I Hate Everything About You

Plan

The attention I get made me dislike it. I wanted to have a simple life like nobody cares that much. Every time girls flirt with me made me furious. I have to draw them away, but it doesn't work.

One day, when I was sitting under the tree with my only friend Ebes Stash, I asked what would be the best thing to get out of the hell I was in - like the popularity. Ebes just gave me silence, and after a few moments, he suggested an idea that sounded like a winning one.

"Well, this one sounds terrible, but it's up to you to do it or not!" He started.

"I'm listening!" I let him further explain.

"You're gay, right?" He gives me a look and waits for my nod for him to explain further.

"Yes, and what about it?" I curiously frown in question.

"Well, what if you out yourself and ..." He paused and thinking different possibilities.

"And everyone might restraint and keep their distance?" I filled the blank while he just nodded and gave a cocky smile.

"Not a pretty bad idea, dude!" I continued.

"I have a plan," I smirked and giggled.

After we have talked about the plan, we headed home and parted ways. When I arrived home, I get my laptop with me and posted it on my i********:.

" I AM GAY "

The Sooner I hit the button and posted online, comments flowing like no end. I don't have much time to read them. I changed my profile picture with the rainbow flag.

I closed the laptop and got up from my comfortable bed, and freshen up in the bathroom. The warm water that flows down on my skin was like a massage that penetrates deep on my skin, relieving my mind from the stressful school days.

After a few minutes, I went outside the bathroom and dried myself with the towel.

After I dried my hair, I walked towards the closet, got my boxer, and put it on. I slid down unto my bed, sooner I dozed off.

I wake up when the hot sun's rays directed into my eyes. I covered my face with my blanket and let myself laid there for a while. After a few moments, I've fully awakened and went into the bathroom, brushed my teeth, and washed my beautiful face. It was 9 am Saturday, and I have lined up events today.

I headed down to the kitchen to fill my stomach. I saw mom there preparing something that so good to smell that fed on my nostrils.

"Whatcha preparing?" I asked while she seemed busy preparing the food.

"Nothing much, same as usual!" She was smiling while preparing the bacon and sandwich on my plate and pouring down the freshly made apple juice.

"This is perfect!" I commented.

"I know what you posted yesterday, and was it all true or just giving buzz?" She pulled a seat and put herself opposite from me on the table.

"Well, partly true!" I answered while digging the food.

" Are you mad about it ?" I continued waiting for her response.

"Not really, I have nothing to do with it, but I'm thinking of what your dad's reaction would be." Her concerned looks made me laugh.

"It won't care." I laughed.

"Speaking the loving husband," pointing the fork in my dad's direction.

"Hey, you like the popularity, huh?" Dad was laughing as he leaned on the kitchen door frame.

"Well, you must be upset because what I posted was true, though." I tried to piss him.

"I was, but that's your life, and I'm out from it, " He answered.

I never expected that reaction because I thought he would kick me out, but it seemed he's not affected in any way.

"Ash, all I can say is I'm proud of you because you're a strong and bold kid." He continued while mom settling breakfast on his side.

"I'm no kid anymore. I'm 17 already." I pouted.

"Well seemed like outing myself is ineffective since I'm still receiving good response from the school community. I thought everything would be over, but it looks like I draw another pack." I sadly pulled out those words.

After I had my breakfast, I prepared myself and drove my car. A few drives later, I finally arrived at the first event. Soon as I arrived there, a familiar face of my only friend showed up for the first in my entire career as a model. He's not into modeling but seeing him there made me burst out laughing.

"Hey, what has gotten into you today?" I curiously asked him.

"Nothing much, but it appears we failed hahaha" he burst out laughing after saying that news.

"What's your other plan. I wanna hear it" I broke his laughing moments.

"Uhmm yeah, I'll be closing ties with you and end our friendship!" He seriously stated.

"Aww that sounds bad, then I will not miss you anyway!" I hissed and chuckled.

"Ash, my mom, and dad will migrate to the US, and I can't protest it, and I need to go with them." He sadly explained.

I took a deep breath.

"I'm coming with you!" I suggested

"What! Mom and Dad would think we have a thing." He giggled like a kid.

"F*** you dreaming?" I hissed.

"Sorry, but would your parents allow you to come with us cause I doubt they will!?" He insisted.

"They're pretty fine of me being gay, so I think that would be okay with them," I explained while looking on my watch.

