Bexleigh and the Beast

Chapter 8

Bexleigh POV

"So basically all we can do after the bite is manage the symptoms, the chance if mortality is low but it is there."

"Doc I need a number, before I can agree to this," Axel said

"I can't give you an exact number it's not like we had a class on it in med school. I can tell you based on research done in the US the survivability is in the 90% area. There is a risk Alpha. I think it is minimal but the biggest thing is to just moniter her as the transformation happens we will have the 12 leads on her the whole time monitoring her and keeping her hydrated. We will know if something is going to go south based on her vitals."

"Your grandma got transformed in a bed room, I think we will all be okay, just say you'll do it and we can set up a time to do it."

He rolled his eyes at me, "You're right and if this something you really want to do then I think we can figure something out, but let's not set a time to do it up yet. You're making your decision on a whim. I want you to think about it, this is your life."

I get what he was saying but it still hurt my feelings everyone who I had talked to about this has said how quick werewolves moved and by now they would be moved in and mated offically. I get why we can't move in that was my fault, but to say I was basing a decision on a whim was wrong. I quite literally base my whole life on evidence based practice. From my job to my personal life. I think throughly about every decision I make, based on proven facts. Although this proven fact was more specific doctors talking amongst each other then something I could google, maybe there was a book. And also we had his grandma we could ask.

The doctor, I think sensing the thickening tension excused himself, "I will give you guys the room if you have any questions just hit the call light I will be happy to answer any questions."

"Thanks Dr. Walker," I said as he shut the door behind then turned my attention to Axel. "First of all I don't make any decision on a "whim" like in my whole life, if I hadn't thought long and hard about it I never would have even said anything to you. Secondly, you just talked Saturday about how you almost rejected me because I am so weak as a human." I wasn't trying to pick a fight, but I did want to make a point. I have always been direct and if I wanted the answer to a question I am going to get it. Is this your way of telling me that you want the option to reject me? It's okay I do understand that I may not have been what you expected," he let out a low growl which caught me of guard.

"No." I watched his eyes go back and forth from his blue color to black, Jess told me that was his wolf trying to take over. "We want you," his voice was a little off almost animalistic. "You are mine," he moved over to me at a super speed and gently pushed me against the wall and put his face in the space between my neck and shoulder and inhaled. "My mate!"

"I am yours but shutting down a conversation because you don't want to talk about it anymore isn't ideal, you have to understand that. I just want answers. Your right this is my life I want to know what's going to happen in it."

"It's your life," he said still with his face buried in my neck but his voice back to normal. The "aha" moment hit me. It wasn't so much that he didn't want to change me it's that he didn't want me to die. I wrapped my arms around the lower part of his back.

"I kind of have to believe there is a reason we are mated, there is a reason I am supposed to be a werewolf. I have thought about it, you wouldn't not get a surgery because the death rate was 15% you would say hey Doc those are fair odds. My chance of surviving you transforming me into a werewolf are higher than my chance if surviving an unexpected attack on the pack. I have thought about that. You were a subpar defense system the other night when your ex appeared. That's not on you, and I am sure if something were to happen you could move quicker than her, but all I need right now is a hard bop on the head and I am done. She could crush my skull. A well aimed swipe and I could bleed out before you even have a threat contained from doing anymore harm. To say I am making a decision on a whim is not logical, I am not even capable of making a decision like this without all the facts. My brain doesn't allow that kind of recklessness."

"I know, however, I am literally the one injecting poison into your body hoping it will work. Not only would I be the sole reason you don't survive, if the tables flip I have basically committed suicide."

"I have something to fight for," I answered him honestly. "I have 1 million reasons to fight and they are all in this room wrapping me in their arms right now."

He finally stopped sandwiching me between his body and the wall and held me back at arms length. "It is my job to protect you, I was misleading earlier, I will change you but I need more time. I have not ever had someone else's life in my hands I have never had to make a decision like this. It's going to take me longer than it takes you."

" That is the explanation I would have appreciated at the beginning of this conversation. Well just a conversation at all instead of just passive aggressively shutting me down. We are on the same team."

We left the pack hospital and walked into the pack house this was the first time I had ever been inside. When we walked in the door to a sitting room type place, all I could do was look up the ceilings on the first floor were atleast 25 foot tall, everything was very modern contemporary design white and just homey. I would hate to be the one to keep it white, but to the person who didn't have to clean it, it was beautiful. We walked out of the sitting room and into the kitchen which was such a dream it was a nightmare. There were 2 double door refrigerators and a walk in cooler, 4 ovens 2 microwaves, I have never been much of a cook but I assume someone who was would think this was the dream. There were 3 middle age women running around until they seen us come in, "Alpha, Luna," the tall red head said smiling. "What pleasure do I owe your visit?"

"Just showing the Luna around her future home."

She came up and stood infront of me and bowed her head, "My name is Rosalie Luna, if you ever need anything please let me know."

"Thank you Rosalie, and please call me Bexleigh." She nodded and went back to her work. "Why in the world does one need a kitchen this big," I asked Axel as we headed to the next room over .

