I AM GAY

LOVE IS REJECTED

Again - again my cellphone vibrates when a call from Tio comes in. I glance at his face which is getting more and more sour.

I ignore the call again from him.

It's time to talk.

I saw Tio finish her meal. There was still a lot of food left on his plate.

"Ehm..Tio." call me serious

"Yes, what is up?" Tio answered with a face that was still focused on her cellphone.

"Tio I want to talk. It's about Jovanka."

When I heard Jovanka's name, Tio suddenly took her face away from the cellphone and looked at me seriously.

"Jovanka? Where is she? Why didn't she come as we promised?" Cecar Tio.

"Tio. I'm Jovanka. The Jovanka you've been waiting for all this time."

"Hahaha.... you're funny too. Hahahaha..." Tio laughed when she heard my confession.

"I'm serious Tio. I'm Jovanka." I said reassuringly.

"Hmm.. what's wrong with you." Tio was busy with her cellphone again.

For a moment my guts shriveled. I'm confused whether I should continue to convince him? Or should i delay again?

"Tio."

"What?"

"What do you think Jovanka is like?"

"Surely she's a sweet girl. Funny, smart, cheerful, just have fun."

"Then, Jovanka once said no to you if there was one the secret he wants to talk to you about?"

"Well, how do you know? Yes.. yesterday he had a big secret he had to tell me. But the cake was he wasn't ready. So I have to wait."

"Now he is ready to talk about that big secret Tio."

"Oya? He already told are you? Even though he said it was a secret. But let me tell you first."

I took my cellphone, then I miscall Tio's number.

"Well.. this is the person calling. Wait a minute. Jovanka called" Tio said excitedly as he prepared to pick up the incoming call.

"Hello Jovanka, where have you been since my phone was not answered? WA messages also not answered?"

"Hey Tio."

Tio suddenly fell silent and froze while looking at my direction.

He looked at his phone, then looked at me again. Quickly, he snatched the cellphone from my hand.

It looks like the call is still connected to the number.

"Give me back my cellphone, Tio," I snapped, snatching it from his hand.

"Hey..! Who are you really? Why is Jovanka's cellphone on you?"

"I'm Jovanka, Tio."

"Absolutely insane." With Tio's emotions passed leave me.

I immediately followed his steps from behind. I have to finish all of this. Right now.

Arriving at the parking lot, I saw Tio opened the car door. I hurriedly ran to the left and opened the door then went in and sat beside him.

"Eh, what is this? What are you doing? Are you going out?" snapped Tio.

It turned out to be Tio's true nature. When angry he is really firm.

"Hey, can you hear me? Get out I said." Tio's face started to turn red.

"I'm not leaving until you hear my explanation."

"One minute. Please!"

"One minute is not enough Tio. Five minutes." My offer.

"Yes, it's up to you. Hurry up."

I regulate my breath, I try to calm myself down even though my heart feels like it's about to fall out in the face of this one human.

But anyway, problem this should be done right now.

"First of all, I want to apologize to you Tio."

"No need for small talk. Just get to the point."

"Okay. Tio, I actually am Jovanka Tio."

"Hadeh, this guy has been digressing since earlier. Already there, get off. Get out of my car."

"I haven't finished talking to Tio. You gave me five minutes earlier right? You should listen to me first."

"Hmm. Hurry. Three more minutes."

I took my phone from my pocket. Then I opened i********: with my Jovanka Click account. I'll show you our dm messages.

"This is what you see. This is my i********: account. Here are our dm messages." I thrust my phone in front of him.

"You can also check our messages on wa."

With a serious face Tio started fiddling with my cellphone while occasionally looking at my face.

"I'm going crazy at this. This is really all about Jovanka. Can you explain why this happened?"

Tio tightened the car ac as the atmosphere was getting hotter. He wiped the sweat on his forehead with a tissue.

"I'm a gay Tio. Sorry."

"Huh? What? Can you repeat it?" Tio's eyes widened at me.

"Yes Tio. I'm gay. I purposely created an account with the name Jovanka to attract men. My real name is Jody. And looks like I was wrong. I apologize."

"So all this time you disguised as Jovanka like that in front of me?"

"Yes Tio. That's my way to looking for a friend who can be used as a lover."

"As you know, my status like this is very taboo in the eyes of the public. So I desperately tried to cover it up, and tried to disguised myself to keep me safe."

"Hahaha.. already? Are you done? Now you get out of my car." Tio ordered while getting out of the car then opened the door next to me.

"Get out! That's disgusting."

Without saying a word, I rushed out and walked past him.

At least I'm relieved. I already know the direction of our relationship. He wasn't the right person for me and that wasn't a problem. I'm used to being treated like this.