Chapter 2 — Mockery, Memory

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They jeered while the bulb hummed. The youngest rogue leaned close, the mint on his breath sharp as a cut. A fingertip snapped the corner of her mouth. A boot nudged her shin. “Even a Luna is nothing if her Alpha says she is," he whispered. “Say you're nothing." She didn't. She kept breathing and kept the facts straight in her head. Facts were ladders when the ground moved. They hit her again. Pain flashed and narrowed. She held the chair arms and did not give them her fear. She let her mind step out of the room and back into the years that made her. She remembered her father, James, the pack's Beta. After her mother died, the house turned quiet. He remarried. Emily came in with a suitcase that smelled of violets. With Emily came Samantha, a girl with soft wrists and eyes that filled on command. From then on, the rooms felt the same but did not live the same. Her father's voice grew cooler. It carried rules instead of warmth. He looked through his daughter like she was a stranger who kept forgetting to leave. Emily tried her name and said it was too sharp. Samantha learned her quickly and used what she learned. When she tripped, it was because Natalie “startled" her. When she cried, it was because Natalie “looked at her." There were always witnesses. There were always apologies expected from the wrong person. A scene stayed with Natalie like a nail in a board. She was eight. The afternoon smelled of dust and lemon oil. She opened the velvet box that held her mother's necklace. The chain was fine as a spider thread. The charm was small and warm in her palm. She did not wear it. She was careful. She only wanted to feel that her mother had been real. Samantha stood in the doorway like a question. “What's that?" she asked. “My mother's," Natalie said. “May I see?" Natalie was still polite then. She set the necklace in Samantha's hand. Samantha lifted it toward the light. It looked like a promise. “It would be so pretty on me," she said. “Just to try." “You can look," Natalie said. “But—" Samantha's mouth trembled. “You think I'm dirty," she breathed, just loud enough to be heard. “You don't trust me." “That's not what I said. Please give it—" Samantha spun, as if to show how gently she could move. Then she fell three stairs, skirts fluttering like birds. She landed with a cry made for an audience. Emily screamed. James arrived like a verdict. Samantha curled around the necklace and then opened her hand so the broken chain could shine like proof. “She pushed me," she sobbed. “She tried to take it. She pushed me." “I didn't," Natalie said. Her hands reached for the truth as if she could catch it. James didn't look at her hands. He looked at her face, which was her mother's, and decided she was capable of anything. He took the necklace and closed his fist until the charm bit his skin. “No one will fight over it again," he said. When he opened his hand, the chain was a bright tangle of nothing. He sent Natalie to the basement “to think." The door shut like a mouth. Hours became years down there. She learned to breathe without sound and to count the clicks in the pipes. She learned what happens to a girl who asks to keep what belongs to her. After that, Samantha's frailty was a halo. At training, she drifted near a splintered post, nicked her finger, and gasped as if someone had thrown a knife. At breakfast, she lifted the glass Natalie reached for and murmured, “You always take the first one," and James told Natalie to apologize for making Samantha feel small. Every day, a small bruise shaped like Natalie's name. There was also Andrew. He grew beside her, a boy who became a man the world listened to. He taught her how to plant her feet so a shove could become her own momentum. He said she did not need permission to breathe. She loved him the way a window loves the first warm hand in winter. That feeling found her on its own. The night he asked her to marry him, the courtyard bloomed with voices. Strings of lights shook in the wind and drew a map of stars people could reach. He took her hand. For a while, everything was simple again, before basements and broken chains and rooms that called her a problem for standing in them. “Natalie," he said into the microphone, and her name turned warm in mouths that had once used it as a warning. “Will you marry me?" A thousand answers crowded her throat, but only one mattered. “Yes." The pack howled—one animal with many throats. For one breath, the world was easy. Andrew smiled like he had practiced for years. He squeezed her fingers. Then his face settled into the steadiness that would become the Alpha's mask. “Our Luna," he declared, and people clapped and stamped and shouted. Natalie let the sound carry her. She