Fated to be together or not [COMPLETED]

Our Kid

Nicolle:

We went for lunch at a small restaurant. The chairs and tables were set up outside, and there was a small garden in between. A swing for two, some slides for kids. It looked like an ideal place to come if you have kids. I looked at him and I guess he was also thinking about the same.

We sat on the table closest to the swing and looked at the menu and there was nothing which Alex could eat. It was all spicy. I was thinking about the options when Alex ordered. One burrito and two peach mocktails. I looked at him and he was discussing something with the waiter. After a few minutes, the waiter returned with a subway for him and a burrito for me.

"How did you know I will eat a burrito?"

"Just a hunch." He smiled. "The way you were looking at my cheese sandwich that day, I assumed you love cheese."

"What do you mean the way I was looking?"

"You were looking as if you would eat me with it." He laughed, mocking me.

"Mr. Alex, You are..." Before I could continue, I saw the waiter coming with a red velvet cake.

He looked at me with warmth in his eyes. He wanted to say something, but was hesitating at the same time.

"Happy Valentine's Day Nicolle. Before you say anything, I just want to talk about something which I should have done a long time ago.”

I guess I know what he is talking about.

"Alex.."

"Just let me finish, Ok?"

I nodded.

"As I was saying, I wanted to say something to you. I know you think, I was the one who..." he cleared his throat. "...Who raped you, but please trust me, I didn't do it. I mean I tried my best to find you that day. I looked in the parking CCTV, didn't see you there, so I went to the motel, threatened the owner to buy it out. And after that they raised a fake fire alarm and …" he was speaking so fast, so I stopped him.

"I know you didn't do it."

"You know …..What....?" He was surprised, his eyes widened.

"I know you didn't do it. At first, yes I thought you were the one and I married you to take revenge. But do you remember my nightmare yesterday night? I have been having those nightmares for quite some time now." That’s true. Since the day I saw Alex’s scar for the first time, something triggered these nightmares.

He looked puzzled. "I only remember you were crying, and I turned on the light. Then you pulled me and I was calming you down. Other than that, sorry I was not paying attention to your words. I was just thinking about how to calm you down. I mean I didn't know what to do, other than that."

"It's ok. You managed to calm me yesterday night. But I was paying attention to my words. I told you, I saw THEM, I saw ONE near me and 3 in shadow."

Tears were coming out of my eyes now and he placed his hand on mine. I continued. "I saw 4 silhouettes, Alex. I know there were 4 men. Who? I don't know, but none of them were you. Because when they were touching me" I choked and Alex quickly sat near me. He took a glass of water.

"Please don't continue. We will discuss it later."

"No, it's necessary to clear it out. I felt them. I felt their hands on me. I felt their kisses, torture, bites. One of them even used something sharp inside me, cutting my insides, I think to make some room for himself."

It was getting hard for me to say anything, because I could feel the same thing again. Alex hugged me tightly and I felt secure in his embrace. I buried my face inside his chest and started sobbing. He took me inside his arms and I felt that nothing is this world, not even the air is going to touch me without his permission.

“Please Nicolle, We will discuss later. I can’t see you breaking like this. When I saw you inside that room, even my soul shuddered. You don’t need to tell me what happened. I saw it all. I saw you lying there, with all that blood. I saw that… that sharp thing, but please don’t ask me what it was. I can’t tell you that. Although Sia knows about it. I don’t know since when you are getting these nightmares, but for me I still can’t get that image out of my head. And listening to all this, I am not sure if I can control myself. I can feel that rage again. I will make him beg for his death in front of you. He will lie in your feet, crying, yelling, whimpering whatever it is that people do when they are in extreme in pain. But I assure you I will not let him die until you say the word. Till then I will make him scream in pain."

I felt Alex's chest tightening. It felt his feelings, which was nothing like a soft breeze, but like a storm which could destroy anything in it's path. He then took a long sigh, to calm himself. But he did not break the hug.

" I am sorry. I should not react like this in front of you. I will try to keep my calm. Please continue, if you want."

 "And then I heard an alarm. Your fire alarm. The one which you ordered to raise. That means I was raped before the fire alarm. I know you saved me, not raped me. Thanks for saving me that day. I don't even want to imagine what would have happened."

I remained silent for a couple of minutes and he was still holding me like a child. He kept one hand on my head and another on my shoulder. He sat there making me relax. I was shivering and he was trying his best to hold me.

"I didn't want these nightmares to return Nicolle. I never wanted you to find out this way because it caused another trauma for you. You were finally getting out of this, and these dreams." He took another long breath.

"This is why I never wanted you to go for therapy because some memories haunt you for a lifetime. Some memories kill you every time you think about them. It's a curse to remember everything and I didn't want that for you."

I pulled myself out from the hug and looked into his eyes. "But I am glad this happened because now I know that I am safe around you." I whispered. "I know you will keep me safe, no matter what." And I hugged him again.

"Yeah, and if I am not around, you can always hug Teddy. He is my assistant. You should name him. How about Alecolle or Nix?" He chuckled and I smiled as well. He is terrible at keeping names. I am not allowing him to name our kid. 

"You are not naming our kid Alex. I don't want our kid to curse us for the rest of it's life." I smiled and saw a hint of excitement in his eyes. I think it was because I said our kid.

"Ok, But now, let's celebrate our friendship. I hope you will let me be a part of your life."

"Oh, you will beg me to leave you. You don't know me."

"I know you pretty well Ms. Drama Queen. I know you were acting when you were asking me to wear these shorts." He winked.

"You knew?"

"Of course, I can read your mind, don't you know by now?"