Amelia
How long will I have to keep living like this?
I couldn't sleep last night. Yesterday was a terrible one, and I don't think I was in my right mind. I left the party knowing there would be grave consequences; I willingly went to bed with Devon, just to get back at Damien for lying to me this whole time; Damien has a son with that woman; Ferdinand threatened to kill my mother right in front of me. This is all too much, even for me. I've always considered myself strong enough to face anything, but not this. I need help, but there's none coming my way. None.
I can't count on Devon for s**t.
I'll need to keep my distance from him if I want to avoid trouble. I feel dirty, and I regret how impulsively I acted. The guilt is crippling at times. I think back on it and it's like another
