Lillian the Villian

Friendship

I get back to my room and collapse onto the bed. So much has happened in just 3 days, and I have a lot to process. Cynthia clearly hates me, and I might be fate mated to her fiancé. Maybe I was wrong. It was just a scent, and their were so many wolves in the dining hall that it could have come from any of them. It could have even been one of the other servants, but I think I would have smelt them again by now. How am I going to escape this place? If I manage to escape, then where will I go? I have to be strategic and learn more about this place before I can plan anything, but with Cynthia's threats, I may not have all the time I need. My mind slips back to the scent, it made my mouth water, and I really want to know what his face looks like. Or maybe I don't, that will only complicate things more, and as everyone keeps reminding me, I need to stay out of trouble.

"If you can't beat them, join them. That was your old motto. What has changed now?" Sierra asks. I respond with, "I'm not that person anymore, and I refuse to be again. I'd rather die a decent wolf my father could be proud of than ever live the way I used to."

"I like this new you a lot better than the old one." She says as she yawns. That is the only compliment she has ever given me. She retreats to the back of my mind to rest, and in a matter of minutes, I'm right behind her.

I wake up a couple of hours later to light knocking on my door. Alice pokes her head in, and I motion for her to come in. She looks around my room for a minute and then sighs before sitting on the bed.

"I really want to be your friend, but there is some stuff I need to know. It won't affect our friendship, but it's eating at me." She pauses, and I nod for her to continue. "Is everything everyone says about you true? Did you really try to hurt your pregnant sister? What happened between you and Cynthia? Why does she hate you so much?" I think for a minute about how to awnser. "Yes, everything everyone says is probably true." I take a minute trying to think about how to explain myself without it sounding so bad but I settle on just telling her the truth, then when she doesn't want to be my friend anymore I'll be understanding.

"Me and my sister were huge rivals, always competing for everything, but I never played fair. I would pit my, I mean our, parents against her, and it worked too well. I dated Eric long before he became Alpha. We were childhood sweethearts. I loved him so much, too much, and I couldn't handle it when I found out they were fate mates. I did a lot of horrible things that I'm not proud of. I think if it had been someone else, anyone else I might have just let him go, but he promised me that he would reject her and take me as his chosen mate. He lied about it because they were fate mates, and he couldn't resist her. I left and went to start a new life, but then my father died a month after, so I came back, and again, Eric promised me that he wanted me instead. I had a lot to do with that and would manipulate situations to make her seem evil and crazy when I was actually the evil and crazy one. When I found out he mated and marked her, I decided to confront her. She seemed sick, and that's when I heard the heartbeat. My nephews heartbeat, but all I saw was competition for the man I loved, and she was in my way. So I grabbed the knife off the dresser and lunged at her. I missed, not that it matters. I just remember feeling more rage than I have ever felt before. I am as bad if not worse than the rumors suggest. Eric personally threw me into the dungeons, and I spent 5 months in hell before they sold me to your pack. The worst part is that I felt justified in all of those actions until last week when she sold me. She wasn't malicious or mean, and she told me she still loved me. That was when I realized I was wrong, so wrong, and even if I could tell her she wouldn't believe me, or worse, she would think I was just up to something." It feels nice to get it off my chest, even if it costs me my new and only friend.

Alice ponders everything I have said for a moment before she says anything.

"Thank you for being honest with me, we never have to talk about this again if you don't want to. I made up my mind about you when we first met because my wolf Aria likes you. She is very intuitive and has never steered wrong. If your serious about a second chance your going to need a friend." She pauses and smiles at me before continuing on. "It sounds like Alpha Eric caused you a lot more pain than he was worth. I hope you find your true mate, if that is what you want. I mean I know that's what most of us want but they aren't always everything their cracked up to be. Why did she have a knife on her dresser?"

"Thank you for still wanting to be my friend. I never thought about it, but it's weird that she did jist happen to have a knife on her dresser . I honestly don't know, but I doubt Scarlet set me up. That was always my style, not hers." I admit.

We spend the next hour chatting before it's time to wash up for dinner.