"Seems like I needed to go. Leave a message if you're parents give their nod." He waved his hand as he slid inside his car and drove away.

All four events have done, and I returned to our house afterward. I hurriedly walked towards the door and held the handle to open it. I saw mom and dad watching TV in the living room.

"Hey, how's your day?" Mom asked while she briefly looks at me.

"Nothing special, but I need to talk to both of you!" I'm determined to transfer to the US to get rid of the annoying people at school.

"What's it?" Dad looked at me directly.

"Ebes and his family will migrate to the US, and I wanted to go with him!" I proclaimed, and only the sound from the TV echoed inside the house. A few moments later, dad pulled out some words finally.

"I'll think about it. Just give us time to think that idea." He seriously retorted while mom nodded.

"I hope that won't take long." I headed upstairs after hearing my dad's response.

I undo all my clothes and went into the bathroom to freshen up. A few moments later, I went out of the bathroom and dried my hair.

After my hair dried up, I put my boxer on and toppled on my bed. The softness of my bed feels so relaxing. Soon I dozed off.

It was Sunday morning. I did not wake up earlier because I don't have an event for today. I let myself laid there until I fell asleep again. I heard my mom's voice calling my name to take my brunch. I got up from my bed, extended my arms and legs, and went into the bathroom to brush my teeth.

I headed downstairs and walked towards the kitchen. My mom was preparing the brunch. I asked them about transferring to the US that I opened up last night.

She told me it's okay as long as I'll keep them updated. After hearing that great news, I told Ebes about it, and we are ready to go.

Everything was well planned, and after a few weeks, we have landed in LA. My mom and dad suggested that I better get an apartment than living with Ebes to not intrude on their privacy which I agreed.

I stayed at Ebes’ house momentarily before I haven't found an apartment yet. I planned to stay closer to the school so that I don't need to take a drive. A few days later, Ebes helped me looking for an apartment. After a few searches, we found one but quite far from the school, which was still good anyway since I can walk that distance.

We have finalized everything and sooner I got my key card with me. We headed to the room and it's quite huge for a single person but I like the comfortability and the view outside. After roaming around. We headed to Ebes house to pull out my belongings. Ebes helped me carrying that luggage as I bid farewell to his parents that are so great.

After a tiring day of putting down and arranging my things. Ebes bid bye and I left alone. I toppled my back on the bed to feel the softness of the queen size bed. Tiredness forcefully closed my eyes and soon enough I forgot everything. Hunger in my stomach woke me up. I ordered food since I haven't done groceries yet. Finally, a few minutes later I got my order and filled my stomach to feed the hunger I felt.

After having my meal I took a shower and getting ready for myself because I need to do some groceries for the rest of the week. I rented a car and drove to the nearest grocery store. I got all the things that I needed for a week. After checking on the counter I headed back home. I unloaded the groceries and place them in their respective areas in the fridge and the pantries. Tomorrow is Monday and Ebes and I will visit Beverly High to enroll ourselves.

I prepared my dinner, I cooked eggs and bacon with freshly made apple juice. After I ate my dinner. I cleaned everything and watch movies in the living room.

I contacted my agencies' counterpart here in LA to continuously do modeling. Afterward, we have agreements and seemed perfectly fine.

I went to my room straight to the bathroom and took a bath. The warm water that touches my skin was amazing. I head out from the bathroom after got finished and dried my hair using the towel.

I slid to my bed and let the kingdom of dreams pulled me out.

...

The sound of the alarm clock startled me. I brushed my eyes and flexed my arms to fill up the energy. I got up from the bed and headed off to the bathroom to freshen up myself. Today will be my first day here in LA. The warm water caressed my skin feels so perfectly amazing and relaxing. After I finished freshen up my self I brushed my teeth and seeing myself in the mirror my thought of having a man in my life made me ponder. I feel like I'm not ready yet, ready to get hurt. What if he will not love me in return? What if I will fall into his trap and escape their broken pieces. Those thoughts kept playing and I need to be ready so in time will come I will know how to handle brokenness.

After pondering any possibilities, I exited the bathroom and headed to the kitchen to cook for my breakfast. Sadly, Ebes and I aren't classmates well I'm used to it anyway. I baked eggs and pancakes for my breakfast. After having my breakfast I looked for clothes in my closet searching best style to put on. I pulled out the jacket with hood and lose pants. I checked myself in the mirror and hell! I looked like beggars. Well, that's a pretty nice idea since I want my escape to fall into nothing.

