Marriage is the very bond that has made me move back from relationships with people who have the potential to be the perfect partner. Maybe the prospect of this bond made me hesitate to initiate a simple conversation after the first few dates I had before I met Nikolai. For me, it was the end of the person's relationship, the last stage of intimacy, and the very full stop of the development a human can have with another person. After this, it was only a mitosis of every relationship a person has known. With examples of my kin that gave so much of themselves for another person, expecting nothing but endless love that cannot happen in a human's lifetime but the hope, that window that just would not close has all but broken the picture-perfect painting that I had once painted. If I were to gi
