.

"Stop with your health lectures, I want to eat food that I like and what I craves in." I answered and grabbed a slice of garlic bread as I bite a little of it.

"Well, this is not that bad as I have expected." I commented and a smile formed on his face.

"You see, I am right." he said in great confidence.

"Did you not have any cup noodles? This is great to partner with." I added and he glares at me. I laughs upon seeing his reaction and nodded at the same time.

"Alright, I will listen to you, for the first time and for the last time." I said and he smiled while nodding like a kid.

He set up the table near the veranda as he one at a time put the food over the table. He pulled again a chair for me as I let out a deep sigh and decided not to say anythig about it. I was about to pour some tea for myself when he grabbed the teapot and smiled on me, he poured the hot drink in my cup as he even gave a slice of that bread on my plate. I was complain by now but he was gone and now is opening the curtains. Now, this is the time I saw the whole view I was looking on under thr stars last night.

"This is beautiful." I said as he even opened the doors that I thought was only windows.

"I know right." he answered as I looked on his direction, I was the one he was staring at.

"Thank you." those were the only words I can say for now. I am thanking him for everything, though, I am still suspicious at him even this time of him being kind and generous to me.

This is not because I do not trust him. This is because I know from the second I stepped out from this house I got in the wonderland, I will be back to reality and that one is a very opposite sight for me.

"Do not be. Thank you, Lisanna. For showing up and making my life more colorful than it was." he answered as I smiled, this time, it was a genuine smile.

I kept on hesitating on him, I kept on questioning his thoughts, his motives and even movements. Why would someone like him be that kind and even liking me this much? How could he be so light and cheerful even if his life was too hard and heavy for him? How could he both live in reality while still dreaming and hoping for something good to happen? Is he just a naive one? Or is he just used with everything that he do not care anything from now on?

"I am both." he suddenly said as I looked at him intently.

"I know those looks, those eyes I am getting whenever I am with people who entered our lives for the first time. We are not that bad as you think, we are just doing everything to survive." he added on top of that.

"Even if you hurt someone?" I asked and he smiled, a melancholic one.

"Even if we hurt someone." he answered as I nodded and let out a deep sigh.

"Then, you did a great job on surviving. I hope you live hundreds and thousands of years because of that." I sarcastically said to him and he chuckles.

"I will not if you are not by my side." he said as I burst out laughing.

"No one can live with for that long time. When you always have the room to hurt someone, in the end, you will still be alone. You got the life, but you got no reason to live." I answered to him and he shook his head, held my hand and said...

"Then, let us not go back to reality. We can just live here together and be happy." he said to me with great seriousness at his face.

"You have the choice, you can be happy in both ways." I said.

"Choices is meant to decide on which side you will be. That means, it will always be your choice to eat unhealthy foods instead of the one I made for you." he said with those eyes and I burst out laughing. He also laughs upon seeing me react that way and he intertwined his fingers on mine.

"Come on, being naked in this cold air is not good." he said to me as my eyes widened and looked on myself.

That is right, I am still covering my body with blanket but I did not even remember that important thing.

"You p*****t!" I exclaimed and ran back in the room.

I could still hear him laughing outside as I quickly entered the bathroom upon picking up my clothes on the floor. I sat at the covered toilet bowl as I began panting, why am I acting like this? The first time I felt this was to Axel, do not tell me that I am in love once again when I did not have any time to move on from Axel first before entering into a new relationship.

This is dumb, when I say I should be back to reality, what I mean is start investigsting and not to start being a normal girl once again. I began putting my clothes on, I looked myself on the mirror as I forced myself to show a little smile. On the second thought, maybe playing around would be a nice thing sometime. I just cannot live my whole life pretending to be someone else when I am not used to this kind of living.

I hold the doorknob of the door as I let out a deep sigh first before coming out. This will be the last time I would be hesitating for once. This will be the last time I will stay in my own dreams, this will be thr first time I will weak.

I finally opened the door as I saw Luke standing in front of it and acting like he is actually waiting for me to get out.

"What do you want?" I asked to him and he slowly shakes his head for an answer.

"Just waiting for you to come out." he plainly said.

"You are starting to get weirder." I commented and he chuckles.

"Just a little paranoid over something." he answered as I looked at him, with my eyes of doubts.

"Are you alright?" I asked and he again flashed a fake smile. I know it very well as I keep on doing that before.

"Yeah, of course I am." he said as he started to walk away from me.

"You can tell me anything, come on." I said to him but he just ignores me and continuously walked towards the breakfast table in a second.

"Luke. What more are you not telling me until now?" I firmly asked to him and I followed him towards that direction. I stood in front of him and waiting for his next words.

"Trauma is not an easy thing to get,away it, is it?" he plainly said and with that, I hugged him immediately with concern and comfort.

I know that hug would not let ease all of his concerns, all of his worried but now, I certainly wanted to be here for him.

Now I know why is he like that, reality is too painful for him that he cannot go back whenever he wanted, not again.

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