Love Kush - Beginnin'

In a Nutshell

I’m only briefing the Tale of a wayward boy who got brought up to a city at age 12 by his parents to surpass the fear of kid being a dawdler like all people in the old town; from the paranormal outbreaks; away from The Naxal; Or from the kid’s own naught and obviously for his better future. I as a kid had begun to go rogue against the parental authority, Bunking schools & tuitions since my pre primary he had to be controlled, Attending computer classes using social sites since age eight had the kid grow up in an imperceptible way.

While growing up kid learnt the worth thus was starving for the addictive taste of affection & attention at all times, he was always chasing fandom & superiority but also begun to grow up and had to pay attention to work as the life of his father, Who had lost both his parents at his age five but still somehow managed to be the strongest pillar of His whole family.

The house they habited was believed to be haunted since the beginning of time. The exact partition that was parted for my father to reside in had a Mango tree which was believed to had resided two uneasy spirits in it, It’s also believed that it took lives of all my father’s siblings one at a time.

When I turned 12 It was my father’s calling to leave that house as I held his hand and he felt the strength, He gathered all the courage with his riches and prepared my family to come settle in Raipur. As a kid I was in a delicate situation cause by the years it only kept getting tougher for us as we couldn’t sell anything ancestral.

I only worked hard till the years that I realized I was good at that Rogue s**t, I’ve always been known for my naught and almighty put a catalyst in my life that made me do my smart & my best in order to live the dreams in reality.

When I moved to the big city Raipur I met many women that used to remind me of all the beautiful places I had ever explored, They were the catalyst. But particularly her presence to me was always in the green screen that I saw her wherever I've ever been. I got lost in the passion amongst us as it was like a fiery aura that when I had it for the first time which was with her, I literally didn’t care if the whole World burnt down to ground. Such passion could’ve made you too tear a hill apart like Manjhi. Passion that could make you want to bring change in the entire World maybe just in order to make your own one better.

Things were really nice in my life as that girl was along in all my ups and downs but as she belonged to a richer family, I always felt like there’s some deficit in treating her right, I felt helpless inside as for why couldn’t I spend on her as much as she spent on me. This thing was slowly turning into a guilt factor in my brain as to why things were not elevating in my favour. I used to dream about Marrying her one fine day but it seemed impossible to my innermost self as she was princess from a kingdom while I was a mere captive in an unfruitful business where I was trying so hard to change things.

As my life got filled with passion to live at it’s entire potential I decided to pursue writing to make my economic status better but then with the rising tension about my life in the middle class, Failing in elevating had me drawn to hemp & liquor by the time I started writing at my age Twenty. While I was desperate to help my father live a better life, as I wasn’t smart enough to make any moves, all my rash decisions came crawling back at me as my failures. I started to lose my mind, fell addicted to intoxications and went prone to psychosis.

Psychosis mostly puts its patients in an honest state of mind where they don’t even think twice before revealing all their thoughts and desires to anybody. When I was first hospitalised with this situation all the blame went to the her as I so wished to marry her, I revealed each and everything we had been through to how I would do my best to achieve myself a life where I get to be with her. As my family was sick of the fact that she is the reason behind my condition thus that role of intoxications in my mental illness were overlooked. My family blamed & warned her to stay away from me for the sake of my mental health.

After I was treated in my first phase the most ideal commitment us broke after lasting three long years but I continued my grind for that dream to come true. As in the city we resided in, I was drawn to her again and again but I wasn’t ready so I chose to leave the city for the sake of my dream, towards the National Capital Region with the thought of promoting the uncommunicative novel I had got published at my age 21 with her for her in my life & trust me it took all amount of compassion, I also took a job in Gurugram while promoting that novel to people. Promoting the novel had to be a flop as I was nothing more than the spoils of Love I received from my friends, family & especially her.

The job I got was a great opportunity for me to up my game, elevate my mind to finally achieve the amounts of success I had desired since forever. As I had been addicted to substances before I slowly was drawn towards the intoxications again which were no less than a poison to me.