Luna’s two colors

No

I knocked on the door before I opened it. The room was all white and it was made for one patient at a time. There was a bed in center and on the bed was sleeping a shirtless man with wires and tubes on him. I saw an EKG monitor and followed it for a while. The rhytm was good and blood pressure okay. I call Tom's parents to enter the room. His mother starts to cry when she sees her son lying on the bed and goes to him. She sits on a chair next to a bed and takes Tom's hand on hers and starts to caress his hair. She is speaking to him, but I don't want to listen and I give them privacy. Tom's father goes to sit other side of the bed. He just looks at him and I can see a single tear falling from his eye.

This is too much. I feel I can not breathe. I excuse myself and leave the room. Nurses walk past of me with a sympathic smile. I have no place to hide, but then I see a bathroom sign. I go there and sit on a toilet cover and hug myself. I need to get my s*hit together. They are his parents and they have more justice to cry and be scared for him.

You are not alone, remember that

"I almost forgot I've you", I start laughing. Like a maniac.

It is nice to know I'm missed. I was exhausted and went to sleep. I'm sorry I left you.

"It's okay. We are alive because of you. Tom's back from surgery.

Yes he is. His wolf is still sleeping, but he is going to be okay, they both are.

"I know. This just reminds me of stuff. And it has been a long day. I needed a minute".

You are going to need a lot more than that. But it is okay. I know I'm saying that a lot, but I mean it. You need to forgive yourself for being vulnerable. You can be tough, but you need to let you be soft also.

"I know. You are stating the obvious. But it's Tom in there".

Let's got to meet him. I'm a little afraid his mother is going to suffocate him with her hugs and kisses.

I let a little laugh, wash my face with cold water and look at my reflection on the mirror. I don't have any make up, I have circles under my eyes and if it's possible I'm paler than ever. I look like I have been driven over by a train. But I am not trying to impress anyone so I head to the Tom's room.

I open the door and first thing that hits me is a smell. It smells like a summer rain. Second thing is warmth, it reminds me of being on a pier on a lake on a summer day and the feeling when the Sun's rays hit your skin. I feel refreshed and warm and I see a man with black hair and blue eyes looking at me.

MATE! IT'S OUR MATE!

"No". I don't know if I said it outloud or not but Tom's parents are looking at my curiously. The man starts to walk towards me and I step out of Tom's room and close the door. I do the only sensible thing I can and start to run. I hear the man shouting after me from the door, but I can't control my feet. I just run. Kuura tries to stop me, but no. I can't.

I ran all the way to the pack house and on the fourth floor. I go to my room and shut the door with a loud bang.

You are an i*diot! It was our mate! You felt it. You felt how good he was. What are you going to do now?

"I.. I don't know. Who was he and what was he doing in Tom's room? I don't need this right now. I need Tom, not HIM"

There must be a reason he was in Tom's room. Maybe he knows him?

"I don't know and I don't want to find out". Kuura refused to talk to me anymore and shut our connection. I fell to my bed and I was going to make a plan but fell asleep.

I woke up to my phone ringing. I was so out it took me awhile to understand what that awful noise was. I found my phone and saw 'Jessica' on the screen. I would love to speak with her and tell her everything, but she doesn't know about our world and she would never understand. I put the phone on silent and get up. I heared a knocking on my door. If everything has just been a nightmare and Tom is at his home and rogues never were here. I opened the door and Alissa and jackson were standing there.

"What do you want?", I asked them.

"Tom has woken up", Alissa told me happily. I scream and I start jumping. And then I remember the man in his room yesterday.

"I need to tell you guys something and I don't need you to judge me", I sigh and sit on my bed. Alissa and Jackson looked at eachother and Jackson closed my door. I told them about what happened in Tom's room. I didn't want to worry them telling about my break down in the bathroom so I left it out.

"Ali, you have met your mate. It's wonderful! You don't have to be scared. He is made for you and you are made for him", Alissa tries to comfort me.

"Look, I wasn't keen on either at first", Jackson says and deserves a tap from Alissa. "But when I came to my senses, it has been the best thing that has ever happened to me". And that deserved a kiss from Alissa.

"But have you ever thought about Alissa living for a much longer time than you, Jackson? You guys saw our mother. She almost died and she has to live hundreds of years without her mate", I ask them. I can see I hit the nerve and felt guilty.

"Ali. Have you talked to mother lately? She has been much better now. She told me that the time she had with our father was amazing and she regrets nothing. She will always miss him, but time is a funny thing. It takes but it also heals", Alissa reasoned me. "I myself don't regret either. Jackson is my life and is going to be my life as long as we are together. What happens after that, no one know. But it is the time we have now, we need to be living. Not to run away from". They left my room and I stayed thinking if they are right or not.Sometimes I hate her being right. Or being more right than me.

I don't know if the mystery man is there now or ever again, but I need to see Tom. So I put on a little make up, my favorite blue shorts and a black top. I walk to the hospital and on the way there I'm sincerely impressed of my pack. Almost everything has been cleaned over night. There are no bodies anywhere and I almost can't smell the blood that had been spilled. When I get closer to the hospital my pace gets slower. Tom, just remember why you are there.