Beatha (completed #7 of the blood moon saga)

17

“Removed the link but kept the love. Your still mates but his death won’t kill you, it’s still going to hurt and there is nothing I can do for that but be there for you but you won’t die and you won’t take a heart attack”

I throw myself over the table and pull her into a hug. She squeezes me back tightly and I smile feeling 1000 times better than I did. I pull back and stand to my feet.

“I better get going. Thank you, come visit me soon, ok?”

I walk around and hug them both then head to the garage and decide on another car to take home.

One I barely drive because it’s just too damn cool and more expensive than a small island. I might be a billionaire but my parents nearly had a heart attack when I came home with this bad boy. I've always been so afraid that I would crash it.

But now I feel different. Now I feel like iv put baby in the corner when she deserves the road. What’s that saying? A boat is safest in harbour but that’s not what a boat was made for?

why the hell would I let it lay in a garage when it was made for the road. When it’s everything anyone would ever dream of in a car and instead of showing it off I’m letting it’s spirit die under a car rug. Not letting it see the light of day.

Well f**k that, that’s not going to happen again. I’m officially not letting anyone put baby in the corner again.

I pull off the rug and put it in the boat and I climb in. This car isn’t just a car, this car isn’t just a supercar, this car is a hyper car in every sense of the word.

La Voiture Noire. The Black Car.

No other description necessary.

It’s got a carbon-fibre shell that’s sculpted by hand, BY HAND DAMNIT!

a quad-turbo W16 8.10L engine that produces 1500 horsepower, and an acceleration of 0-100kph (0-60mph) in 2.4 seconds.

Its top speed is 420 kph (260 mph),

420 KPH FOR HEAVEN'S SAKE!!

Its overall performance is precision-engineered by Bugatti, it’s by far the most expensive car on the market but it’s so damn worth it. I could have bought 10 mansions for the price of this car. A thought that terrifies me but also thrills me.

I close the door and crack the window down and I start the engine. It roars to life and makes goosebumps stand on my skin. I put it in gear and take off down the drive, and Ohh how it drives. I can see people stop and stare at it when I drive through the town.

It’s like the car comes to life under me, synchronising with my body perfectly, as I reach the border the patrol steps out in front of me, I stop and stick my head out the window and wave

“What’s up boys”

“Damn aspen you nearly gave me a heart attack I thought someone was stealing it!”

“Nah just me”

“We’ll go on through”

He whistles and stands to the side watching my car like it’s a naked woman. I chuckle and leave the territory, I take it slow until I reach the highway. It’s like the car knows where we are, like it’s purring to life begging me to do what it was made to do! I flick it in gear and I take of

Goosebumps raise all over my arms and a sense of powerful peace settles over me. The road is clear and I would outrun the police anyway so I floor it. And oh how she flies!

Euphoria is all I can describe it as. There are no other words to describe how fast I can go, how smooth the ride is and how exhilarating it feels to be sitting in the driver's seat of this beast of a car.

I pass in and out of traffic in a blur and I suddenly don’t know how humans can drive this fast, their reflexes are s**t compared to shifters, maybe that’s why you don’t see many cars like this on the road. Everyone wants it but they are too afraid to drive it. But not me. Not anymore.

I kick the clutch and put the pedal to the Matt and it’s like I’m in a bubble. Nothing else exists, no problems, nothing but me and the road.

It takes only an hour to get home instead of the 3 hours it took to get there and suddenly I have a new appreciation for my baby. She saves time and is probably too fast for even speed cameras to see it.

I pull into the territory and everyone that knows quality when they see it stops what they are doing to experience the beauty that is in front of them. I pull up outside the house and beep the horn. I wasn’t ready to go inside and face my problems. Instead I thought we could all face them together in this car.

Luca comes out first and he freezes and his eyes widen. He swallows and his jaw goes slightly slack.

“Well damn, ARTHUR GET THE f**k OUT HERE NOW”

Luca runs to the car, placing his hand over the hood and running his fingertips over the carbon fibre body. Arthur runs out of the house and his jaw goes slack. He walks over and does the same as Luca as Luca gets in the passenger side.

“You had this and you let me take the stupid Audi?”

