Fated to be together or not [COMPLETED]

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Nicolle:

“What do you mean by accepting their offer? I Will never.” How can he think like that?

“Are you angry?”

“Of course I am. What do you think I am?”

“We don’t have a husband wife relationship. Don’t you want to explore how that feels?” He was looking straight in my eyes.

“How can you even think about it Alex? That I will agree to have s*x with anyone.” I was so angry, I could have killed someone.

He stepped closer to me. “Just reverse the role now and think about what you were saying to me, and how I must be feeling hearing all that bullshit.” With these words, he opened the car and sat on the driver seat, leaving me standing outside.

Oh God, He is right. I was feeling so angry and he must be feeling the same. I bit my lip and tears started flowing again. I don’t know why I am crying this much. I sat beside him, on the passenger seat.

“Not again.” He looked at me with serious eyes. “What now? Seriously Nicolle, I think I should have added another vow that I will keep calm when you will cry.”

“I am sorry.” That’s all I could say.

“You don’t need to say sorry, Ok. You were angry and I explained it to you. That’s it.” He paused for a second and came closer. Holding my face in his hands, he wiped my tears with his thumb. Looking into my eyes.

“But yeah, it hurt me seeing that you think I would do that.” He was very calm and I could feel he was hurt. His eyes looked tired, exhausted, hurt. And I am the reason he is looking like this.

“I am sorry. I am a bad friend, aren’t I?” Suddenly I remembered something. ”How did you know those girls said something to me? I mean I didn’t tell you why I was crying.”

He chuckled and let go of my cheeks to start the car. Yes I got to see that smile once again. The smile that can drive anyone crazy. I am madly in love with this guy.

“You told me you came inside to say sorry, and the way you were crying I understood you saw me with her. And the biggest giveaway was the words you said. I know they were not yours. And I am not a fool who can’t do a 2+2=4.” He chuckled.

“I am sorry, again. I should not have said those words to you. I don’t know what came over me. When I heard them saying that I am not good enough for you, that you deserve someone better, that I used my pregnancy to marry you, I felt ..“

“You felt they were right, and that you are ruining my life.” He then looked at me. “You are not; it was my decision to marry you. I asked for your hand. And even if you are ruining my life, I am happy I am ruining it with you.” He said with a sincere smile and we headed back to the hotel.

Alex

I was angry. Those girls said something to offend Nicolle. I don’t know why but I want to slap that girl hard. How can anyone in this world judge someone without knowing their story? Nicolle has already suffered so much in her life. She is hell of a strong woman, and these girls managed to make her cry. They will pay for it.

But all I had to do was bend her wrist. Once I left her, I looked at Nicolle. She had closed her eyes which was adorable. She was thinking I will use the same force on her. She is so wrong.

I held her hand with the gentlest touch I had.

But as soon as I came outside, I remembered. She thought I would go with those girls. After all this time.

I wanted to ask her what she thinks about me? Am I a playboy in her eyes? But before I could even open my mouth I saw her favorite river. Great, she is crying.

She told me she was scared. If I was not so angry, I would have laughed. So I hugged her and convinced her that I will never hurt her.

Once I saw that she was no longer scared, I asked her what I wanted to ask her all this time. Does she really think I was someone who would lay down with anyone, anywhere?

She said she heard and I was furious. What did she hear exactly?

And then she mentioned the kiss, our first kiss, which has literally left me crazy. She didn't need to say anything else, I was already replaying everything else in my mind. Her lips, my kisses on her neck, her touching my body. F**k.

I was unable to think about anything, and wanted to forget everything. I wanted her friendship; don't want to ruin it this time. I can control my physical desires, but the mental peace I get when I am around her, or when I am trying to think about my future with her and the kid I can’t ruin it. I have longed for a friend all this time and I won’t trade it for my physical needs. I can’t and if this kiss is blowing it, then I have to say it.

"Forget about it already". I asked her to forget the kiss, it meant nothing. Liar Alex, it meant a lot. You know it. Physically and emotionally both. I had promised myself that I will never touch a girl I am not in love with and this kiss broke all that.

I know it was her first kiss as well, but she is taking it the wrong way. She thinks this kiss has awakened some kind of beast in me, which is funny if I really think about it. As far as my promise to myself is concerned, it changed nothing. I get excited remembering it, but I won’t touch a girl I am not in love with. This promise remains.

But she needed to understand how I felt, so I asked her the same question. If she will accept some boy or man tonight after that kiss? She was furious. And that’s when I asked her to think about how much it hurt me.

A few seconds later, she opened the car gate, and I knew she was feeling sorry about what she said some time back. And there it goes again. She was crying.

Again, seriously. I tried to calm her down and explain she should not feel sorry. But I also told her that it hurt me, the way she thought I was.

And then a million dollar question fired by Nicolle. She asked me how I knew what happened and that the girls were responsible for it. I was expecting it but it took long enough. Nicolle is tube light, but she is my tube light.