I made a final look and damn I look odd. I felt excited about how would my new classmates react to my appearance. I grabbed the key in my hand and exited the room. I locked the door and rode the elevator. I headed to the car that I rented yesterday and drove to school. New places, new faces showing up as I getting closer to the school. The car park was almost full made me find a spot to park my car even harder.

I parked my car after minutes of roaming around. I get out of my car and headed to the building to find my room. And yes I'm almost late less than one minute left, I'll be roasted by our teacher if that's the case so I run through hallways, and finally, my room was coming into view. I opened the door all of my classmates have already filled up the room and the chairs at back has only one left empty right next to the good-looking guy.

I didn't hesitate, I sat down and put my bag on top of the table. All eyes were in my direction like made me felt uncomfortable. The guy next to me gave me a serious stare as all did but I ignore them all. Their attention was drifted to the older woman sitting on the front table when she broke the tension by asking to introduce myself since I'm a transferee.

I stand from my seat and about to introduce my name however she interrupted and told me to come to the front to properly introduce myself. I followed her order and walked towards the front of the classroom. All eyes were on me again. Murmurs of curiosity of why I'm wearing a hood that covers half of my face above the tip of my nose with a facemask on. Thankfully the teacher didn't react to my odd look. I stated my name, where I'm from, and my sexuality of being gay.

"Hahaha, I know now the reason why he hides his face ." The guy said in front of the good-looking guy sitting next to my seat.

"He got beaten back in London after he told his parents that he's a fa***." As he broke the questioning looks of curiosity among the students in the classroom.

Everyone laughed at it as they agreed with what he has said. Only then when the teacher interfered stopping them they again drifted their glare back to my direction.

The teacher broke my silence when she asked me to have my seat. While walking back to my seat, all their eyes glued on me which made me uncomfortable.

After a tiring morning class, the buzzer has rung cue for the lunch break. I got up from my seat eagerly like I usually do back in London made me come out of the room ahead of them. I arrived at the Cafeteria and lined up to order my lunch. No one gave attention to me in the cafeteria unlike in the room back then.

Having a sandwich on my tray and a bottle of water is more than enough to fill up my stomach. I search for an empty seat however the cafeteria was jump-packed. I spotted a table were not fully occupied however the good looking guy and the two blond bully were on there, I have to make a choice. I decided to head to their table. They gave me a confused stare but I don't care about it anyway. Across from my seat is the good-looking guy right next to him is the other bully while the other one, next to my seat.

Their eyes glued on me without saying any words. I took off my facemask unveiling my half face showing my pretty shaped lips and the sharp edge of my face.

I dig my food right away and drink the water afterward. I finished eating my lunch and still no words left from their mouth. I could see Mr. Good-looking guy occasionally stare at my half showed face.

I pulled out another facemask and put it on while preparing to get up. I put my bag on my back and bring the tray with me returning them to the sink. I washed my hands and dried them up with the dryer attached to the wall next to me. I headed back to the main building and I saw Ebes with his new friends I guess.

"Hey Ebes, how's your first day?" I nonchalantly asked while approaching their direction.

"Damn I didn't notice you, like hell what's up with your new style, that's an odd dude!" He laughed while checking my appearance.

"Ugh, don't ruin my day dude." I angrily hissed back to him.

"Sorry, anyway these are my new friends, He's Owen and Rova" He introduced me to his friends.

"Hi, I'm Ash, nice meeting you." I extended my hand to shake theirs.

" Hi, guys I'm back thanks for waiting for me here." The girl approaching in our direction.

"And she's Irena.." Ebes declared.

"Hi, oh who's this guy?" She asked everyone as she stood close to Ebes.

"Hey, I'm Ash!" I extended my hand to her gestures for a handshake.

"That's weird if you will not show up your face to us hahaha!" She laughed as she declined my handshake offering.

"Well let's not forced him, he's been through a lot." Ebes interrupted while tapping my shoulder.

"He outed to his parents and the whole school back then so ..." He continued saying half lies.

"Uh oh, so you're ga..y?" Owen asked while he rubbed the strap of his bag.

"Yes I am!, Is there anything wrong about it?" I curiously asked.

"Nothing much, don't worry dude if you get bullied back then, here we're ready to protect you if you need them." Owen seriously suggested.

"Yes, you can count on us," Irena added while Rova nodded in response.

"Well, thanks to you, I never expect that." I smiled in response.