He says clearly annoyed that I kept her existence to myself

“Can you blame me, you drive like s**t. Nobody but me drives my baby, get in and buckle up we are going for a drive”

He doesn’t question it, he just climbs in, I turn and leave again hitting the highway. My stomach does a little flip of excitement that I get to show off the beautiful car I have treasured for years.

“If either of you get sick in this car I’m telling you you're paying for the seats to be recovered. Now are you both ready?”

I roll my hand over the steering wheel, feeling the soft leather. The feeling gives me a little shiver down my spine. Luca holds into the roof and Arthur mirrors him

“Hell yes”

They both say at the same time and I take off like a maniac. I kick the clutch and move through gears like a knife goes through butter. Both of them scream in shock at the power behind her.

It takes only 10 minutes to get to where I need to go instead of the usual 40, we drive up a back road smoothly taking around the sharpest corners and each time she just drops the back just perfectly. Soon we are at the top of the mountain and I turn the car off and sigh with contentment.

The boys get out of the car, I jump out after and sit on the grass in front of the car and I lean back and smoke looking at the stars that are beginning to appear.

Luca comes to pull me onto his knee, he kisses my cheek and nuzzles into my neck.

“I missed you”

He whispers, kissing my neck. Arthur sits beside us. Images of him laying lifeless on the floor hitting my mind and suddenly all the carefree fun I was just having disappeared and everything he had done came flooding back to me.

“Are you ok? What did your gran say?”

Luca asks me, Arthur stays quiet beside us. Not touching us but it’s obvious he’s listening to us.

“She broke the bond but kept the love. It’s going to suck when he dies NATURALLY but it won’t kill us to”

Arthur tenses at my word, but Luca smiled and sighed in obvious relief. He’s probably just as worried about me and Arthur as I am about him and Arthur.

“I know you might never forgive me but I am sorry. I’m sorry I tried to steal the last bit of time that we have left. I’m sorry I hurt you both. I’m sorry that I gave up when you both have done nothing but fight for me.”

I could feel a lump form in my throat. As much as I may be mad at him I also know I need to get over it because I have 2 weeks left and I can’t ruin them. Nothing is worth ruining the time we have with our loved ones no matter how angry we may get or feel.

“Why did you do it?”

I whisper to him. I need to understand why, maybe if I got that, it would be easier to deal with and move on from.

“Pain, I’m sick of being in pain. I’m sick of living like this. I’m sick of going to sleep and waking up just as tired. I’m sick of fighting constantly. I never want to hurt you, neither of you but I felt like if I had just ended it like that you wouldn’t need to watch me suffer and I wouldn’t need to suffer. I know it’s selfish—“

“It’s not, it’s not selfish to feel that way but to do that to yourself when we were just outside the door. If you're sick of feeling like this then let’s do something to distract you. I don’t can’t care if I have to drive you around in a minivan and wheelchair I know I could have made you feel better but instead to tried to shut us of and take you away from us”

Tears are flowing down my face now, Luca is holding me rubbing calming circles up and down my back, not saying anything or interrupting. Like he was there to hold me in case I fell apart.

“In the moment I couldn’t see that, in the moment all I could see was the burden that I was. That if I was gone you wouldn’t be suffering anymore”

“You think that? Do you actually think that? Arthur I don’t know how I’m going to survive without you. The thought not only tears me apart inside but it makes me crazy. Never think that. I’d rather have you sick and alive then dead and gone forever”

I sob the last words completely overwhelmed by it all. My first love was dying and I can’t do s**t about it. I feel him hug us and I hug him back and we all cry together.

“I’m so so so sorry, please forgive me. Please”

He pleads with me. I pull back and hold his face.

“I forgive you. But Arthur please don’t ever do anything like it again please”

His hand comes up to my neck and his thumb grazes my lower lip.

“I promise”

He whispers then he kisses me. Like this is the last kiss he will ever kiss me and now I’m terrified that it will be. I pull him tighter and lean back on Luca. His hands travel up my sides and under my shirt. He pulls it off me then I go back to kissing Arthur and Luca kisses down my throat and neck. Sucking on my sensitive skin and sending a bolt of lightning straight to my core making me moan.

Arthur’s lips are soft as they bruise my own, he pulls on my bottom lip so I let him gain entrance and take control and I pull off his shirt. Arthur sits up and pulls Luca's shirt off him too.

The 3 of us lay half naked on the mountain at night and I knew at that moment I would remember this forever.

