CODENAME: SKYDOLL

11 (sequel to chapter eleven)

"Ninna nanna marinare 'Ngopp a varca, miezo o mare Io te parl e nun respunn Te si perze miez o suonn Te vurria magna' de vas Ma ho paura e te sceta' Cosi' guarde da luntane Co' stu core innammurat Quann aggia' spetta D'averti questa sera Co' sta luna chiena? Quann aggia' sogna' Di dirti quanto t'amo Co' stu' core 'man - ma tu - sogni qui nel bluuuu ... Ninna nanna marinare Tu si bell comme o' mare A vote calm, senza creste A vote tutta na' tempesta Ma tu suonn d'ate cose E chissa se t'arricuord Che tra a luna e mieze e stelle Io t'aspette a braccia aperte Quann aggia' spetta D'averti questa sera Co' sta luna chiena? Quann aggia' sogna' Di dirti quanto t'amo Co' stu' core 'man - ma tu - sogni qui nel bluuuu ... Ninna nanna nanna nanna Ninna nanna nanna nanna" The meaning of this lullaby was very beautiful, it was the first lullaby in my life. It means, Lullaby of the sea On the ship, in the middle of the sea, I talk but you don't answer You're lost in your sleep, I want to smother you with kisses. But I don't want to wake you, I'm just watching you in love with this heart How long must I wait, To be yours tonight with the full moon, How long must I dream. To tell you how much I love you, With this heart in my hands, but you... Here you are dreaming, in the blue the lullaby of the sea You are as beautiful as the sea Sometimes calm, calm Sometimes stormy But you dream of something else And who knows, do you remember the moon and the stars I'm waiting for you with open arms, How long must I wait, To be yours with the full moon tonight, How much longer must I dream to tell you how much I love you, With this heart in my hands, but you... You're dreaming here, in the blue.

"I think this lullaby has a deep meaning for you." I opened my eyes and looked at Bora in bewilderment, I didn't know how long she had been sitting on the seat next to me and watching me.

"How long have you been here?" Bora, like me, put her feet up and looked up at the sky, wearing black sweatpants and a black T-shirt.

"You're tired and sick, I've been here all along, but you're too weak to notice me." I took a shaky breath and looked up at the sky like him.

"Why are you here?" I said, adjusting to the silence between us, and he turned his eyes to me and began to examine me.

"You should plan to get out of there instead of going into the battle where you will be defeated, Iron could do worse things to you if we didn't catch up." I stood up and looked at him with disinterested eyes.

"Thanks for the warning, if you'll excuse me I'd like to get some quiet. And you didn't have to come all the way here for that, you didn't save my number as a decoration on your phone." I said mimicking him. Suddenly someone hugged me from behind, I must have been really tired because I always felt it before someone approached me. Confused, I looked at the person hugging me, Melody was looking at me smiling. The first time I saw him like this, I was stunned. Later, someone else hugged me, Pars's huge body covered most of my body.

"You big man, move aside so we can hug. You covered the little girl with your huge body." said Tan in his cheerful voice and he got stuck in between and he hugged me too, and Rose hugged me with a grin. I looked at Bora with a scowl, and she spread her hands.

"Don't look at me like that, I don't like such things." they all left me giggling, Melody took my hand and made me sit back in the chair.

"Look, I have a great idea for the weekend, we're going to shoot the fast and furious matgap. Bora Pars and I will be behind the wheel, it's actually been on my mind for a long time, but I didn't know who to put in the next seat of Bora. I wanted to have Arya myself, actually. But I can't sell my twin, girl, what a scam, I swear I'm speechless. Arya will sit next to Bora, it won't be a fair race actually, but I'll find a way." We all looked at Tan in disbelief.

"What's wrong with the matgap, son?" said Pars, squinting his eyes, and Tan smiled mischievously and looked at us all, one by one.

"I took the initials of Melody Arya Tan Gül Bora and Pars and found this name for ourselves. MATGAP" everyone started laughing, I laughed too. Tan somehow managed to make us all laugh, that's when I realized. If Tan wanted to, he had the effect of making everyone laugh and softening the atmosphere, he could instantly soften a tense atmosphere. When my eyes shifted to Bora, I realized that he was watching me too and smiling vaguely at me, my smile instantly disappeared and I averted my eyes from him. I couldn't understand why he did it.

"I think we should include Arya in the race, she drives nice." they all looked at me, Melody said something to the others with hand signals but I couldn't understand. Normally I knew things like sign language morse code, but this was a language I didn't.v"Melody asks will you come back?" said Gul, relaying what he had said to me, and I think they had developed a sign language among themselves so that others would not understand.