"Well seem like we need to part our ways," I suggested while checking my phone.

"Yeah, see you next time," Rova responded while everyone waving their hands as I walked away from them.

I entered our next afternoon class and the tension inside was not as like the morning when they made fun of my odd looks. The good-looking guy occasionally stares at me while his friends who made fun accusations of me earlier seem like they restraint.

Afternoon class had ended and as I walking towards my car I saw Owen and Rova. But I didn't call their attention because I want to get home earlier. After all, I felt like I'm worn out.

I drove my car and got to my apartment earlier. I headed to my room and laid there for a while after a few minutes I dozed off.

I woke up in the morning peacefully as my body renovated fully. I prepared myself and headed to school. My first period was good until the last period which sounds relaxing. Nobody gave attention to my weirdness today which felt good. Before I headed home I went to the men's room to answer the call of nature. Afterward, I was washing my hand on the sink with the large mirror reflecting my hidden handsomeness. I lowered back down the hood that covered my face and checked my face for a moment. I let out a deep sigh before I realized someone is behind my back reflecting on the mirror. I hurriedly covered my hood back and hurriedly get outside while putting my mask on. Mr. Good-looking guy has seen my exposed face while cursing under my mouth.

Well, I have no feeling that he will tell everyone or make gossip out of me. I'm no one compared to him. I walked down through the hallways until I reached my car. Looking at my car thinking of buying a new one instead of renting such a dent-looking old car. I planned on buying on weekend with Ebes. I slid inside and started the engine. While driving towards my place I've spotted the park looking so inviting. I parked at the nearest car park and started to walk towards the park. I know that none of my classmates would come to a place like this so instead of wearing my hood, I lowered down it to my back to feel comfortable. The air relaxing and I love it as it caressing my cheeks.

I sat down on the bench across the beautiful trees and flowers. Children with their parents joyfully playing around. It took me about half an hour to watch the calmness and the happy faces roaming around. I stand from my seat and turned my back to the car park when I bumped into a hard thing. When I looked up damn, Mr. Good-looking guy was that so close to me that I could still feel his hard chest when everything came back to the reality that after statued for a moment when he pushed me.

"Next time watch your steps!" He said after he pushed me while hurriedly covered my face with a hood that rested on the back of my neck. He was about to say something when I strutted away from him. I entered my car and started the engine. I arrived at home with heavy breathing coming out of my lungs.

"Ash, why so reckless today." I hissed myself.

I was looking at the mirror that hiding is worse than being who I am with the fame I've got from before. I thought sometimes to show my real me and not hiding from my shell anymore. In the first place, our school had already had the most popular one so I won't bother thinking about getting that attention anymore. I'm far behind from Mr. Good looking anyway compared to his achievements in school well in looks I'm more handsome. I prepared my dinner with bacon and eggs with orange juice. I washed the dishes after dinner, watched some movies got bored, and washed my teeth afterward.

Thoughts of showing my face keep playing in my head. Those thoughts made me felt dizzy and a few moments later I dozed off.

Beep!

Beep!

Beep!

My beautiful sleep was interrupted by the alarm clock. I wiped my eyes still sleepy but no choice. I need to get up for school. A few moments later I brushed my teeth and took bath. The warm water refreshing every time it touches my beautiful and flawless skin. I savored the moments of massage-like feeling before I got out of the bathroom and went to the kitchen to prepare my meal.

The meal was done and I got ready for school. today is Wednesday and two more days weekend is coming. On Saturday I have no runway shows, only on Sunday. Yes, on Sunday from 2 pm until 10 pm sounds stressful but I like getting tired so that when I arrive home I have no struggle to get sleep.

I looked for better clothes, I find tighter jeans and maroon turtle neck tops. I looked at myself in the mirror and the reality of me showing up as I missed him for being him. The metal grey eyes, longer and thicker eyes lashes add to the sexiness of it. My pink lips look inviting with my sharp jawline, a perfect match with my coffee red hair combed backward.

Instead of wearing a hood, I only have a face mask and a shade on my eyes. I got my car keys and headed to the parking area. I started the engine and steered to the school. I arrived at the car park that seemed full packed again. I roamed around for a minute after finding a spot. I parked the car hurriedly because I have less than two minutes left. I ran towards the building again, through the hallways and some turns, and finally, our room came into view. I hurriedly opened the door.