I push Arthur’s shorts off him as luca works on my buttons. Arthur’s d**k pops out and I move to my knees and lick the tip as luca pulls my jeans over my butt rubbing it slightly.

I suck Arthur in and he groans thrusting into my mouth and down my throat. He grabs my hair and doesn’t hold back. He held my hair tight but even though it was painful it was also pleasurable.

He f***s my mouth relentlessly, his hard d**k hits the back of my throat. Making he moan and groan

“f**k aspen that mouth of yours is just so f*****g sexy”

Just as he said the words luca layed down a huge slap to my ass. I scream over his d**k making it vibrate. He hits me again and again until my juices run down my leg. I suck on Arthur harder and he screams my name and pummelled into me like it will be his last ever orgasm ever.

I let him do it, the pain only increased the pressure between my throbbing legs as Luca lands another blow, I scream over Arthur’s d**k as Luca slaps me straight over the edge and I orgasm without him even touching my c**t.

I ride the waves as Arthur’s d**k is pushed down my throat letting my gag reflex squeeze him. He explodes inside me so I swallow him down.

Just as I come out of my trance Luca shoves inside me in one fast sharp thrust making me scream out. He catches my hips and he f***s me like my life depended on it. His nails dig into my side painfully as he f***s me from behind.

Arthur lays down in front of me and kisses me, Luca pulls out and I straddle Arthur kissing him deeply and slowly dropping on his d**k. He groans and lifts my ass slightly and he thrusts into me as hard as possible. Then he falls back and pulls me with him as luca lands another sharp slap to my backside. Then I feel his hard wet length at my back entrance.

He slides inside me and I groan rolling my hips so I could move on both of them at the same time. Luca grabs my hips and kisses my shoulder then he directs me, pulling me back on his d**k hard while also moving on Arthur.

I cry out as they move in perfect synchronization, my legs and body begin to tremble and I can’t hold it but neither can they and together we c*m screaming in each other’s arms.

They pull out and I fall to the ground naked on my back, breathing deeply, completely f****d and satisfied.

“Can’t believe I f****d on a mountain”

Both of them chuckle as they lay beside me just as f****d as I am. Arthur starts to shiver slightly so I grab his clothes and dress him. Then I dress myself and I sit on him and heat my skin. Luca gets dressed and lays with us. After a few minutes of silence Arthur clears his throat

“What’s your biggest fear for when I’m gone?”

“That I don’t have a d**k to f**k Luca the way you do”

“W—-W-haaaat haaaahahahaha”

Arthur howls in laughter, Luca snorts and pisses himself.

“Yeah you laugh now but iv watched you f**k, he loves it even if he won’t admit it”

Luca pulls my face to his with a huge grin on his face and he kisses me then pulls back.

“I love to connect with him like that, that’s what I love not so much the act itself. Plus it turns you both on and that turns me on. Please don’t worry about that. Have you any normal fears?”

I rolled my eyes. He can say that but I saw him take it. The fucker loves it.

“Just not waking up to his face everyday, never hearing him laugh at me, or at us when Luca gets all mad at me then Arthur just thinks it’s funny then that lightens the mood. The small gestures and the general fun that we all have together. And I don't even mind working on cars with you, what about you luca?”

He sighs and looks at Arthur sadly

“All of what you just said plus buying random s**t together and probably the fact that aspens finger isn’t as big as Arthur’s d**k”

Arthur snorts and laughs i scoff and punch Luca on the shoulder making him laugh harder

“Your a douche bag and I am never and I mean ever finger f*****g your butt Luca eweee”

Arthur snorts and laughs so hard, Luca shakes his head

“Oh come on it won’t hurt you to try”

He takes of into fits of giggles again

“Never ever happening, but I’ll buy you a dildo for your birthday and you can do it yourself. One of those ones that stick to the floor”

I break out in laughter with them wiping my face of happy tears.

“This is what I’m going to miss, watching you both fight and take the piss out of each other with no referee in the middle.”

The mood instantly dies down and I lay back in his arms. He holds me tight and kisses my head.

“What do you think of pine ridge pack for when we merge the packs”

I whisper to him, I feel the smile on his face

“I love that. I want a bar named after me that sells our drink. All different kinds of it. Make branyballs poitín and strawberry poitín. Sell it in little jars instead of glasses. Will you do that for me?”

