The Captain's Daughter

Chapter 10

Lucy

What the f**k? Now he doesn't want me? I was stunned. Way to crush my ego or whatever dignity I have left. Did I throw myself at him? Did I read the signals wrong?

I stood up slowly as my ass still hurt. I walked out of the kitchen and headed up to the main deck each step hurt like hell. It stopped raining but it was windy as f**k.

The guys are pulling up the cages. They get dumped over a table where we sort them and toss the bad or small ones back, then toss the good ones in the holding tank below. I got gloves on and started helping.

Tucker came over and told me to sit out.

"No, I got it."

"Lucy your hurt you need to rest."

What do you care about? I spit out.

"Lucy I'm sorry."

"No, you're not, your an ass just like all of them." I chuck three carbs in the tanks. He touched my arm.

"Don't touch me," I yelled at him and moved away from him. He stayed away and kept to himself. I got the crabs sorted in time as the next cage was pulled up. The wind blew wildly blowing my hair like a tornado.

Jasper, Chester and I got the next cage emptied. My lower back was aching from the fall but I kept on pushing. Tucker kept looking over at me trying to catch my attention.

But I was not going to give him anymore for me. He just lost any chance with me. I may be acting hastily but he doesn't know how hard it's been or that me trying to move on is hard. But I was actually trying to take a step in the right direction. But I guess I was wrong.

The boat tips and the cage suddenly slipped and came flying at me I feel my body being tackled to the ground and Tucker is on top of me. The guys grabbed the cage before it could come back and knock one of us out.

"s**t, are you okay? He looked down at me.

"I'm fine." I pushed him off me. He offered his hand I rolled to my side and tried to stand up but my back was jarred from that last blow.

"Ahhh, f**k! I cried out in pain as I try and stand. I fall into the table as my legs give way. Tucker placed his hands on my waist steadying me.

"Lucy you're hurt."

"I'm fine." I pushed off the table and walked off.

"Go, man." I heard Chester say. I turn around.

"Don't bother." I walk off, I grit my teeth as I held onto the railing going down the stairs. I kept getting spasms, shooting through my body. Tightening and twinges in my back. I make it to my bedroom and scream as I laid down. Once I was down I was fine as long as I didn't move.

Tucker came in.

"Get out!  LI turn away and cried out as my back spasms.

"Lucy I'm sorry."

"You're not sorry, your right to stay far away from me."

"It's not like that, Lucy."

"Then how is it, I disgust you, not whorey enough like Miss whoever the hell that woman was that called me a sewer rat."

"You don't disgust me...

"Save it for someone who cares." I kept my head facing away from him. He let out an infuriated breath.

"Damn, your mouthy...

"Yeah so f**k off and leave me alone."

"Are you seriously being like this?

I sit up suddenly completely forgetting about my back and felt it tighten and pain shoot through me again.

"Mmmm, I bit my lip holding in my need to whimper out in pain.

"Tucker, you made me feel stupid like I did something wrong like I read the signals wrong...did I?

"I am crazy for you, but you're in love with Jacob and I can't compete with that. I'll never be the one or enough."

He wouldn't look at me as he shared his feelings.

"I'd rather just be friends then fall for someone that isn't mine." He mumbled.

"Tucker, get over here," I command.

He hesitates then moved across the room and took a seat on the bed.

"I may be healing but why can't we try?

"I've never wanted someone so much, but you scare me."

"I scare you? I was perplexed.

"You had a love you found it and you're still hurting. I don't want to be the second choice or guy just to heal your wounds then you move on."

"Tucker, I don't know what I can give you but I like you. I think you're hot and sexy. I would be lying if I said I hadn't thought about you naked and how your c**k looked under that towel." I look down at my hands feeling my cheek red with heat. He tilts my head up, his fingers gently touched on my chin. His eyes stare into mine.

"I'd be lying if I haven't thought about your body naked and all the things I would like to do...

I blushed and hide my face in his neck.

His fingers ran up my back sending heat and tingle up my spine.

I faint moan escapes me...His hand ran through my hair, feeling his touch felt nice.

"Let's just navigate this slowly. You feel nice Tucker." I turn my head keeping it on his shoulder. He placed his hand on my cheek.

"Okay."

He said it and it made my heart do a flip. His dark orbs stayed on mine they held stories. . . mysteries . . . secrets.

I ran my band through his dark short hair. His hand ran up my side then cured behind my neck.

"Can I kiss you? He asks.

"Mmm, I don't know you kind of ditched me and left me flabbergasted and hurt."

"I messed up, I'm sorry." My brain and body were confused."

"Just tell me what you want?

"Well, Lucy at this moment I want to kiss you so badly."

"Then kiss me." His hand traced the outer edges of my face.

"You're beautiful." He leaned in, I leaned into him meeting him halfway. I placed my hand on his chest...so hard and muscular. Then I feel his lips on mine, my fingers automatically dig into his shoulders.

Tears slip down my cheeks he pulled away. "That bad?

"No, I just I don't know it's a lot." I lay back on the bed and cover my face with my hands. My body shook as I cried. Missing Jacob, having to say goodbye to what I thought was my happily ever after. The bed moves and I peek through my fingers...he looked down at the floor and walked out.

Fuck, I did it again...I made him walk out again. In rage and anger, I toss the lamp across the room and it shattered into tiny shards.

I need to get off this f*****g boat I am done. He's driving me crazy. My mind is clearly stuck on the past and I can't give myself over yet. He's right it's not fair to him. I have to talk to my dad. Tomorrow...my back needed rest.

.....

Tucker

I walked out again. Leaving her. She's messing with my mind. One minute she seems into me the next she's crying over some dead guy that was some amazing prince charming. Which is something I will never be?

Fuck

I race up to the main deck and walk over to the back of the ship. I screamed into the night...

Fuck...

I'll never be enough . . . the one girl that makes me feel things and wants to change and be everything for her and she doesn't want me. Not really anyways.

I should just go back to f*****g and chucking... Don't bet attached and they can't hurt you.

"Dude? Are you all alright? Chester asks as he walked over.

"f*****g fantastic," I shouted.

"What happened??

"Nothing the f**k happened...She'll never want me, man. This Jacob guy is all she wants alive or dead."

I spit out...I knelt down and punched the steel railing. My knuckles immediately crunched and my bones cracked and popped under the blow.

"Tucker, I'm sorry."

"I need to leave."

"Don't through in the towel."

"I can't be, here it's too hard. She doesn't want me...

"Just give it some time...it's only been a week and a bit since you met her. Yes, she had a man and everything was great possibly but you're here now don't run away from her."

"I can't compete with a dead man and fixing her."

"Then don't compete show her your the one...show you can be her best choice yet. Show her the real you."

"I'm never the best choice I'm the last choice until they find they choice that isn't me."

"Dude just hold on. She's into you I've seen it."

"I need a drink."

"She doesn't need this man you know she's got issues. Be the strong one."

"I can't...I stand up and walk away.

We had a few more cages to do so we get those done. Then I went off to the lower deck. I needed to sleep.

I stayed with Dylan I needed space...

What a mess.