The Chosen Mate

CHAPTER 14 |

MAVIS' POV

He stood there as I was examining him from head to toe, he's still as incredibly looking as ever, maybe even more. Serena is purring just from the sight of him and the smell of his wolf. My heart was beating so fast, my blood pumping harder every second. I'm trying to hide it the best way, not showing an ounce of emotions. As he spoke, I felt my anger and bitterness leave and let my love control me.

"What if he was saying the truth?", asked Serena. 

"If what is true, Serena?" 

"We both know that we are his mate, I feel it, our Mother the Moon Goddess is making me feel that he is the one. I never mentioned it to you before but as an Alpha wolf, I have a sacred link with our Mother. She never makes mistakes, he is right, something is wrong."

"Why didn't you tell me about the link?" 

"Because every time I tried to talk to you about our mate and the link, you would shut me so hard I couldn't do anything. Our Mother is telling me this is right, we have something special to acco…"

I can't focus on Serena anymore, his scent is making me lose all control over myself, it feels so nice, like this. Him being close.

"I know I messed up, a lot, but I will make it up to you, I promise you. We can sort this out, please." 

I was so absorbed by my conversation with Serena that I didn't realize he had walked up to me, his face inches from mine. His scent, Goddess… was absolutely divine. His eyes were the blue that I love the most, the color of the stormy night I always dream about these nights. His finger gently moves my white hair behind my ear, then intentionally slides his finger down my neck. He was now eyeing my marking spot, it burns my skin but it feels so tempting and delicious. I was so close to his face I could count his freckles, just like I had wished.

"Mavis, I love you…" 

What? Did he just? It feels like I'm dreaming, maybe I am, this is surreal! Serena is howling like never before and I can't feel my face anymore. I lose the sense of time and just look at him for what seems to be an eternity, I wish to never wake up from this beautiful dream.

I can’t help but smile… I close my eyes, approach my face closer to his neck and inhale his sweet scent. My pain seems to disappear, the pieces of my broken heart are coming back together, my muscles finally relax after weeks of being sore and I feel like I can finally take proper rest, with him, in his arms… but I can’t. 

I can't just let myself forget how he rejected me, how he just stood there watching me suffer.

I was in hell, and I still am. I love him, I do, I love him so much, after all this time, this is finally the fantasy I dreamt of with him, but accepting all of this in the blink of an eye would make me an i***t. I’m beginning to understand where he stood at that moment, with Isabella, but I would’ve never treated him like he did if our positions were switched. Did he really have to be cold like that, mean, even distant? No, you don’t do that… He didn’t respect me, neither as his “mate” nor as an Alpha’s daughter, or even as a f*****g classmate. Did he really have to reject me in front of the Alphas of the Alliance, in front of my entire pack, my family? He severed the link I had with my pack and it made us look weak to the others, Alpha’s who were rejected were so rare, they were immediately looked down upon, said to be not proper to lead their people. He destroyed all of it… and the little confidence I had in myself.

‘‘I’m sorry I can’t, Serena’, I tell her, knowing she was dreading this moment. She starts to whine but the deeper she gets into my thoughts, the better she understands why I am doing this. She understands it without accepting it, but I deserve to be treated justly and with respect, and so does she. No one will ever make us suffer that way, I won’t let anyone grab the chance to do it.

I slowly get away from him, feeling my heartache come back with force. The air that was now heavy with our breathing and scent suddenly gets cold. I gather all the force I have to look as neutral and stoic as I can, not trying to show my emotions.

“Are you sure of your words, Cole?” My eyes looking straight into his eyes, quickly getting this icy blue shade, showing how serious I am. “You tell me that you love me, that you felt this connection since your birthday, which was four months ago. In that span of time, you didn’t think of approaching me or talking to me? I think the bond with Isabella is much stronger than you think if you weren’t even able to get close to me to confirm your doubts.”

Am I being a little petty? Yes, absolutely.

He takes a step back, taking a deep breath in. His head down, he replied with regret, “I know! If only I could, ugh, please, I didn’t know what to do then." He raises his head and puts his arms high, showing that he has nothing to hide. "I’m not lying, you can search my heart right this moment if you think that everything I told you is a lie.”

Ah, yes. I forgot that mates could search each other’s hearts because they were supposed to be one whole being together.

“I think this doesn’t apply to us. You seem to have a situation with multiple mates. On the other hand, maybe this problem is already solved, as you rejected me, remember?”

Ouch, even if it’s coming from my own mouth, it stings, a lot. 

“If your business is done, I’m gonna go. We’re leaving tomorrow.”

“What, where?” he was panicked. I never saw that many emotions pass his face than tonight, ironic, right?

“I’m leaving with my family and Henry's. We’re taking some days off, as a family. I want to get myself away from this town for a while, especially after what happened at the hospital. Plus, I want to celebrate my birthday the way I really wanted, with family at the…”

“I didn’t know Henry counted as family.”

I quickly lift my head and see his red eyes, filled with anger. He was silently warning me, telling me to wisely choose what my next words would be.

I stood there, not being able to get a single sound. I could practically touch his anger as it densified the air surrounding us. It was expanding so far that the animals nearby were now running for their life, towards the deep heart of the forest.

“Stop that, you’re gonna warn the pack. Stop it now!”

“Since when did Henry have to go everywhere you went?!”

This was going too far, I knew I shouldn't have come here when I sensed him. His aura is so powerful he’s gonna wake the whole pack, I don’t want any more questioning or drama. 

“COLE STOP THIS NOW!”

Slowly, the calmness of the night came back, the animals were no longer running and the wind was gentle again.

“You’re just confirming that we don't have anything to discuss anymore. This conversation is not going anywhere.”

I knew that he was still angry, his eyes were still red, but his expression changed to a suffered one.

"No, wait. What do you mean after what happened at the hospital? What did they do to you?" 

He quickly took my hands in his and started looking at me, visibly worried. I sighed.

"Listen, let's do this another day. I'm tired and I'm supposed to go in less than four hours. Okay?"

"So you're still willing to talk to me then?" 

Shit, he got me there. I will never admit it, but I'm happy he asked that question. 

"Yeah, I guess." 

"Okay, please come talk to me anytime you want, day or night. I will always be available for you, forever actually." 

My heart starts to melt at his words, but no. Not today.

I don't say anything, I just walk away and start going back to the packhouse. The coldness and soreness in my body almost knock my body down. After a few minutes, I don't feel his presence on our pack’s land and I know he's gone. And another set of tears stroll down my cheeks.