"There is no place for me with you Melody, I am not offended or upset with you. The bond between you is very nice, it's a 15-year bond, I didn't expect you to accept me anyway. You don't need to change your routine because of me, you can go back to your old days. I will always find a way to escape, "However I escaped 5 years ago, I will find a way again. Don't worry, I won't remember anything during my stay with you. Neither I know you nor you know me." all of them frowned.

"Arya, I'm… sorry. I hurt you because I didn't listen to you, I couldn't stand to see Melody like that, and I burst into it." We were all looking at Pars in surprise. His apology from me was not what was expected from him. I shook my head and hugged my knees to myself, always admiring the bond between them.

"You just protected the person you love, Pars, anyone in your place would have done the same. I'm used to being blamed for not being believed, so there's nothing to apologize for. You were just protecting your brother." all eyes were on me, Bora was examining me.

"You set out on a journey with us, if you think we're going to leave you behind and just go on with our lives, you're wrong. Those who enter our group can only go out with a white shroud." said Bora flatly, I sighed heavily and took the gun out of my waist and placed it on the table.

"Then don't be afraid to shoot me, there's already death at the end of the road. I'm dead now, then later." There was a deep silence, Melody frowned at me and did something with her hand gestures.

"He wants you to put this ridiculous idea out of your mind and come back among us. He says we need you." A tear fell from Melody's eye. At that moment, a strange storm broke out inside me and scattered the broken pieces of my heart, causing me to hurt even more. It was as if there was a girl in front of me who needed me, I averted my eyes from her, but she held my hands. His hands were cold as ice, I looked at our hands with the sharp pain in my head. I was shaking, Melody looked at me in surprise. He took his hands off me and did something again. "He thanks you for standing up to Demir and defending him." suddenly hugged me. At that moment, at that moment, an invisible bond formed between me and Melody and I realized that they have a great place in my life. "We brought you food, we're getting nauseous." Rose stood up and placed a large bag on the table. I wanted to get up and run away from them, to cut them out of my life completely, but I couldn't, they were lonely and injured like me. There was something in them that was familiar to me and I had just made sense of it in myself, each of them had a different story and a different pain. Melody had shown me this, that suffering child in her eyes begging me not to go. At that moment, I thought of the children Mehmet abducted, Bora Pars Tan Gül and Melodi... in fact, they were not in a different situation than those children. They had somehow managed to find a way to grow up, but those kids needed a miracle to grow up. I did not know who saved them, maybe Ilgaz, maybe someone else, but in my eyes they were no different from other children. I was going to save time and save all the children, I was one of them actually, but the only difference is that I buried the orphan child in me years ago. Mehmet's weak point was my mother and I, I had to get a strong trump card. Rose opened the wraps she brought one by one and handed them to me first. I could hardly find such things in Italy, I had never even tasted them. I didn't know how to eat my wrap, so I looked at the others. Tan and Pars had torn the paper on the end and bit off the white floury thing. "My dear, why are you looking at the roll as if you saw it for the first time. You should start eating it before it gets cold." Gül started to pour drinks into the pet glasses she placed on the table. Bora was watching me, he dropped the wrap in his hand and took mine from me, tore off the paper on the end and handed it back to me.

"The lavash on the outside looks uncooked, but it's actually cooked. It would be delicious with the ingredients inside." He leaned into my ear so that no one could hear. I took the wrap in my hand and took a small bite, in fact, only lavash came to my mouth in my second bite, and the ingredients in it were... it was amazing. I looked at Bora in surprise, she had a satisfied expression on her face.

"Damn, girl, you sure haven't eaten raw meatballs, kokorec, mussels or something, did they ever give you any of these?" said Pars, not even swallowing the food in her mouth. I shook my head and took another bite of my wrap.

"What did they feed you? You're obviously a bird girl though they didn't." I looked at Tan, he was talking with food in his mouth like Pars.

"We usually ate pastries such as pizza, pasta, risotto, lasagna, but I didn't like it very much, Turkish restaurants in Italy couldn't do it very well either. Sometimes chefs from Turkey would come and I would eat Turkish food at that time. For example, Hünkar liked stuffed meatballs wrapped in leaves. I've tasted a lot of food, but I've never eaten such things as dürüm raw meatballs, kokreç." They all laughed a little.

"It's not kokorec, it's kokoreç." said Rose, correcting me.

"We urgently need to make you taste these delicacies, yellow daisy, now you can make us the pasta and pizza you learned in Italy. I hope you thought of learning the recipes all these years." said Tan with childlike enthusiasm. I confirmed it with my head.

"My kindergarten friend's aunt was a famous cook, and we would sometimes go to her after school and learn how she made pizza and pasta." Rose smirked and looked at me.

"Was your friend handsome, at least? They say Italian men are very handsome, that do.. ahh" Tan hit his sister on the head.