"Some times we have big pack meals or if we have visitors from another pack, we feed them, there is always something in the fridge if you're ever hungry. And I mean always."

I looked around the dining room it resembled a high school cafeteria but the tables were much fancier. There were a few people in there chatting but that died down as we walked over and Axel introduced me. And I learned all of them were pack warriors and their mates. There was a very tall, very beautiful girl named Sage who stuck out to me. She had dark brown hair and big brown eyes, she was kind of what I would call an sss woman, something about her just seemed incredibly fierce and I couldn't wait to get to know her better.

We proceeded with the tour with Axel showing me the TV room with what I would assume to be every up to date gaming consol available two giant flat screens on opposite walls and a few different games there was a pool table and a ping pong table. Axel explained this was a big place that the teenagers in the pack came to to hang out and stay out of trouble. And the pack had 24/7 access to the majority of the ground floor.

We proceeded through the pack house he showed me his office, what would be my office once I was offically Luna and then brought me up the stairs telling me the 2nd floor was for visiting packs and it had a conference room about 10 hotel equivalent rooms. The third floor was for the Beta and Gamma and their families if they choose to live there. So far he has only had one family choose to live out of the pack house while still in a leader position and that would be Jess' family.

He then brought me to the fourth floor and that would be our floor and our families floor. To the left of the stairs it had four bedrooms, two on each side of the hall, that all were furnished with basic things beds a dresser a floor mirror and each had a small walk in closet and a bathroom that connected the two rooms. Each bathroom had a soaking tub and a shower and a vanity with two sinks and a toilet.

To the right of the stairs was another office room with two desks and papers all over the one, which I assumed was Axels desk. The office connected to the master bed room which was huge. It had a king sized bed a sitting area with a TV and couches and a couple recliners. It had a walk in closet that was the size of a normal sized living room which also had a washer and dryer set up, that's convenient, I thought. His clothes lined the right side of the closet and there was a shelf full of shoes. This man had more clothes than I could ever dream of having, once my stuff got moved in I would take up a quarter of the space he did. He had suits and ties and and jeans an t-shirts and shorts that lined the closet and atleast fifty pairs of shoes. "How does one aquire this many articles of clothing? You have more clothes in here then I think I have had in my whole life," I teased.

"Just you wait baby, I'm going to buy you so many clothes by the time you move in we're going to have to build another closet."

"What's wrong with my jeans and t-shirts?"

"Oh baby, not one thing but I can't wait to get your sexy body into a tight little dress, but I am even more excited to get you out of it," he said with a wink I felt my cheeks heat up.

"Don't threaten me with a good time," I said flirting back with him. In all honesty I wanted him to take me out of, I don't even care, anything.

Axel let out his typical animalistic growl, "Don't tease me Bexleigh."

"Maybe I need to tease you more, then I can get what I want," I said trying to sound sultry.

"I am trying to hold back because I don't know if I can control my wolf from marking you and it would be too soon if I haven't even met your dad yet."

"My dad doesn't control me anymore Axel," I said sauntering over to him and trying my best to be sexy, "but maybe you could give it a try," I said as I ran my fingers acrossed his lip down his neck to his chest and acrossed his waistline on his pants, careful not to go too far because if I got to far into this and he shut me down due to politeness it would sting a little.

He grabbed me by my butt and sat me on the washer and brought himself in between my legs and pressed his body as close against mine as possible and started kissing me, his hands wrapped around me to ensure I couldn't go anywhere, and pushed his tongue against my lips lightly asking for entry, that I readily accepted. He grabbed my shirt at the bottom and pulled it up over my head and stared at my half naked torso for a moment before saying "so damn sexy," and started kissing acrossed my jaw line down my neck acrossed my collar bone down between my breasts skipping over the part where my bra connected in front. I was panting and hot as I pulled his shirt over his head, it was the second time I had ever seen his perfectly defined chest and abdomen his tan skin and the flexing of all those muscles as he touched me. His V line at his hips that I truly wanted run my tongue across. He growled again as his eyes went dark, which I could only assume was and internal battle between him and his wolf, that I had learned, is named Blaze. I wanted Blaze to take over. I wanted to so desperately for him to take my shorts off and take me. I was not a virgin, but I had only been with Jenson. And that had been nearly decade, I had not had needs until this past week and I was begging for this one specific man to meet them.

He moved his kisses back up my body, "these are mine," he said as he kissed around my bra from the strap down the outline of the cup acrossed my chest up the other side. He moved his kisses up to my shoulder, acrossed the top to my neck, "and this is where I will mark you." He kissed up my neck again and to my mouth, " and these lips I fully intend on kissing everyday for the rest of my life," he said as he pulled my close to him again. "But I am going to stop myself from going any further tonight. You deserve better than me having s*x with you today. You deserve to have something more than a quickie on the washer. And I will ensure you get that."

Fuck. Clearly chivarly was not dead. But it could go to hell.