It did not feel good to go to your wedding, scared and paranoid of what could go wrong. I was more tense about getting attacked than tripping on my dress while walking down the aisle. It has been 4 months since the ordeal and ever since, I felt the stares on my back. We decided to delay the wedding and, against Nikolai's wishes, we decided to have a low-key wedding. He fought with everything to have his extravagant wedding, but it just wasn't safe and when I asked him how he would even protect us all if anything was to happen, he agreed with the condition that we would host a big event to commemorate our marriage once we went back home.
The eerie feeling lingered for weeks that went by. Even with a security detail of my own and Nikolai, he told me later when I inquired about the two men
