Morning came too fast.
The kind of morning that doesn’t feel like a fresh start but like a consequence.
I woke up with my heart already racing, the memory of last night still wrapped around me like a secret I couldn’t shake. His touch. His voice. The way he looked at me like I was the only thing that existed in that room…
I pressed my fingers to my lips.
As if I could erase it.
As if I wanted to.
No.
I closed my eyes again, but it was useless. Every time I tried to push it away, it came back stronger.
The kiss.
The way he held me.
The way I didn’t stop him.
“I shouldn’t have done that,” I whispered to myself, staring at the ceiling.
But my body didn’t agree.
Not even a little.
A vibration pulled me from my thoughts.
My phone.
I reached for it, expecting nothing important.
Then I saw the name.
Him.
My stomach dropped.
A single message lit up my screen:
“We need to talk. Tonight. Same place.”
My fingers froze over the screen.
Same place.
He meant the same place where everything had started.
Where everything had crossed a line.
My pulse quickened.
Another message came through before I could respond:
“Don’t ignore me.”
I swallowed.
He always knew how to do that.
How to pull me back in.
How to make it impossible to walk away.
I typed slowly:
“This shouldn’t continue.”
The reply came almost instantly.
“Too late.”
My breath caught.
Too late.
Those two words shouldn’t have felt like an invitation.
But they did.
That night, I told myself I wouldn’t go.
I tried.
I really did.
I stood in front of the mirror, repeating the same thing over and over again.
“You’re not going. You’re not doing this again.”
But my reflection didn’t look convinced.
Because I wasn’t either.
And when my phone lit up with another message
“I’m waiting.”
I was already grabbing my keys.
The place looked different in the daylight, but tonight…
Tonight it felt even more dangerous.
Maybe it was because I knew what had happened here.
Or maybe it was because I knew what was about to happen again.
I spotted him almost immediately.
He stood in the same spot.
Like he hadn’t moved since last night.
Like he was waiting for me.
Only me.
My steps slowed as I approached.
And then he saw me.
That same intense gaze locked onto mine, and just like that…
Everything came rushing back.
“You came,” he said quietly.
Like he hadn’t expected me to.
Like he hoped I wouldn’t.
But he looked relieved.
And that alone scared me.
“I shouldn’t have,” I replied.
“No,” he said, stepping closer. “You shouldn’t have.”
But neither of us sounded like we believed that.
The space between us disappeared again just like before.
Too close.
Too familiar.
Too dangerous.
“Why did you call me here?” I asked, though I already knew the answer.
He didn’t speak right away.
Instead, his eyes moved over my face slowly, like he was memorizing something he shouldn’t.
Like he was trying to hold on to me.
“I couldn’t stop thinking about you,” he said finally.
The words hit harder than I expected.
Because they weren’t casual.
They weren’t careless.
They were real.
And that was the problem.
“I tried to forget you,” he added, voice lower now. “I really did.”
“Then why didn’t you?” I whispered.
His jaw tightened slightly.
“Because I couldn’t.”
The honesty in his voice made my chest ache.
This wasn’t supposed to feel like this.
It was supposed to be a mistake.
A moment.
Something we could walk away from.
But now…
It felt like something else.
Something deeper.
Something dangerous.
“You’re playing with fire,” I said softly.
He took another step closer.
“So are you.”
The air between us grew heavier.
Thicker.
Charged.
I should have stepped back.
I didn’t.
Instead, I found myself looking at his lips.
Remembering.
Wanting.
“No more of this,” I whispered, though my voice lacked strength.
“Then stop me.”
The challenge hung in the air.
He wasn’t begging.
He was daring me.
My heart pounded.
My body leaned closer before my mind could stop it.
“Why are you doing this?” I asked.
His voice dropped.
“Because the moment I touched you… I couldn’t let go.”
That was it.
That was the truth I wasn’t ready for.
My breath shook.
“That doesn’t make this right,” I said.
“I never said it was right.”
He lifted his hand slowly, giving me time to stop him.
I didn’t.
His fingers brushed my cheek gently.
Soft.
Almost careful.
But the effect…
It was anything but.
My eyes closed instinctively.
Like my body already knew what it wanted.
“Tell me to stop,” he whispered.
I opened my eyes.
I looked at him.
And I didn’t.
That was my answer.
His hand slid to the back of my neck, pulling me closer—not forcefully, but enough to erase whatever distance I had left.
My breath caught as his forehead rested lightly against mine.
“Say it,” he murmured.
But I couldn’t.
Because deep down…
I didn’t want him to stop.
Not really.
His lips hovered just above mine.
The tension stretched.
Breaking point.
And then—
He kissed me again.
Slower this time.
Deeper.
More certain.
Like he already knew I wouldn’t pull away.
And I didn’t.
This time, I didn’t hesitate.
Didn’t question.
Didn’t fight it.
Because the truth was…
I was already lost.
And so was he.
And no matter how many times we told ourselves this was wrong…
Neither of us was strong enough to stop.