Luna’s two colors

Happy family

"I know you are hurt, but please don't talk to me like that", I hear a woman's voice say to me. It was Kate.

"I'm so sorry, I thought you were someone else", I apologize to her.

"Oh that mate of yours?", She asks.

"How do you all know who he is?", I ask angrily and turn my back on her.

"Honey, I have seen you running away only two times in your life. First time was when your father died and you decided to take that job in the human city. The second time is now", she says and comes to sit on my bed.

"I am not running away", I tell her. I sound like a five-year-old.

"Yes, you are. And you may run, but don't get too far", she answers and starts to stroke my hair like my mother used to do when I was little and upset.

"I don't mean to. I just. I'm scared. I almost lost Tom yesterday. And today I think I lost my best friend. I can not keep on losing people, it hurts too much", I say and feel like crying.

"Honey, I lost my mate when Jeremy was a little boy. It is hard to think Jeremy as a little boy, but look how strong and gentle giant he is now, even tough he lost the only man he has ever called dad. It was devastating and I was hurting so bad. But Jeremy kept me alive. And I thinks that is one of the reasons he has so kind heart. He has been hurt and he has seen me broken. He doesn't want anyone to hurt like that, so he is nice to everyone.

I turn to face Kate. I never knew that. I never have even asked her where Jeremy's father was. I hugged Kate and she hugged me back.

"You really do have an amazing and funny son", I told her. "And you yourself are a life saver".

Kate tugged me in and I fell asleep. This time she knew not to get me any drinks or food, but herself. My amazing Kate.

My dreams started as normal. I was walking on our land. Soon it started snowing but it didn't feel cold. A white huge wolf with piercing blues eyes came towards me. And with her arrived a smaller wolf, with fur what looked like a summer hay. Her eyes were bright yellow. We looked at each other and I heard a noice coming from mountains behind a forest. A roaming sound and a blizzard was coming. I woke up in sweat and my heart beat very fast.

Next morning I woke up to a feeling someone is watching me. I opened my eyes and Jones was standing next to my bed.

"Good morning sunshine!", he yells.

"Get out, you creep!", I scream at him and throw my pillow.

"You need to wake up and get ready for a new day", he throws my pillow back. It lands on my face.

"No, I'll stay here for the rest of the day. Week. Year", I argue him and pull covers over my ears.

"So this is how you come to see me?", Tom says laughing.

"Tom!", I squeal and almost get up when I remember I'm completly naked. The men realizes the situation and starts laughing.

"We leave only if you promise te get up, get dressed and come out with us", they say. I murmur something like fine and they leave. I can faintly hear them roaring in laughter behind my door.

I get up, put my hair on ponytail, put a little mascara and choose a white bralette, white t-shirt and denim jeans. I quickly brush my teeth and run after the guys. They were outside on the market square. So was Tom's parents and Nathan.

"Aliiiii!", I hear Lily's scream. I pick her up from the ground and give her kisses on the nose. Sam attacks on Tom and he picks him up on his shoulders. Tom's parents are laughing and his mother tries to tickle Sam's feet. Sam is screaming and kickin Tom. Jones gets Lily of me and puts her in the his shoulder. They play that Jones and Tom are horses and Lily and Sam their riders. They play and races all around market place. I look at them lovingly and I see Nathan looking at me. He was trying to laugh with the rest of us but I can see sadness in his eyes. Alissa and Jackson comes out. Alissa looks horrified how her children look like rackdolls on the men's shoulders. Jackson squeezes her hand and she relaxes.

"We need to talk", Nathan tells me. I look at him and nod. We go for a walk and I'm leading us to the lake.

"I need to leave soon", Nathan tells me. He is not able to look at me. I try not to sound hurt and say:

"Yes you have your own pack. When are you leaving?".

"Tonight". I can feel my heart skipping a beat. But that is what I wanted, wasn't it?

It's not. You can't let him leave. I need him and his wolf. And you need him. We need them.

"We need no one"

Try tell yourself that. But that's not true. You are never alone. There is always someone with you. It's me or your friends, Alissa.. You are not alone and you don't need to feel like that

"Your wolf.. I don't know who to pronounce her name", Nathan says with a smile "she doesn't want us to leave. What about you?".