"Almost late!" Our teacher spoke as I entered my body inside the room. Their eyes landed in my direction with their mouth formed o shape. I walked towards my seat while their eyes glued and followed every time I moved towards the chair. I put my bag down on my table and sat in my perfect spot. Their stare still in my direction made me looked down at my table. I took a glance on my side where Mr. Good looking sat. His eyes fixed into mine made me felt awkward. His beautiful blue eyes fixed into mine while his kissable pink and soft lips parted a little exposing a small view of his white teeth. His hair styled properly with his nice tops add the intensity of his sexiness.

I looked away as I felt the blood rushed to my face and my ear. I could feel the redness of my face under my facemask's covered face. The teacher started her discussion which helped to break the silence and their attention to mine now shifted to the teacher in front.

The morning class was like the longest class I've ever had. The bell rang indicating launch. I hurriedly headed outside and walked fast towards the cafeteria while their eyes following on me. Though I get used to it since I always gave that on the runway but this one is different.

Soon as I arrived at the cafeteria I looked for Ebes.

"Hey, Ash over here." His voice echoed the entire cafeteria which resulted in all eyes drifted in my direction.

Mr. Good-looking guy with his friends on the other side with their eyes fixed in my direction. I felt weird like this kind of attention. I walked towards Ebes' table while removing the mask on my face.

"Wow, dude you looked like God today." He added while Irene and Rova nodded in response with their huge smile.

"Don't say that loud I know it." I hissed while chuckling inside.

"Are you tired of hiding dude?" Ebes asked while I nodded in response.

"Sorta!" I confirmed.

"I'll be more protective from now on," Rova answered while kept his gaze on me.

"I agree with her, I don't wanna see our best boy hurt." Irene interrupted.

"Wow best boy, don't act so close you didn't even take my handshake last time!" I hissed while she just laughs.

"Sorry, dude!" She apologized while she tapped my shoulder.

" Enough, let's eat our lunch or eat him" Owen broke the moment.

We talked sometimes and decided to head out for our next class afterward. I parted ways from them and went to my locker to put some books in there from my morning classes. As I arrived there, Mr. Good-looking guy with his friends was there and the other one leaned on my locker.

"Excuse, can I used my locker." I just smiled at him. I didn't wear my face mask after lunch which shows off my face.

He just moved a little bit for me to be able to open my locker.

I put all of my books inside and closed them afterward.

"Hi, I'm Ivan." The bully guy who leaned on my locker stated.

"I'm Sosh and this is Mesh and you know him already right?" Pointing to Mr. Good-looking guy who just stares at my appearance.

"Well I don't know his name but.. seems like he doesn't like to introduce himself! and I'm not interested either. Well, thank you nice meeting you, I'll get going" I turned around and left them behind.

"Boom, someone's ego hurt hahaha." I heard Ivan teased Mr. Good looking.

"I can feel it, ughh" Sosh added.

Everything faded as a walked farther and the room for our next class came into view.

I sat on my regular seat, a few moments later Mesh entered first followed by Ivan while Sosh behind him and Mr. Good-looking guy the last one to enter.

They sat in their respective seats while Mr. Good-looking guy did not sit next to me. They exchanged seats with Ivan.

Ivan's reaction was just smirked like he already knew it. Ivan chatted with me and asked apology for his foul words on the first day. He sounds friendly the way he speaks. He invited me to the Saturday party but I declined the invitation because I have planned it already. He gave me his number and I accepted it.

The last period was over and I headed towards the car. As I about to open the car door someone spoke out of nowhere.

"The owner is God, but the car looks hell!" I turned around, and there he is Mr. Good looking smirking.

"Bad as it looks, but I'm not ashamed because it doesn't reflect my inner self. Someone good as it looks but bad as hell from the inside." I hissed and slid inside the car. I never look at his face to see his reaction anymore. I started the engine and headed home.

I put my bag down on the couch after I arrived home. I changed my clothes and prepared for my dinner.

Steak and mashed potatoes sound good. I drink water after I ate my dinner and wash the dishes afterward. I went to the living room to watch some documentary videos on youtube.

I felt sleepy, so I decided to head to the bathroom to brush my teeth and shower myself. I dried my hair with the dryer. I went to my room, and I shove myself under the duvet. I felt my back relaxing with the soft sheets under me. Mr. Good-looking guy thought back into my mind again, and I hate him for being rude. Well, I may be ruder but like him like what he had done earlier.

The day was good until he showed up. I let myself relax and forget him.