MY SECRET CONFESSION

Unknown Well wisher

---Amrita's P. O. V---

I woke up early praying god "please have mercy on me... I want to have a deep peaceful sleep , please share some strength to let me feel comfortable with this uncomfortable rough bed " and sighed after leaving bed, lazily I finished my job in washroom then went to the rooftop . I did my yoga then practice little dance that I learnt last, in my dance class certainly I felt a third person's gaze upon me. I move back to look is someone else here present on rooftop or not but I found none. But my instinct never disappoint me then why I felt like.... When I was talking in mind , my eyes set on the balcony of one flat, in nearby building. I shocked, one man was staring at me from head to toe ...

I knew it my instinct is correct... But just a minute he also know now that I have seen him, still he is goggling at me.. how chip is he... Said in my mind and moved to downstairs immediately. 

I took a shower, dressed myself , put a single clip on my wet hair, took some biscuit as my breakfast and left the room without making any further noise for other's disturbance , carrying my college bag top of my one shoulder and few cake pieces in other hand to finish my remaining breakfast.

 It's feel disgusting the fact that, I couldn't have a healthy heavy breakfast to start my day all because of the stupid rules of food serving time. But I can't complain this except to accept this otherwise my parent will be hurt, thinking all this s**t I found my steps on the busy road... Ohh s**t! I forgot to finish my cake pieces those are still in my hand. I started eating them without looking other's gaze upon me as I know they must be thinking this stupid girl, eating like she is craving for food years , with no manners, why she is in such hurry that she couldn't make it finish in her home and what not. But it's delicious and I can't stop my moaning expression as I just love cake so much and I really can't help it out what they are thinking and what not, stating this in my mind I just simply reach to strand road still last piece remaining in my hand. 

I was engrossed so much looking down to my footsteps that I hit with something and it felt like a wall but when I lifted my head I found it's not other than my senior and his big muscular chest that I felt like wall. I gasped like I have seen a ghost or devil or something may be. My cake piece was about to drop from my hand grip when he managed to catch it. Not only he catch it but put it inside my opened mouth. I gulped it immediately then step further way to college. He said nothing else and just followed me till I get into my classroom. 

It's weird that he really followed me until I get into my class, but why he did so?! I questioned myself, but gradually forgot about him and his did while devoted into the classes.

 I opened my f*******: account in the interval of two classes and found lot of notifications pop up. Why people do send friend request these much!!... I was deleting request one by one with frustration, when I stop by hearing a new voice. It was one new teacher followed by our senior and his gang. "Students your senior is going to discuss something with you people and ..." cutting him off "thank you sir" and senior asked him to leave for 10 minutes and he left also without saying a single word further. 

 Seriously..I mean.. they don't have their classes... except roaming to junior's classes with stupid announcement... I annoyed, seeing my expression he came near to me... "hey girl... what's your f*****g problem!? " I ignored him and pretend to be busy with my phone keeping my eyes on the screen, for a moment I thought what's f*****g mean by, I have to check in google. ( yes you are thinking right about me I was so stupid girl by that time that I wasn't aware of such word's meaning even) Well f*****g means to express anger or contempt...I widened my eyes while thinking what I have done even that he is angry with me, but he had no such anger face instead he sounds so sarcastic or cool when he said that line. I came out of my own thinking land just when I found him lean by my side to see what I am doing with my phone. I immediately turned towards him raising my eyebrows... "What?" with a question mark expression and tried to stand up, just when I accepted one friend request unknowingly by the touch of  my finger tip on the screen, which was in hurry towards power off button.

But, is he really so cheap with no manners left..how dare he try to look into my phone!! I thought, I should ask him ...is this your phone, that you were trying to look into this with such interest...but replied only "looking someone else personal things like mobile phone, is falls under bad manners... Isn't it?!! after a moment later I started again would you like to ans... 

cutting me off, he replied " Miss...when we are present here, don't even try to ignore us especially my words ...otherwise, any single thing, you are doing may be that includes your personal but I can and actually, I will... definitely love to put my nose into it then, it will remain no longer only your personal thing. Hope you get my point clear . So, don't you dare to give such a irritated face with equivalent expressions. Am I clear?! hopefully for the first but last time." He smirked and turned towards the hole class. "Boys and girls I am your new GS(general Secretary). I hope most of know me and about this news right. Whoever doesn't aware of it... like miss Amrita I must say, I declared it just right now and don't ever waste my time like she did. Am I clear ?"

"Such a arrogant." I exclaimed in a loud voice. Ignoring my words, he pointed out someone to announce something and then that guy raised his voice to announce, "we are going to organize a big ceremony on the behalf of 5th September Teacher's day, as we all know . So, we want you to take part in several activities. We are with list of categories. Come here in table, register your name with choice of activity you want to take part in. And remember,  all of you must donate some amount as per your wish with full signature."

All went one by one except me . I was thinking should I take part in any or not and I put my hand in my bag for my purse but ..."s**t ! I forgot to carry my purse. This is not done." I decided then I will not take part in anything and I will signature next day with my possible amount. When I was drown in thinking someone was constantly looking at me . I wasn't aware of it but a girl whispered in my ears just when I look at ...and it was our so called senior GS. What's his problem with me?! I don't know. Enough now, I was about to ask but he left the classroom, as 10 minutes already over and our teacher came into our classroom again.

After this class there was launch break. Naturally I can't go for the canteen just because of my stupidity. " Who does such a daring act to forget, not to carry a purse ammy !!! You are so careless.. " I said in my mind. Well a lot of notification again when I powered on my mobile phone and tap on internet connection. I found a unknown message from, named as Akarsh Roy. I opened it. It's a simple "hi" message. By the way, how is this possible when I accept his request... just then I remembered it was an accidental case. I opened his profile to unfriend him but...(yes there is a big but which stopped me from doing further movement, my eyes got stuck by his profile picture) I felt like some attraction. Although I don't know whether this is his real image or not but he is so handsome, soo beautiful. " One minute.. I am praising a boy, no a man in my life first time...wow...great stop this nonsense ammy. You don't even know him. Stop looking at his image. May be this can be fake or... may be not. " I said in my mind. I should check further right...so, I simply scrolled down and found one mutual friend, who is my school mate, I felt quite relief possibly he is not fake.

I stop admiring his image further and just close my account because I can't resist my hunger anymore with just praising an unknown beauty. But what I can do even... I have no money, no food in my bag. I can't even ask for anyone to help or lend me some money as I have no friends in college yet. This is also my fault lack of approach. I sighed upon my thoughts just when someone put a launch box aside my bag and just left before I could say anything. I found a sticky note on it.

" Just eat this right now don't think twice and this meal cost rupees 40. You can give it back by tomorrow with the lunch box. "

-your well wisher

But how I will give him back . I could't even see his face who gave this to me. Certainly I opened the box with my subconscious mind and my hole nostrils feel with the food smell. It's smelling so yummy. I can't hold it anymore. I just grab the spoon and finished eating hole fried rice and chili babycorn. Thank you my well wisher I said in my mind.

But I wasn't aware of whom I thanked by that time, will become my worst nightmare.