My Alex
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Alex:
Something funny is going on. I swear I heard her saying "Husband and wife complete each other. Try to understand what he wants." But the moment I entered she started talking about her health. Did I hear wrong?
"I hope you bought something for her." she whispered when she was crossing the room. I left with her signaling Nicolle that I am coming in a minute. She nodded.
"Yes, I bought flowers, cake, chocolate and a teddy. Teddy is in the car, it's a big one. Once she goes for a bath, I am planning to decorate the room." I was behaving like a kid, but proud at the same time. This is my first valentine, and I had no experience so I just asked the shopkeeper and took whatever he showed me.
"What will she do with a teddy bear?" She asked with a mischievous look.
"She’ll hug it at night. Sometimes she has bad dreams. So it will comfort her." I said with a bright smile and she cursed me under her breath. "Idiot."
I was surprised. This is what TV shows. Cake, chocolate, teddy, roses. What else? Am I missing something?
"Kids these days watch TV more than their partner's eyes. Fool, I think she needs her husband more when she is having those dreams. A teddy can't fight for her, can't comfort her more than her husband's arms. Show her that you can fight with anyone for her."
"I can and I will. I will tear up the world if she is threatened. I don't know how to explain or how to say that I can do anything for her. I am not good at words." I rubbed the back of my neck.
"You don't need to say anything. She can read your eyes if you are telling the truth. Have you told her you love her?"
I felt uncomfortable with this question.
"I... I mean. I don't know how to say this. We got married in a very different situation and I am sure she doesn't love me. And as for me, I don't know if I love her. I think I just want to protect her, keep her safe. That’s it. I don’t think it’s love. I don’t see her that way." I decided to tell her the truth.
"Hmm, I see. You don’t love her and you know she doesn't love you. Then why are you together? Marry someone else."
What did she just say? Marry someone, can’t she see I am already married. "I can't. I am sure you can see this ring on my finger." I pointed to my wedding ring. "I AM Married.”
"I mean divorce her and then marry someone you love or like. I am sure you can find someone. You are so young and handsome. Someone must be out there who wants you."
"Yes, I am young, but that doesn’t mean I can marry anyone. I married Nicolle and even if she ever decides to divorce me, I will not marry again. I vowed during our marriage that I will protect her. How can I protect her if I marry someone else."
"What if you divorce her and then start liking someone. Let’s say you start falling for a girl. Then? Will you still deny your heart? What if that girl comes in front of you and declares that she loves you, then?"
I don’t know why I am having this conversation. Why am I hearing all this? Every time she says divorce, I feel something poking my heart. I was getting restless.
"No, I won’t. I will never fall for anyone. I will not allow anyone to come near me. I will not allow anyone to fall for me. And if a girl comes in front of me and says I love you, I will , I will. I don’t know what I will do, but I will not marry anyone else. My wife is and always will be Nicolle, even if she decides to, I mean if we decide to divorce. That's for sure."
She smiled at me. "And you say you don't love your wife." And with these words, she went inside. She lives at the same place with her husband.
I was confused. Why was she saying this? I mean, why was she emphasizing on divorce and getting married a second time? Why will I do that? I am doing fine. I am comfortable the way I am. I didn't feel the need to love someone when I was a teenager, or when I was in college or even now. I think I can manage for 20 more years, after that I will be old enough to feel . And a sudden pain hit me. Not 20 more years, fool, 7 years. Just 7 years.
I entered the room and Nicolle was smiling. Now what happened to her. Seriously, all women are crazy. No one can read their mind. I asked if she was ok. She smiled and nodded. I went in for a quick bath.
Nicolle:
I can and I will. I will tear up the world if she is threatened. I don't know how to explain or how to say that I can do anything for her.
Mrs. Jones is a smart lady. When she was leaving the room, she dialed my number and asked me to listen to what Alex had to say. She told me she is sure Alex loves me too. And then she made Alex confess that he will never marry anyone else. That I am and always will be his wife. A sense of possessiveness ran across me. My husband, only my husband. My Alex. He is only mine.
Does this mean he is opening up to me. He is coming close to me. I hope he does. As he said -
No, I won’t. I will never fall for anyone. I will not allow anyone to come near me. I will not allow anyone to fall for me. And if a girl comes in front of me and says I love you, I will , I will. I don’t know what I will do, but I will not marry anyone else. My wife is and always will be Nicolle, even if she decides to, I mean if we decide to divorce. That's for sure.
I recorded that call, and I will keep hearing until he confesses he loves me. If this is not love, I don’t know what love is.
I was smiling when he entered. I was unable to hide my smile and he gave me this weird look. I can understand, he is confused. One moment I was having nightmares, and now I am smiling. I think my cheeks are red too, from blushing. He went inside and I took out shorts and a t- shirt for him. I am making him wear something comfortable today.
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