Unforgettable Love

Episode 2 - Unspoken Feelings

Gabriel

I can’t shake my thought and feel about those eyes and smile. She looks just like me. And it’s like that Xandra has something that she hide from me. And then I freeze to think what if Mady is my daughter. Xandra has gone for 4 years ago after what had happened to us that night. Now she’s back with a little girl. But I was a bit curious as the girl look like me. Not that I flattered myself, seriously, her eyes, nose and lips are all like mine. Suddenly, my heart beating loudly, what if she was pregnant after that night and run away from me  and left her studies upon knowing that she was pregnant. I shake my head. What have I done?. My heart felt the pain thinking that she had to go through during the pregnancy time and thereafter taking care of the child by herself and me not knowing where had she gone during those years. 

Suddenly, I feel anger in myself. Why the hell that she didn’t tell me about it if Mady is really my daughter. That she pregnant to my daughter. Instead she left me looking for her like a mad man for months. Ohh goshhh.... I’m gone kill her if the girl is my baby. I close my eyes and rub my forehead thinking of it. Don’t she knows that I love her. How can she left me not knowing anything. Arrgghhh..... I am really mad now but I know that I cant just go scolding her after what she’s been through. I want her by my side. Even after few years, I still cant forget her. I tried hard for the past few year to forget her but I never can. I never went to any women after her. I had dated and in gossip with some women but that was merely a gossip which I never let it prolong.

But after what I’ve done to her, will she forgive me. What if she hate me. I was drunk and mad at her that night and have done those stupid thing after loosing my sanity and anger..... I took her virginity without her consent. God..... what have I done. I feel chill inside me thinking of what will happen if she don’t want me.

“Gabe? Are you okay?”, Jack ask. “You have lost in your thoughts since we met Xandra hours ago”. I’ve just look at Jack without saying anything. Not knowing what should I say. Jack was the only person, my only brother,  who knew what had happened between me and Xandra, my feeling to her and what had I done to her. He was with me when I’ve searched for Xandra for the early year after she ran away and how devasted I was not finding her anywhere. My life was a mess thinking of what I have done and what if she killed herself because of that. Oh God, I will blamed myself if anything terrible happened to her. Even I didn’t care of losing my company. Even that’s our family’s company. But Jack reminded me that I should be strong and ready to face the fact if it was true but what if Xandra is still alive, I should not have gave up and hope that one day she’ll came back into my life.  Jack has been supporting me even since. He look after the company and me. He’s not interested in being in the Board Director’s of the company. But he agreed to be my personal assistant. His passionate is more in opening his own hospital. Taking care of the unhealthy people, whose not able to pay an expensive hospital bills. He has been talking with dad about that. 

My hand tremble thinking of it. What shall I do now.

He sit down to the seat near me and say, “ Hey! You will get her back. Don’t worry”. I look at him questionly. And he answer, “I’ll just know. She still in love you, Gabe. Trust me. I can see that in her eyes. Maybe she just needs to know and trust that you love her too”. 

“When we’re back in Seoul, we’ll think of a way to settle this. Don’t worry to much. Now that she is back in Seoul and being more beautiful then before, you should be happy and ready to fight for her, for your right.”. He smile at me. He knows I’’m jealous when he mentioned that she more beautiful than before. My jaw tight against it. He just giggled. “As of now, let’s focus on the upcoming meeting, okay?”. He pat on my shoulder and close his eyes. I just look away and close my eyes, try to relax and take a nap along the journey.