Chapter 1.
1095 Words
I honestly could"t believe it, it took almost 2 years of saving and sleepless nights on the job we had made it and i couldn't have asked for a better person at my side. Lou and I had been together since our Junior year and had planned this down to the T. As I walk into our new apartment I feel just like a girl in one of those movies. Lou holds me from behind and I smile back at him, we weren't in the best of situations, he had long ours and I still needed to find a agent but we would get through.
I have no idea how could have been so naive, how could someone in his position feel the need to stay loyal to a wanna be writer when he was paying the pills and I stared at my screen all day, he couldn't give a f**k about me but he could f**k Samantha -his PA- I don't think I will ever get the thought out of my head. I remember being on top of the world when I was heading to his office, he was working late again and I had just received a call from Jonas telling me he wanted to publish my book. I immediately rushed to Lou's favorite takeout place and ordered our favorites, I even put on the lace underwear set he had gotten me for our anniversary I hated. i knew he would be excited and want to celebrate, but was to little to late. i arrived to office to find he had Samantha had celebrated the three month anniversary over a candle lit dinner and she had the same idea i did. i didn't need to see them after all i had heard but i needed to, i didn't want to believe that he would do something so loathsome. Like mother like son i guess.
I don't think they even saw me there, i watched in shock as my fiance bounced his raven haired assistant on his lap, both their backs to me, no ounce of need to close the door or be silent about it. people must know, the pity they must feel towards me...
i know it sounds cowardly but i ran, i got in a cab and grabbed all my s**t. i was not going to wreck the place nor was i going to fight about, i saw what i needed to. that was that. I Katy was there in less than 10 minutes from my call to her in the cab. she helped be pack and just like that i was gone I had almost shed a tear looking at what was our bedroom, no trace of me left behind, not a photo nor memento left. What had been my home for two years only filled me with regret, sadness and a sense of failure. I loaded my bags in Katy's car and look up to his window once more, the window where he had proposed to me, where we spent summer nights watching the sun set and winter days cuddle up watching cars pass. it was all memories to me now, nothing we did together meant anything to him clearly and from now i see it the same way.
the car drive was silent and anything Katy said was with caution as though I had a trigger she may pull with certain words, I couldn't bare to look at her, to see the judgment in her eyes so i aimlessly stared out her car window though i don't recall seeing anything i only remember think about what i would do. i know i could crash at Katy for a couple nights but then what? I couldn't be a literal starving artist. No publisher would give me cent up front so I was pretty much screwed.
I walk into the coffee shop and ignore the stench of fresh roasted coffee, Jonas waves drawing my attention and send him smile while walking over quickly. He pushes my tea towards me and smiles happily. 'we have found the right people. They can not wait to read the next chapter of your book.' he says proudly. I force my excitement trying to find a way to hype myself up but as expected it was pointless. he doesn't seem to notice my lack of energy and continues talking about the deal on the table. Not even fifteen minutes in I zone out and find myself thinking bout the events of last week. With a sigh I stop his rambling and he looks at me with a grin plastered onto his face. I explain everything that has happened and he listens carefully, with every sentence his smile lessens till its a frown accompanied by eyes filled with pity. He says sorry almost a million times the gets in on my side of the booth. he pulls me into his embrace and i immediately shake him off. 'no pity Jo,' I mutter and he moves away slowly almost as though he's unsure on what to do next. 'How about you stick to arranging a meeting and I worry about me.' i suggest standing up and he nods following suit.
He walks me out and me eyes are drawn to the red writing on a sign 'HELP WANTED'. I greet Jonas as he gets into the cab and the minute he leaves and I head back inside. i make my way to the counter and ask the barista if about the position and she sends me to the back office. i give a light knock to the door and hear a voice tell me to enter, i walk in and inquire about the position. he asks if i have any experience in waiting tables and i tell him about my 2 years back home. he looks me up and down ,pulls a red golf shirt out of the box and tells me my first shift starts tomorrow at 10 pm . i call Katy the second I begin my walk home and she is probably more thrilled than I am. By the time i reach the house i can feel the wet patches under my arm and cringe. I see Katy isn't home yet and decide on taking a cool shower.
I grab my cellphone and walk to the spare room I've been staying in and read the texts from Katy all about a party tonight. i think about and decide to go, my shift only begins at 10 plus i really need a night out but i didn't exactly have what came next in mind...
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