Jax looks at Oscar, hurt. He won't. His excuse is s**t. Yesterday was hard, and his reason for wanting to be hurt, the reason he felt like he deserved to suffer, isn't worthy of what he put Melodie through. He doesn't deserve anyone pitying him either.
"I'm sorry, you made out like I was part of it, so in my head, me using her to make it look like I did would work. But don't hate her for kissing me either. She was crying, begging me not to go and get myself killed. Hell, I think even if Roland went that far she would have kissed him back. I don't want Lucas near my dad Jax. He was a great father, but I know everything, and I don't want Lucas near that. I freaked. I feel like this was all my fault. I'm sorry to both you and Melodie for kissing her." Oscar looks at him. It is on him, not he
