Love and Longing

Episode No 5: Soul Affinity

Albert went into his room and talk to himself. I have never seen such an egoistic girl. The more i try to behave friendly, more she provokes anger and rage inside me. Now, she will see how harsh and cold, i could be.

Next day, Albert was packing his bags for his boys' tour to New York city. After packing up, Albert called his friends at home. Elas, George and there old school fellow Jack came at Albert's palace. Jack also belonged to an aristocratic family but he used to be envious of Albert since school time as Albert used to be in the spotlight. Though they all met eachother.

Grandmother Rothella came to the guest room.She meet them all. Granny asked Albert to take warm clothes with him. Albert smiled after seeing her care_ "Granny I'm fully grown now, you need not to worry".

Aenna on the othe side felt guilty for her rude behavior towards him. She thought herself; i think i got too much rude and disrespectful towards him.

Albert with his friends set out on their trip.He was excited to explore the streets of New York. They made a road trip from Massachusetts towards New York. As, they reached their hotel room, Albert being tired just fell on the bed.

Next Morning, Albert woke up ,first. When he set aside the curatains, Aenna came into his mind as, when he daily aside the curtains of his room, Aenna was in front of his eyes. But, he declined the benevolent thoughts of her by memorizing her cold behavior towards him. And asked the boys to wake up.

Albert dragged George's blanked forcefull, we are getting late for breakfast buffet. They all dressed up well and went to the hotel lobby. Then, they did their breakfast.

Elas: What's our first place to explore Statue of Liberty or Times Square.

George and Jack: Times Square and we will visit Statue of Liberty at night, the view will be amzing in the night.

Elas and Albert agreed to them and they went towards Times Square. At night, they visited Statue of Liberty. Boys enjoyed much and then came back to their hotel room.

Aenna at night went to the terrace. She felt like something is missing, Albert's absence hit her heart.Next day, Aenna again come upstairs and her eyes searched for Albert. Third day, she again went upstairs and she assumed herself that might be Albert would never came out in balcony again. During all the days, Albert was on tour, somehow Aenna's eyes longed for him, might be she caught some feelings for him in deep inside.

On the other hand, each day Albert see the curtains of hotel room setting aside, deep inside he kept some memories of Aenna.

After almost fifteen days, boys returned back to Massachusetts. Albert finally reached home, Aenna was unaware that during these long days Albert was on a trip. After return, first thing Albert did was he set aside the curtains to see Aenna. Unfortunately, she was't there. He missed her more as his friends were gone and now he was alone in his room.

For some days, they didn't see eachother. After a long run, one day Aenna came upstairs, as her terrace was getting renovated. Their were interior designers with her. Coincidencely, Albert came out with a cup of coffee and his eyes were on Aenna, inside he blossomed but he tried to ignore her and went inside. Aenna, after seeing him felt like she got the missing part, first time, she saw Albert with a soft corner inside her heart.

At night, Aenna was yearning inside to go upstairs so that she could she Albert's face. Albert also face the same longing.

Aenna stopped herself forcefully and didn't listen to her heart.

Days passed, one day it was dark night and there was no moon the sky, Aenna was walking outside in front of the orchard. Albert after parking his car, also started walking on the road. First, both remained silent.

Aenna broke the silence: Albert!

Albert instantly looked towards her, he wore a frown on his face just to pretend to be harsh.

Aenna: Why are looking at me with anger?

Albert: I am not angry. My face looks like this.

Aenna: I just want to say sorry.

Albert: For what?

Aenna: I became too harsh that night.

Albert: You said to me to stay away. I am just doing that.

Aenna: I am guilty for my behavior.

Albert: Okay fine.. i forgot what you did to me.

Aenna: Thanks.

Albert: By the way, can you explain, why are you behaving like an innocent persian cat instead of wild one.

Aenna sneered and they both laughed.

Aenna asked him: I didn't see you for so many days..

Albert: Your eyes searched me like really?

Aenna: I didn't searched, as you know my room is near your's and i often came upstairs, that's why.

Albert smiled.

Albert: Ummm.. Aenna why are you behaving weirdly, is everything fine, your cheeks are getting red.

Aenna trying to hide her internal feelings.. became more confused and said to him: no i'm not behaving weirdly. Albert: Aenna your forehead is sweating.

Aenna became more hesitant and said to him.. I think my mom is calling me.

Albert: I didn't hear any voice.

You can tell me if you are hiding something.

Aenna: What will i hide? There is nothing. She said goodbye to him and rushed inside her house.

Albert got some hints that Aenna is hiding something and entered his palace laughing.

As, Aenna entered her the corridor of her house, her mother asked:

Aenna where are you going in hurry.

Aenna replied: Mummie, I'm going to sleep, i want to reach college in time. She rushed into her room, so that no one can read her face.

Aenna laid on her bed, she was biting her fingers with lips, what is happening with me?

If I will meet Albert a few more times,he will definitely get to know about what's in my heart. I don't want him to recognize my internal state.

"I never wanted to fall in love. Love makes us weak. Love is a kind of slavery, once you fall in love with a person, unintentionally you start to bow in front of them. Love makes us a slave. Where there is love there is obediency. A lover can never say 'no' in front of the person they love. I was always afraid of falling in love. It makes us fearful. Fear of losing a beloved person never let us to stay in peace. Love brings peace but first, it bring a lot of anxieties and fears".

I always tried not to fall in love. How this could happen to me? Life is easy without love, you don't care about anyone. But once the heart gets attached to one person, it is difficult to live without seeing them.

The first stage of love starts with seeing, these two sinful eyes see a person and then they start yearning for them, alongwith the longing of heart.

Second stage is liking, our eyes and heart witnesses their perfection.

Third stage is blindness; getting blind to all their flaws, we only see the good things in that person, a sense of admiration is only left behind.

Fourth stage leaves a desire to get them.And this is the most dangerous stage that leads a person to the final stage:

Fifth stage which is madness.

Congratulations you fall in love fully, almost 100 percent. Now get ready to die in madness if you never get them.

Aenna disclosed her soliloquy by saying:

" I don't want to die in madness." She dragged the blanket upward and fell into a deep sleep.