EVERYTHING SHE NEVER HAD

06

During lunch time, Maya went to the canteen to get lunch and walked to her table, where she hoped that maybe, just maybe Tumo was not in today, throughout the whole night she had been restless thinking about how now Tumahole will treat her like everyone else, she told herself that she will spare herself the heartache while it's still early. She will stop talking to him, try and avoid him if possible because she was actually starting to like him, she doesn't really like people nor tolerate them, but she does in this case, Tumo is the second person she ever felt free with, accepted and treated nicely. Yes it's to soon to say all this, but it is what it is. Liking a person does have to be a process when the person isn't even trying, it just automatically happens.

Much to her disappointment or rather not, Tumo was there, today, he didn't have his books open, he had a big smile plastered on his face that the moment she approached around the corner, he stood up and pulled her into a hug, which caught both of them by surprise, but the smile was still there on his face.

"it feels good to see you" the statement took her by surprise but truth be told, she too likes to see him also.

"Thank you" she responded. Already he was making it hard for her to cut him off, he is such a nice guy.

She sits down and so does he, but before she could say anything, he beat her to it.

"look, I spent the whole night trying to learn as much as I can about bipolar and I'm sorry I kinna made things awkward, but trust me, it was not my intentions okay, I was just caught off guard I promise"

Okay, things have totally took a turn from what was supposed to happen.

"I know I don't know much about this, but I just want you to know that I understand, okay, you are not alone in this, let me be your friend"

He grabbed her hand, looked her in the eye to show that he meant each and every word he meant, no one has ever done this for her, yes it might seem like it's nothing, but it mean a whole lot to her, have someone aside from Kagiso care for her like this, then suddenly she feels bad for having wanting to cut him off, he is such a nice person, caring, she feels lucky to know him.

Unable to contain her tears, she pulls him in for a hug and sobs on his chest, she feels overwhelmed by emotions and other foreign things, unknown to them, a couple of students passing by look at them, some are shocked, are laughing at them, what are they doing they ask themselves.

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She went to sleep with a smile on her face, even if she tries, she can't hide it. When she got to her room, she found Candice studying, she hasn't seen her in a long time, well it was just a few days, but it felt like a long time, she was excited to her, Candice returned the hug that Maya gave her and they sat down catching up. Her phone vibrated on her study table, she looked at it and saw the name Tee❤️

She quickly grabbed it and answered it.

"hey girl, how are you?" ever since the year started and she learnt that Tshego left, they hasn't been any kind of communication, this is their first.

"I'm okay how are you?" she answered back.

"I'm good, I heard what happened, how are you holding up? I would have called before but I knew you didn't have your phone on you, I know how Walsh can be" she chuckled, hearing Tshegos' voice and how there wasn't a hint of sympathy or anything relating to that was a breath of fresh air, she wanted a friend that won't treat her differently, someone who will accept her for who she is and never judge her and also treat her like a normal person, and thank God Tshego was that, now she can safely say, she has friends, something she never had and never knew she longed for.

They continued catching up and laughing. That she felt at ease, happy for the first time in three days,ooh how she wishes every day could be like this, everything smooth sailing and with a smile on her face.

"someone is happy" Candice comments.

"what's there not to be happy about, life is good mogirl" she said throwing herself on top of her single bed.

"so I guess the rumors are true ke" she turned in her seat to look at Maya.

"what rumors" she asked, seemingly uninterested.

"that you and that poor boy are dating, people saw you kissing"

Maya just snorted at that. "you know Candice, if you take everything everyone says to heart, uzofa usasemcane ntombo I tell you"

She covered her face with her hands and closed her eyes, with a smile still plastered on her face. She slowly drifted off to sleep with the thought that no romour formed again her and her mental state shall prosper.