"Honestly? I don't know what to say. We do not know eachother. Mates or not, we are strangers and yes, I feel the pull and sparks, but is that enough?", I say. I try to look in his eyes, but I can't. It's like it hurts somehow. I can feel Kuura crying.

"So you are not even giving us a chance?", Nathan says angrily. "I've waited so many years to find my true love and now I found it and she doesn't want to be with me". He starts walking. He is heading up to the lake faster than I can keep up.

"I didn't say I was going to reject you", I say and he stops so fast that I almost pump to him.

"So you are not going to reject me? Then what? Play happy family in front of me with my Gamma? Flirt with Jones? Sell yourself at a night club?", Nathan shouts.

"What the dam*n hel*l are you saying? I'm not selling myself to anyone! What I do with other men is not your business and I bet you are no virgin either!", I scream.

"No I'm not, and I'm glad I'm not! The thought of me saving myself for someone like you!"

I slap him. Hard. I'm so angry I see red. How dare he speak to me like that. That jealous as*shole. He looks at me stunned and I leave him like that. I run to the lake and stand on a pier. I feel tears running on my cheeks. Those are not sad tears, they are angry tears. I'm so angry I could burst in to flames. I hear him getting closer. I don't want him to see me like this.

"I'm sorry. I.. I don't know what got in to me. I just..", he starts

"Leave", I say

"No. Not like this. I'm not leaving with those words".

"Leave"

"I said no, not until you face me", he says and turns me around. The shock on his face when he sees my tears. I push him away.

"I said LEAVE", I yell at him. The pier starts to shake. My anger is out of control.

"No!", he comes back to me and I shove him away. He keeps coming back and everytime I push him away, I can feel the sparks and my anger gets smaller. But I want to stay angry at him. I want him gone. He takes both of my hands in control and pulls me in tight hug. I try to wiggle my self away, but he just keeps his hands around me. I feel my anger slowly vanishing and my body relaxing. I give up. He loosens his grip and I try to escape. He catches me again and we trip to the lake. It's so deep my feet doesn't hit the bottom, but I'm still a good swimmer. Nathan swims to me and asks me if I'm alright. I say nothing and splash water to his face. He does the same and we water fight all the way to the shore. I'm exhausted when I get some dry land under my feet so I lay on my back on the grass breathing hard. Fighting with feelings is wearing me out. Nathan lays on top of me. The cold water didn't have any effect on him. I can feel his body pressing on me and he was heating my blood.

"I'm sorry. I never should have said those things to you. I got jealous and I am afraid of loosing you. You are constantly on my mind and it hurts to be away from you. You are funny, brave and hel*l you can take care of yourself and everyone around you. Please forgive me. That will never happen again as long as I live", he tells me and presses his chest on my breasts. He covers me completely and stares me in the eyes. I can see he means every word he said.

"I frogive you", I say and then he kisses me.

It's a hungry kiss. It's a kiss he and I have waited for 25 years. Our lips touch and I gasp. It's like a fireworks on my lips and in my brain. our tongues touch and wrestle, he gently bites my lower lip and I run my hair through his hair. He starts kissing my neck and I moan. He licks my marking place and I wrap my legs around him. I can feel his rock hard manhood pressing me and every movement makes my womanhood more wet and needing. The friction is making me crazy and I start panting, Goddness I'm close to org*asm and we are still in our clothes. He takes my shorts off and moves two fingers inside of me. I move with his fingers and he inserts third and fuc*ks me with them. I feel pressurse building up and explosion coming. I come and I'm still in my high when inserts his manhood in me. He fills me up completly. He starts moving in a wavy motion kissing my neck at the same time. He lifts up my other leg on his shoulder and he gets deeper then before and keeps pounding. I feel another org*asm coming and I let it all out. I loose my hearing for a little while and he comes inside of me. He rolls over next to me and keeps his hand on my stomach.

We just breathe some air and eachother. I have never felt so calm and relaxed before. After awhile I decide to go back to the lake to wash myself. Nathan smirks and stairs my nakedness when I take few strokes in the lake. He rans after me, catches me and we start kissing in the water.

"You do know that there is no turning back now?", he asks with an unsure smile.