I had a 40 minute shower where I scrubbed until my skin was red, and double washed my hair. Feeling down is so twisted. I had felt so sorry for myself that I hadn’t wanted to wash or move or anything, the only thing my brain said would make me feel better was to sit and do nothing. And yet after that shower I felt like a new person!
I braided my hair, put on clean clothes and headed back to my sofa. But instead of burying myself under the duvet I decided to make myself a hot chocolate with caramel and whipped cream, the full works. Without even being aware of it, I made Ben one too. Only when I finished and realised I had two cups in front of me did I acknowledge what I’d done. Letting out a long sigh, I looked out the back window and could see Ben sitting on the bench at the bottom of t
