Playing With Fire

Chapter 19

Months. That's how long its been since we found Jea. 5 Long months. When we first found her I knew it was someone from Hakans pack. He denied it for a while, and eventually became distant and withdrawn so he felt it would be good for us three to move back to his pack house to control the situation. Tate and I feel like he's hiding something from us. We've questioned everyone here and the only person who refused to talk to us was his mother. She says its because she doesn't agree with the union of the three of us, but I feel like there is more to it.

Hakan is hiding something and I can't help but feel played into this mating. This forced love, fake love now.

We haven't mated again since that night, Hakan and I. I feel like he's betraying me in a way, ignoring me and refusing to open his link when he's near so I can pick his brain. 

I feel lonely, numb all over again. My mind keeps going back to Hen. I miss her. Tates filled the void sexually and emotionally but I don't feel whole without them both. I hate this feeling. The other two don't seem to be as affected by it as I am. I just want this to end.

Tate POV

Skai has been different since we found the witch she calls her aunt and Hakans been MIA. At first she was so emotional then after we moved to Hakan's pack shes just empty. She only speaks in the link now and this last month she's been so sexually needy but we both know its just not as filling as it could be with the three of us. Hakan and I have also been together but he just won't talk to Skai. I caught a glimpse of his emotions when we were together in his office and it was straight shame. He won't talk to me but he's going to have to as soon as he finds out about Skai. 

Her smells going to change soon and then everyone will know, I just hope he talks to us before then. I miss them, us. 

My beta's taken over until we can merge the packs together, but until this s**t gets figured out we need to stay here. Skai's beta Jax has been trying to contact her about his mate but she's blocked us all out completely last week. 

I can't help but to think its because she knows. 

Hakan POV

Shame is all I feel. Jax explained everything to us after we found Jea. I knew that smell easily. My rother hasn't been a part of this pack since I got the Alpha title but I can recognize the familiarity of his scent better than anyone, he's family. 

I just don't know how to tell her. 

I spoke to my mother who explained it all. My brother seeking revenge on Skai's parents years ago to frame my father for favoring me because I had the elemental gift and he did not. She said he took what he loved most which was his mate. 

I didn't know they were mates, I guess Skai's mom told my mother about it before she left with the Human, she rejected my father to make sure the goddess couldn't breed an army of elemental wolves.  She said my mother knew she was pregnant by the Human and prayed to the human god for a normal baby. 

My mom said she knew Skai was her daughter the moment she seen her. She feels guilt too for my brother behavior but we don't know how to tell Skai, or if this will affect our relationship. What if she rejects me after, rejects Tate to make sure she doesn't get the same fate as her mother, or to punish the Goddess for mating her with us despite her mothers pleas. 

I love her more than I ever could and I can't let her go, I won't.

 "Hey?" I heard a whisper. I looked up from my desk to see Tate standing there looking conflicted. 

 I felt relieved to see him. Finding my brother was stressful.

"Hi, whats wrong?" I stood from my desk and grabbed his hand to lead him to the couch in the office. 

He put his head on my should and let out a shaky breath before opening his mouth and closing it again. 

"Is it Skai? Is she okay?" My mind started worrying. Maybe I shouldn't have shut her out. I can feel her trying to get through to me but I just can't yet.

"Yes she's fine for now but she's not going to be soon.." He trailed off looking up to the ceiling then I seen him smile and looked back to me before continuing.

"She's carrying, I smelled it on her last week, she's not very far along so she'll know soon, everyone will." He said grinning like a child. 

"But I haven't smelled her?" I asked confused. 

"It's my pup Han, you haven't smelled her yet because you haven't mated her in months. You probably can't even pick her smell out of a line up she wolves." His smiled faded and he looked mad. He had every right to be mad, I've been a terrible mate to her.

"A pup." I all but whispered. 

"Our pup my love. Our beautiful mate is carrying OUR pup and here you are moping around and not telling us whats going on. We know you're hiding stuff, shes smarter that the both of us you know.. She hasn't spoken since we moved. Not a word verbally, not even when were making love. She's a shell and you're doing this to her. Fix it before you put our pup at risk." He demanded before storming out of my office.

She's pregnant and won't even speak to Tate, what have I done to her. She doesn't deserve this, none of it. Now that I know shes pregnant I'm even more afraid to tell her the truth. I wanted to catch my brother first, get the answers from him before I tell her that my family is responsible for her lack of one. f**k me, f**k this secret, I'm telling my mate. I just hope she still loves me when I'm done.