Broken mate

Chapter 1

I quickly but gently turned the loud siren of my alarm clock off as not to wake my farther. My body Couldn't take another lashing yet. I was still so sore from the eight lashings I got last night for being eight minutes late home from school. I'd gotten busy chatting with my best friend, my only friend Carter, He was really good at that, distracting me from my ongoing torcher that happened to me every day at school and home. Although he could not stop it from happening even though he was to become a warrior for the pack when he leaves school he couldn't touch my farther as he was Bata to the alpha. Edward even he, the protector of all the pack shunned me for my appearance, everyone did accept Carter he tries to protect me at school but he's not always there, he had different classes to me and I tried to make out the bullying didn't bother me, I knew it upset him to know I was hurting. If it wasn't for Carter I would of just given up a long time ago but he keeps me strong always telling that I was made to be something better than this place I'd be lost without him.

I got changed quietly putting on my favourite black skinny jeans even though they had holes in now, they were still my favourite and my oversized light grey hoodie. I combed my fingers through my hair as I didn't own a hair brush. My father never liked to spend money on me says it's a waste. I looked at myself in my broken mirror at the long tangles in my lilac hair and dark purple eyes and my very slim frame from lack of a decent meal. My skin is almost as pale as snow. l know everyone thinks I'm odd because of my hair and my eyes. I never met anyone one with them colours before but honestly I do really like them even if there the reason for all my torcher. I grabbed my bag and the books I'd need for the day I went to kitchen. As always the fridge had been locked he only gave me enough food to make sure I stayed alive and that would always be left over scraps from what he'd left on his plate. I wasn't bothered I stopped feeling hungry a long time ago I checked the clock, it's was 8.30am time to go school I unlatched door as slowly and quietly as possible and snook through the crack I'd opened gently closing it behind me I hurriedly walked to the end of the street and met Carter. He threw his arm around me and winced away with the pain almost feeling a tear come my eyes but I blinked them away. I looked up at his eyes full of anger and sadness at the same time " that bastards going to get what he deserves one day I promise". Not sure who he was trying to reassure more, me or himself.

I put my hand on his shoulder "I'm aright I'm just a little sore. At least it was just the lashing last night, anyway I want to talk about something more interesting like how was your date last night" I asked him, in my attempt to distract him.

He knew I was trying to change the subject. I hated talking about what was going on it made me feel weak and pathetic. but he always just smiled at me and changed it. I loved that he never pushed too much. He knew I liked the distraction " please don't remind me about that date gawd" he said. I laughed "it couldn't of been that bad" I replied. he looked down at me his eyebrows raised "seriously it was he was so shy I did all the talking which I don't usually mind. But he literally gave me nothing, accept a few nods of his head I might as well if just been on date with myself. There seriously needs to be more gay guys come out of the closet round here" He said. I laughed so hard that my back was starting hurt again from the lashings. But I didn't care this was a happy pain. "I agree they do we need more people to keep you busy" he looked at me shocked and gasped "well I'm sorry I'd like someone who's interesting. I don't want to bored to death all my life and it doesn't look like I'm going to find my mate round these woods". I felt a pang in my heart for him it was unusual for a gay wolf to find a mate and even if they did they usually got rejected as the other would usually already be married or they didn't want to admit that they was gay. It's a shame really, I want him to be happy he deserves to be happy " anyway madam anyone caught your eyes round here yet"

I rolled my eyes "I only have eyes for you" I giggled to him. He knows I only love him as a friend. I'm not even sure if I get to have a mate as that's the other odd thing about me. I don't have a wolf which is what my farther hates about me the most. I'm an embarrassment to him, him being the Bata anaul. He expected a son or daughter strong and powerful with a powerful wolf but he ended up with me.

