I tried relaxing, keeping my mind from going to the worst-case scenario. I needed my mind even though it felt like I was gonna lose my emotion. I breathed in deeply, relaxed my mind and my thoughts, and gulped down the bitter reality that I had decided to do it. I will marry Nikolai even if it is the last thing I would do to save the little control I can have over him. The haunting specter of potential loss looms ominously over the fragility of our intertwined lives, stirring a tempest of emotions within the deepest recesses of my being. It's an inexorable truth, an unyielding force etched in the cosmic fabric of destiny, one that no mortal hand can dare to alter, no matter how fiercely one attempts to rewrite the threads of fate. This realization, a bitter pill to swallow, torments my sou
