It was the shock of it. It felt like one minute I had been arguing with him and the next he was gone. Adrian had in one split second made a stupid decision. He'd been blinded by depression, and it had won.
It was so sudden, and I was so conflicted. I had lost someone I loved yet hated at the time he died. Trying to process that was impossible. I just didn't want to believe it, but I'd denied it as much as I could, when I saw that coffin there was no turning back.
I would always blame myself no matter what anyone said. I had said some horrible things to him, those were the last words he heard from me.
Today was the day I would go to his grave. It had been a few weeks and I wasn't even sure I was ready. The weeks had been slow with a lot of tears but I couldn’t live like this forever, I h
