The Chosen Mate

CHAPTER 12 |

MAVIS'S POV

It’s been three weeks since my stay in the hospital, nothing has changed despite what I thought. No one asked me anything about it or even mentioned my birthday and my trip to the hospital.

Everyone tried to spare me and act as if everything is normal as if I didn’t change into something strange, odd. Since I shifted, my senses were overwhelming, I could feel everyone’s position, hear everyone’s voice even if they were on the other side of the house, when close enough I could feel the shift in their mood, their heartbeat sometimes.

I asked father about this one time, asking if this is normal for everybody “Well, yes it is normal when you shift and meet your soulmate.” I knew that by “meet” he meant the way he and mom met and fell in love, not the pathetic rejection I had instead of the love story I was supposed to live.

I was still onto the idea that it would eventually go away at some point, one day…

I heard about “second chances mate”, ugh. I don’t want that either. I just had a glimpse of what a relationship is and how complicated things were when I was involved.

Plus, I don’t think the Moon Goddess will give me one, I think one is granted if you were in a very delicate and exceptional situation, and that you had a pure heart or some s**t like that. Like hell do I have a pure heart; I’m a liar, a strange she-wolf, even more since I shifted, I didn’t try to shift since the incident at the hospital. Only bad memories. Serena is trying to convince me to shift sometimes, I know she needs it, but deep down I’m just too scared. I feel terrible for not letting her go out sometimes, running with the pack, to see the world in a new light, not through my eyes, but she doesn’t tell me. I feel, her sadness and bitterness when she knows the others are going out. But I can’t, I’m too scared and ashamed at how people were looking at us, at me… In my human form, it’s already overwhelming to hear and feel all the things going around wherever I am, in my wolf form it would be too much to handle. I’m sorry Serena, maybe one day, when I gather the courage… 

Because of how I feel and what happened, I decided not to go to school anymore, It’s not like I needed to go there anyway. I just read the textbooks and lessons of the other wolves of the pack and that’s it. For my advanced class, my teacher, who was a werewolf and there at my birthday party, is sending me my lessons and homework by email.

I didn’t have an amazing social life to miss or to entertain. I just had Henry.

He still comes, every day, distracting me. I’m thrilled he doesn’t let go of me, I know I’m a hell of a problem to him, but he still comes to me, even skipping classes too, which is bad I know, but what is the point anyway. “There’s no real point in going there if you’re not with me.”

“Yeah but I’m concerned that you’ll fail because of me, and you had other friends... You shouldn’t miss out because of me.”

“Nah it’s fine dummy, it’s not like I can go anywhere else for the rest of my life, as if all the things they teach us will help me since I’ll be your brother’s beta. All I’ll have to do is fight with him and all. So it's all fine, I have my life already plotted in front of me.”

He is right though, life has been pointless since then.