I grin and look at Luca, he’s got tears in his eyes so I take his hand and pull him over so his head is on my lap. He wipes his face and smiles at me

“Yes we can definitely do that. What do you want us to call it?”

Luca asks him and I hug his head because I know he’s holding in tears, I can feel it. He kisses my belly and I rub his hair.

“Just ‘Arthur poitín pub’ and underneath it, it should say ‘while you're here have a drink for me’ I think it would be a pretty amazing tribute.”

“It sounds perfect. Is there anything else?”

I ask, blinking back my own tears now.

“Yes your first son I want his second name, I don’t care about the first name but definitely the second”

Tears start to fall faster now and my stomach takes a dive and sadness overflows me.

“What if we only have girls”

I ask, trying to distract myself from the pain. I close my eyes and try to remember his voice while he talks.

“It’s got to be Koda, Arthur means bear and koda means little bear. So koda should be her middle name”

I feel his tears fall on my hair. We all lay there in silence and just watch the stars crying in each other’s embrace. All our hearts are breaking slowly and painfully.

“The doctor doesn’t think I have 2 weeks left. She’s surprised I’m still alive, she thinks it must be your grandma’s healing because I shouldn’t be able to even walk anymore”

Tears fall like rainfall from my eyes. Each little drop held so much pain. So much emotion and heartbreak.

Nobody says anything. We can’t because we have no words, we have no words for the looming deadline hanging over our heads. No words to describe the fear and pain we are all holding just beneath the surface. No words on how to survive this and no idea on how we are going to fill the hole in our hearts when he’s gone.

We head home soon after that and we both help Arthur to bed, I let go as Luca holds most of his weight. Arthur shivers

“Why are you so hot? Are you sick?”

I hear him say as I pull out my pyjamas. I walk back out and groan, he was burning up pretty badly.

“You must be evolving”

“What happens next?”

Rather looks to me worried, he pulls himself up on bed getting comfortable, Luca yawns and stretches.

“He will fall asleep and his blood will boil in his body until his heart stops then he will combust into flames. We are going to need to go outside now because you will weigh like 4 times your own weight”

Arthur sits forward and pulls the blanket away

“What are you doing?”

I ask him he climbs out of bed and pulls a hoodie on

“I’m coming to”

“Arthur you can’t, you need your rest”

Luca said standing up, he sways slightly so I catch him and he kisses the side of my head.

“Nope you don’t get to decide this I’m coming, now come before you collapse because there is no way I will be able to carry you outside”

Arthur lifts the tin of weed and some blankets and walks out, I chuckle at Lucas face, it’s obvious he would tie him to the bed if he could. That thought made way too many dirty ones come to the forefront of my mind. Damn it now I’m horny. It’s not the time, aspen. Not the frickin time. I shake myself and look up at Luca who’s obviously in my head because he has a wide smirk on his face. I groan

“Come on your already starting to steam up”

I walk him outside, mum and dad are in the living area as we walk in they both get up

“I’ll grab the fire pit, love you make the coffee”

I smiled as mum went towards the kitchen to make the only thing she’s allowed to make, we head on outside where Arthur has blankets on the ground and a cushion where Lucas head will lay, I set him down and he groans rolling onto his side facing us, I run my fingers through his now wet hair but pause.

“Are you going bald?”

He growls at me

“It’s not my fault it just keeps getting thinner and thinner”

Arthur snorts and laughs as I slap my hand to my mouth and try to stop the giggle.

“What did you do?”

Luca glares at Arthur, he growls

“You put that stupid pepper into the pepper shakers to didn’t you! And swapped the salt and sugar. Oh your going to regret that I swear I’m putting a sign up on your pub saying you were more gay then you are straight”

I throw my head back and I laugh, letting all the tension from today fall away. Dad rounds the corner as Luca huffs crossing his arms over his chest

“What happened now?”

“Lucas getting old is all”

I say patting his chest, he throws me a look, making me cackle away. Arthur shivers, his lip is trembling so I shoot the fire pit with a blast of my heat, it warms the area instantly then I move onto Arthur’s lap heating up my skin. Dad disappears again as mum comes out with a cup of coffee handing it to me, I take it as dad returns with a daybed. He sets it on the ground beside us and Arthur chuckles