allowed herself to be chosen. At the edge of the courtyard, the shadows filled with faces that could not bear to be farther away. Emily held her throat. Samantha clutched a napkin like a handkerchief for fainting. Their expressions were painted to look kind. For a breath, the paint slipped. Underneath was the plain shape of hatred. It flashed like heat lightning. Natalie met their eyes and did not blink. Emily's smile thinned. Samantha opened her mouth a fraction and looked stricken for anyone who might be watching. Andrew lifted Natalie's hand. She held on. For an instant, history went quiet. The future stood close and possible. The memory ended there: her yes still in the air, his voice carrying over the courtyard, the lights shaking above them, and Emily and Samantha glaring from the edge with envy unmasked and aimed like a promise. Back in the warehouse, the bulb's hum came into focus again. The rope burned her wrists. Breath scraped in her throat. The youngest rogue's knuckles looked proud of themselves. “Say it," he panted. “Say your Alpha killed Jonah when he broke truce." She kept her voice flat. “I don't say what I didn't see. But I know this: men who think they are the center crush whatever they lean on." She thought of Andrew's hand on a rail, on a door, on a wrist that was not hers. She thought of hospital light turning anyone into a saint if they needed one. The gray‑haired leader tightened the zip ties another notch. Needles of fire raced into her fingers. “We'll give him a story he can't clean," he said. “That's the point." She stared at her phone on the table. It lay dark and heavy, quiet as a knife in its sheath. He wouldn't come, she thought. The thought fell like a stone. Another thought followed and sat beside it: If he came because she screamed, could she forgive him for walking into this room? If he didn't come, could she forgive herself for asking? She didn't know. Not knowing made a hollow inside her that fear tried to fill. “Call him again," the leader said. “Give him a chance to be a hero." “He won't answer," she said. It tasted like metal to say it. “Then leave a message," he said, patient and terrible. “Make it easy for him to regret." The kid flipped the phone awake, tapped the top name, and held it to her ear. The beep was very polite. She kept the words simple. “Andrew, old freight yard, east side. Blue wolf on the door. Five men. They're angry at you. They've hit me, but I can breathe." Her throat closed; she forced it open. “I don't know what I want you to do," she said. “I want you safe. I want you to come. I want what can't happen at the same time." The kid tapped send and set the phone face down like a card no one could look at yet. A glove brushed her cheekbone. The bulb swung and threw torn wolves on the walls. Rain stamped on the roof like a marching band that had lost the parade route. Pain divided her into pieces: shoulder a flare, thigh a drum, wrists electric where plastic burned. She built a small wall out of breath behind which she hid a promise: I will live. With or without him, I will live. Something buzzed in the leader's pocket. He read, swallowed, and put the phone away. His mouth pinched. His eyes slid to the door, then to her, then to the black screen on the table. Regret had a number, and he was carrying it. “Untie me," she said. “I won't bleed on your floor." “Bleed where you like," he said, but he kept looking at the door. Outside, the rain backed off and then returned, louder, like the sky couldn't make up its mind. Minutes collected. Jokes ran out. The driver brought a towel from a sink that groaned about its life. He pressed the towel to her lip with a care that almost asked for thanks. She didn't give it. Care after harm is not care. It is cleanup. Her phone buzzed on the table. Reflex threw her forward. The cuffs held. The leader flipped the screen, read, and did not change his face. He put the phone in his pocket. “What?" the kid asked. “Nothing," the leader said, and the lie was bright as a cracked window. She concentrated on small things: the throb in her wrists; the tickle of towel fibers at her split lip; the rain; the hum; the click that would come when a door opened; the last words she had heard on the call: Not tonight. Not tonight, she thought, and flattened them like a slip of paper. She turned them over and saw the shape underneath: Not you. She set that shape aside. Living came first. The bulb steadied. The rain decided. The room was a box with one noise in it: the busy signal still ringing in her head from when the call cut away. She stared at the leader's pocket where her phone slept and listened to the click that ended everything she thought she knew. Then the sound stopped. There was nothing left to hear.
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