We walked the rest on the way to school in light chatter once at school "iv gotta go see coach before class you going to be alright". I nodded "I'll be fine you go and I'll meet you at lunch" he gently hugged me and before walking away "see you at lunch". I went towards my locker when I felt a strong hand grab me by the top of my arm and yank me into the nearby classroom. I tried to take in my surrounding but it was only lightly lit the strong hand swung me round to face them when I realised its Calvin the alphas son and soon to be alpha. "hey there freak" he spat out at me "what do you want Calvin" I asked. I wasn't afraid of him I didn't bow down like the rest as I had no wolf and he hated it. That he had no control over me nor would I let him. Calvin was arrogant and spoiled I know he's going to be the ruin of this pack when he takes over. "just because you don't have a wolf doesn't mean you don't have to follow my orders especially if you want to remain in this pack. I will do with you as I wish and you will accept it" he closed the space between us his face and mine nuzzling his nose in my hair taking a big whiff I felt his body tense " I heard freaks are kinky in the bedroom if you're lucky I might just keep you around to keep me satisfied". I wanted to gag at the thought of him. He was good looking with blond perfectly styled hair perfectly smooth skin golden brown eyes well-built muscular body but had an ugly personality. I saw his hand quickly go to his trousers and started thumbing with his buttons "f**k it, get on your knees freak" he demanded. I shook my head trying to look around for a way of escape but he was blocking my way to the only exit. I felt a hot sting to my cheek as my head spun round. I tasted the metallic coppery blood pool in mouth immediately, my head hammering from the pain whist fuzzy and distracted by the pain he quickly released himself from his trousers then grabbed my hair yanking me down to the floor. I was powerless against his wolf strength "you did this to me so now you will fix it open your mouth". I began panic there's nothing I could do to stop this. I closed my eyes, before I opened my mouth I heard the door slam open "s**t" I heard Calvin say quickly whipping himself back in his pants then turning round "don't you know how to knock" he shouted. I looked round Calvin slightly and was so thankful to see Carter's huge frame filling the door with his Sandy brown hair falling just above his eyebrows and he dark brown eyes staring straight into Calvin like daggers "coach said he wants to see you now, he looks pissed" Carter informed him. "thanks man forgot to meet with him this morning". Calvin went to walk out but turned to me "mom wants you working the kitchen tonight. She sorted it with your dad the alpha of black moon pack is coming to show his son round the packs ready for taking over, so be on your best behaviour and don't show us up freak" with that he stormed out of the room.

My back sagged against the wall behind me making my back sting but it didn't bother me I let the tears slide down my cheeks. what I'd been holding in. Carter rushed over to where I was sitting bending down on his knees and embracing me in a hug. I sobbed into his shirt Carter was the only person I'd let myself cry in front of because he never judged, he never saw me as weak, he always reminds me that the moon goddess would of only given me this destiny knowing I was strong enough to handle it and that something great must be coming for me. " are you alright I knew I shouldn't have left you I'm so sorry" I found the strength to lift my head from his shirt and looked in those soft brown eyes of his " you have nothing to be sorry for it's not your fault and you can't always be here to protect me". I brought him in for a big hug " I know I got so worried about you when one of guys said Calvin had been looking for you. I knew he'd be up to no good". I heard the bell go for first class. I quickly dried my eyes and we both began to stand "ready" he asked and I nodded and he wiped the blood from my lip for me then took my hand to walk out the empty classroom, he walked me to my first class I turned and thanked him " thanks Carter, but you don't have to walk me to every lesson you know". he smiled at me "I know but I want to". With that he turned and left. the rest of the school day went by quietly for a change. Everyone was to interested in the alpha of the black moon pack and his son coming to visit. they are the biggest and strongest pack in the US and look over the rest of the packs ensuring the rules are being followed and help protect us if we come under threat from rouges. I heard one of the girls talking about the soon to be alpha, how he's still searching for his mate especially now that he's 18 and ready to lead the black moon pack he wants a Luna to stand by him. all the girls are hoping that they would be his mate I'd dread to think of any of these girls being Luna of any pack never mind every pack in the US .

The last bell rang and it was music to my ears. That was one hell done with for the day. Carter was stood outside my classroom he said he'd walk me to the pack house after school to help in the kitchens but that he couldn't his parents had grounded him for falling behind on his studies. I envied him for having parents that care and truly love him. they were such kind people not that he complained especially knowing what my father is like. I think it's made him more grateful to have the parents that he has even though he tries not to talk about his parents to me. knowing I want so desperately to have what he has, to have a family who loves you unconditionally, who are always there for you to help you through your mistakes. It makes me wonder how different my life would have been if my mother was still here. She died when I was 2 years old from a rogue attack of course my farther blames me for that, he said my mother died protecting me. She was so beautiful I only remember bits about her like her long blonde hair and bright blue eyes almost sparkling and her smile it was so kind and gentle, my father took all her pictures down when he saw me looking at them one day said I didn't deserve to know what my mother looked like. Carter pulled me from my thoughts "hey where here. what you been thinking about you've not said a word the whole way over here". I looked up at him and smiled " nothing much just day dreaming". he look right into my eyes I knew he didn't believe me but he didn't push he never pushed that's what I loved about him. He let me be me with no judgment, no nothing and still loved me no matter what even when I'd push him away he's always been there waiting for me to let him back in.

"Right I gotta go or my parents won't ever let me leave the house again" he laughed and I sighed "okay wish me luck I'm definitely going to need it to get through the night" he hugged me tightly "good luck"

I watched him walk down the street then I headed inside for my second part of hell for the day.