All in all it was impossible. I had followed Macson as a whole and sane Alpha but had come back a wounded and messed up leader. I knew I was never going to be the same. I had to adjust to that. I could also not be seen as weak. I had to protect both my pack and my pregnant mate. That was the only reason why I was willing to fight in the war that Macson had been brewing. I had signed a blood contract forcefully and if I absconded, then my pack and everyone I loved would be in danger. I hoped that death would come and pick Macson and the witch Freya. I regretted the day I had met him and agreed to be his friend. Had I known that he would one day betray me and force me into things that were against my beliefs, I would have stayed at home that day. The milk was already spilt and I could not s
