Recap:
I will never forgive myself for this decision, but I know that I have to do it. In the long run, it will be better for every single one of us. I will keep them out of danger, and I will be safe alone.
I am a hazard to everybody around me. I am a danger.
I am so sorry, my boys.
Little did they know, whether I die or not, they have lost me already.
I lost myself a long time ago.
Even though I felt dead already, my heart was not. It is in pieces. Pieces that will never be put together anymore. They will forever have a piece that I will never get back.
I don’t know how to think, or to feel, other then dead.
I will forever regret my decision either way.
Just a warning to my readers, that this may shred your heart.
My worst fear came alive when I woke up from the machine