"I think, my daughter, one of the Italian men, what are you going to do with a lick of your hand?" I really liked this bond of brotherhood between them. Rose looked at me and how was it? he winked as if to say.

"Actually, Michele.. he was handsome, the girls in the class always wanted to play with him. But we haven't seen him for a long time, I don't know where he is." Rose leaned towards us excitedly.

"And do you have any handsome Italian friends?" I smiled and nodded at him. Alex was right in Gul's head, I was so sure the two would get along. Someone hit us on the head suddenly, I looked at Tan, badly.

"Look at me, I'll break your legs, you can't have any more handsome friends than me. Also, keep your distance from that Dinçer dude or I'll step in." I looked at Tan with a grimace. I liked that he was jealous and protective of me like his own sister. Melody said something to him angrily, and Tan was pinned down like a rabbit with headlights. I looked at Gul for her to translate, but she didn't even see me for laughter. Tan put his hand on his butt and manhood and sat down again.

"Melody threatened to cut off Tan's boxers if he didn't leave you alone." said Pars, answering me, apparently Tan was very into his boxers. I smiled and took a sip of my drink. "How many glasses do you get drunk in?" said Pars, posing a new question to me. I bit my lip as if to say I don't know.

"I've never pushed the limits before, but I drank 7-8 glasses at most. Even then, I was pretty solid." Pars grinned and looked at Bora.

"It wouldn't hurt to try, also... You should try Tan's concoctions, I'll have a race with you when we get back. It could be a Holy Saturday, actually." Tan smiled mischievously and slyly smiled at me and rubbed his hands together.

"I'll seduce you, daisy, you won't be able to resist Tan Çelebi's blends." He hit Bora Tan's neck hard.

"Get those filthy dreams out of your mind." Tan turned his eyes to Bora and placed his hand on her neck.

"Don't worry, we've got a fire truck for you here, daisy, he's got a master's in these things." I understood what he was trying to say, while my cheeks were warming up, I looked at Bora. He frowned and looked at Tan. He hugged Bora, stroked his cheek, and looked at me.

"If I bring the gunpowder near you, you will explode, my fire, be careful, you don't get burned." I knew you were talking about us, which made me feel even more embarrassed. Tan pulled his gaze away from me, looked at Bora and kissed him with his lips and stepped back.

"Pars, did you know that it was Tan who drew the picture of marsu pilami on the paintings in your room?" Pars took her eyes off her food and looked at Tan. Tan, on the other hand, looked at Bora in surprise.

"You sold me out," she said disappointedly, Bora sat back happily and laughed.

"I say think twice before messing with me." He spoke out to Tan Bora and turned to Pars. Pars, on the other hand, was looking at him like a wolf ready to pounce on its prey.

"He's lying, big man, do you see the courage in me to damage your paintings?" Pars nodded positively and jumped on Tan.

"You weren't going to touch my paintings, stupid brain, I'm going to destroy you." Tan was screaming for help, but everyone was just laughing and watching, Pars grabbed Tan by his sweater and hung it on the iron ledge in the corner. My cheeks ached from laughing now, I hadn't laughed for so long that my cheek muscles were twitching. Tan was struggling to get down, but it was impossible for him to get out because Pars hung him from the hem of his sweater. After Pars sat down and finished her meal, she ate Tan's meal too, and I had to leave half of my wrap. It was a record for myself, maybe for the first time in my life I ate so much food and the taste was legendary. Tan was still begging Pars to come down, but Pars was determined not to let him down. It was getting late, we were slowly getting sleepy. We girls would stay in the house here, the boys would stay in the house next door. Gül and Melodi were going to sleep together in a double bed, and I would move to a single bed. After the girls went to their room, they took Pars Tan down and went to the other house together, Bora and I were left behind. We just stood there for a few minutes looking at each other, then Ates was the first to speak.

"You're going back, aren't you?" I took a deep breath and looked away from him.

"I haven't made a decision yet, I haven't had time to think about it." Bora looked at me and approached me in her seat.

"Sorry for not listening to you, yellow, when I saw my brother like that, I was out of my mind. Come back, we don't call you back just because we made a mistake. We need you, no matter how much we don't trust you, you somehow got used to us. Come back." I bit my lip accidentally and looked at Bora again.

"Tomorrow morning.. I'm going for a run, just so you know." He smiled a little at me and stood up.

"Good night and sweet dreams." I smiled as well as he did and stood up.

"Good night and sweet dreams." I waved to him and entered the house. My heart was beating in my mouth, I didn't know why, but I couldn't feel my heart. I ran to my room, took off my clothes and threw myself into the bathroom. What was this feeling? I couldn't even understand what it felt like.