How to Die While Standing Up (A Masterclass)
~VINA HALE~
Honestly? If I could just disintegrate into a pile of slightly jasmine-scented ash right now, that would be great.
Life Tip #42: 'If you are ever fated to a powerful Alpha, make sure he isn’t a guy who treats his heart like a spreadsheet.'
Walking back into the Great Hall was like walking into my own execution, except the executioner was wearing a tuxedo and I was the one who had polished his shoes this morning.
The music had stopped. The air was so thick with tension you could have cut it with a butter knife. Five hundred pairs of eyes—predatory, curious, judgmental eyes—tracked us as we emerged from the hallway. Jace still had that "I am a Very Serious Leader Doing Serious Things" look on his face, but his hand was no longer on my arm. The heat was gone. He was walking two steps ahead of me, effectively relegating me back to the status of "Background Extra."
We reached the dais. Alpha Magnus stood there like a king from a dark fairy tale, his arms crossed over his chest. He gave a sharp nod to the High Priestess, who looked at me with a mixture of pity and revulsion.
The True Fated light—that stupid, beautiful, golden shimmer—was still trying to hum between Jace and me. It was like a dying ember, flickering desperately, trying to remind him that we belonged together. My wolf, Dusty, was whimpering in the back of my mind, pawing at the cage of my ribs. He’s going to fix it, she whispered. He’s just playing a trick on the mean old man.
Oh, Dusty, I thought. You sweet, delusional furball.
Jace stepped forward. He didn't look at me. He looked out over his people—his "empire."
“Members of the Silver Moon Pack,” his voice rang out, amplified by the supernatural power of his Alpha-to-be status. It was deep, resonant, and made the floorboards vibrate. “Tonight, the Moon Goddess saw fit to test our strength. She presented a bond—a pull—that challenged the very foundations of our order.”
I saw Sarah in the front row. She was leaning forward, her eyes glittering with a triumph so sharp it could have drawn blood.
“But an Alpha is not a slave to his instincts,” Jace continued, his voice growing colder, more certain. “An Alpha is a servant of his pack. And the pack requires a Luna of power. A Luna of blood. A Luna who can stand beside me in war, not one who cowers in the kitchen.”
A few people chuckled. It was a small sound, but it felt like a slap.
Jace finally turned to face me. For a split second, the gray in his eyes wavered. I saw the boy who had once shared his lunch with me. I saw the soul that was supposed to be the other half of mine.
Don’t do it, I begged with my eyes. Please, Jace. Just don’t.
He took a sharp breath, his jaw tightening into a line of granite. He raised his hand, palm out, a gesture of formal severance.
“I, Jace Blackwood,” he began, and the air around us started to crackle with dark energy. This wasn't the golden light of the Goddess. This was the black-and-silver lightning of a broken oath. “Future Alpha of the Silver Moon Pack, heir to the Blackwood lineage, hereby reject you, Vina Hale, as my mate and future Luna.”
The world didn't just end; it turned inside out.
Imagine a bridge made of glass. Now imagine a giant sledgehammer hitting that bridge at a hundred miles per hour. That was the sound I heard inside my head—the sickening, high-pitched crack of my soul being torn in half.
The golden light didn't just fade. It turned an oily, violent black, curling like scorched paper before it disintegrated into nothing.
I didn't just feel pain; I felt an absolute, howling vacuum where my connection to the world used to be. My knees hit the marble with a sound that made the people in the front row flinch. I couldn't breathe. I couldn't scream. It felt like someone had reached into my chest and scooped out everything that made me me, leaving only a cold, hollow shell behind.
“A rankless Omega cannot lead,” Jace added, his voice projecting to the back of the room, clear and unwavering. “You are nothing to this pack. You are nothing to me. From this moment on, the bond is severed. The Goddess’s mistake is corrected.”
He lowered his hand. The black lightning vanished.
I stayed on the floor, my fingers clawing at the polished stone, trying to find something to hold onto so I wouldn't float away into the darkness. I looked up through a blur of tears I refused to let fall.
Jace didn't offer a hand. He didn't look down at the girl who was literally dying of heartbreak at his feet.
Instead, he turned to the side.
“Sarah,” he said.
Sarah didn't walk to him; she floated. She stepped onto the dais, her blood-red dress swishing like a pool of gore. She took Jace’s hand, and he raised it high for the crowd to see.
“Behold your future Luna!” Alpha Magnus shouted.
The Hall erupted. Cheers, whistles, and the stomping of feet echoed against the high ceilings. It was a celebration. A party.
And I was the trash that needed to be swept away.
Sarah leaned over, her face inches from mine as the crowd roared. Her perfume—that cloying lily scent—choked me.
“I told you, flea,” she whispered, her voice a venomous purr. “You were just a stain. And now? You’re just a memory.”
Jace didn't stop her. He didn't even seem to hear her. He was already looking at the crown his father was holding.
I don't remember getting up. I don't remember the walk back to the service doors. All I remember is the sound of the music starting again—a fast, happy fiddle tune—as the man who was made for me began his first dance with the woman who had helped destroy me.
Note to the Moon Goddess: You really, really need to work on your quality control. Because if this is "fate," I’d much rather be an atheist.
I’m currently sitting on the floor of a supply closet because I can't make it all the way to the attic without collapsing. My chest feels like it’s filled with broken glass, and every time I take a breath, the glass shifts.
He rejected me.
He chose a throne over a soul.
And the worst part? My wolf, Dusty… she isn't howling anymore. She’s gone quiet. It’s the kind of silence that happens right before something dies.
Broken. Severed. And somehow, still breathing. Unfortunately.